Wednesday, December 31

you'll never know how it hurts.
but thanks for trying anyway

oic > i'm sorry i suck. i dissappointed ya didnt i? sorry. you're totally entittled to sack me. and thanks dear. for tryin..but ya forgot i know all da tricks of the trade too.... :)

shijie > i didnt manage to make that call. chickened. ahs. but. shall wait patiently for her reply... thanks fer being there too lar. i'm sorry if i pulled ya into all this... and i owe ya da testimonial. soon i promise!

enen > i'm sorry i let you down. i'm sorry for being useless. i'm sorry for being ur mei you yong de leader. go for zone and beat em flat kays? at least that way i would acctually have an acheivement. sorry i cant be there with yar. and thanks for tryin to make me :). ya quite succeeded. :) sorry if i took anything out on you. and if i could. i would like to be your sky.sun.moon.star.cloud.... but am i'm really not quite up to it yet.....

zzl > thanks toliet ic. hahas.. no lar. i know you were fakin it lar. dunneed act. but thanks fer tryin also yea? ya lar ya lar. we cry together issit? and thanks for the hydra fotos! i look super like shit can? and i owe you my next meal's food kays?

jace/anna > i know ya didnt know wot wot goin on at all. dun worrie darl. it doesnt matter. thanks fer just carin.

calmed down
hes right. wots done cannot be undone
and i dun even know wot i did.
thought long and hard.
but still cant catch no ball.
guess i'm horriblely slow?
or issit cause of the tears that blurred my vision?
or maybe just plain immature ehs?
i'm so lost
i'm almost not here.

had maths tution with pamms today.
one of my my bestest pals :))
she really cheered me up.
deres no other like her yeas?
i sorta fogot abt da horrible me for a moment.
thanks bud.
and i wos sorta prodda myself!
finally soloved my first proving question!
i wished i stayed there.
moods been takin a downturn since i got home
funnie how this is the first time i ever wished for more maths tution...
or maybe i shd just have went out and forget this matter.
if its even possible

i suck :
as a jnr
as a snr
as a squadmate
as a tudi
as a shifu
as an nco
as a cadat.
maybe my mums right.
maybe i should just quit stjohns.

still wot sgt.
think i can be cpl shd tou xiao alr.

qius/enen > thanks fer tryin. and qius. great food ic yea?

Tuesday, December 30

by rights
i should feel guilty.
and immature.
and totally loser-fied.
and horrible.
and utterly ashamed of myself.
and like a total disgrace
and a spoilt wailing brat.
somehow. i feel hurt instead.
someone i trusted never came through.
but am i even entittled to feel such?

wotever she can do to me will only bring me anger.
but you can achevive so much more with a few words.

you got me thinking.
but i couldnt see the light.
i really tried hard. but it wosnt enuf.
and i know its my fault
for thinking too highly of myself
maybe you did the right thing
by shattering all my confidence.
maybe i should thank you instead?

and i think i dont deserve to be a sgt
at all.
i doubt i ever will be one.
do you believe theres a 46th stop?

sec4hope.
here i come.
shd smile or sigh?
feels oldness...
saw dee sec1s today
first time looking at red badges and think : wows. all so ultra toots...
:/
hey doie. ur squad de lai bao dao alr. ahhas...
saw someone who looked ultraly like caros sister..
ahhas.. is really super xiang.
complete with da curtain frindge.
hahas.. evilness

den stayed back in da hall with da sec2s
poor sok. so miserable abt her klass with zhong guo feng qi... :/
den 3wisdom abit good lar. 6 sj de. poor enen wos the only one left out... ://
heard theres this guy called ruddie trying to jio my angle. ahhas..
he sounds ultra funnie man.
hahas...

towned with enens and anna.
no funnie lar the qi fen
like at first v awkward.
den wanna like.. ya know. hug their arm also v guai.
just doesnt feel right.. hahas...
and both of them like sooo tall... bahhhhhs-
and i felt like super extra. they kept like telephathying...
hahas... -shurgs
think its cause of da generation gap lar. hahas..
budden it got better when dee ice melted.. ahhas..
think they ultra lame.
ultra ultra ultra!
and ens wos totally a op model.
shirt.pants.and bag all op de.
yo op gurl! hahas...

wahs. den me and her decide on something can take days de lol...
wanted to catch juon. bud today not showin lol.
how sai is that?
hahas.. supposedly tomorrow open lar.
den all along got sneak preview since like 27?
den suddenly today dun have. abit good lar.
hahas.. so in the end we decided on sounds of colors.
went to lido and ps. den both also mei you...
ohs! saw ele.peizhi.ritz.yanyuan at lido.
gosh da guys are so tall!
hahas.. but they dun seemed to have changed much ...
suddenly miss my pri sch mates... bahhs.. i promise i'll meet up with em soon! :)
ended at ljs eatin lunch lar.
den enen like dun wanna eat. drink cokelite lar.
like some super diet freak...
den in dee end we sorta shared a 'lovers meal'....
anna left after that. think her bro v cute. bogae de. but still cute... unfairness. how come all i've got is a lousy sis?
den me and ens wenta j8 to watch lar.
wos tryin to get gummies den ens not lame lar. pointin out da dumb names of da candies.
den i wos laughin like an idiot infronta da "mini fried eggs". :)
saw yilin and sok..
they were so fasinated with da peterpan poster.. suppposed theres a charles.hakim.vincent.nicholas.hongyi. blah blah. look alikes on it lar..
gosh. they v lame guo tou lae.
hahas.. and i quite agree da juon poster gurl thinngie looks like yvonne....

review of di xia tie :
some parts quite funnie
and my toes were totally frozen...
the guy wos super nice lar...
den yang quan hua v chio!!! hahas.. and there wos this cute carelafare guy who appered for like 1 sec. but i think he wos quite cute. hahashh
wos quite a plain show lar.
but it wos v wen xin!
hahas.. da bliss of simpicity ba?
so walked outta da theater with a :)....
great day with da kind cute innocent friendly helpful gurl and da shuai mao.
(-double pui.)

and OMG! guess wot!
i'm sergeant!!!
like FINALLY!
hahas.. think it shd be acting sergeant.
haven been thru the audition.
but at least da sgt words there! :)

Monday, December 29

bread.
happiness always.
:)

bbqed today.
didnt actually count da no. of ppl.
suddenly realized yingxuan.val.lingyan. never come..
erms.. not slow lar..hahas..
so neways.
it wos quite fun lars..
all self entertainment
ahahs
basketball with yingtung and anna wos totally like some molest show lar.
den i learnt bridge!
played one game. and lost lar...
hahs.. but thanks pris!
at least it adds on to da number of gambling games i know. hahas..
den the sec2s.
sorry lar. not embarrassing
totally sj-fied
take strenght somemore.
-pengs.
too into bnco... but i supposed thats good
a little diu lian but good. hahas..
den they came up to my house like go some museum....
dorts...
didnt bbq much.
sorry peeps.
logistics de ma..
:)
and oic! ya were great kays..
thanks fer all dee food!

know wot da sec2s are famous for?
-talk cork
-slack
-gossip.
-yingtung

Sunday, December 28

hakuna matata
wot a wonderful phrase
hakuna matata
aint no passing craze
it means no worries
for the rest of your days
its our problem-free philosophy
hakuna matata

went ta jace's house.
supposed to play marjong
den she found da marj set missin
so darns. hand so itchy. hahas..
so we ended on the xbox.
playin lord of the rings
i teamed with hui, den when we finally slashed all the orges and almost completed level one
i fell of da bridge and died.
hahahs.. well done me.

hahas.. anyway. in a real good mood nows cuz of *ahem* :)
lalala.....
hahahs.. neways, shall blog abt yesterdays tests lar....

theory :
wells. think i wos the first to finish.
den i wenta sleep.
ahhas.. paper like xiao.
mcq ... tryin luck
t/f... circle till v shuang
open ended.. crapped wotever i could come up with. and supposedly it wosnt enuf.
den ruo wos like sittin on the chair and sticking her tongue out at me... :/

moi :
lectured on head injuries
figured that i sucked.
hahas.. but not my fault wot
head injuries is just such. how to make it interestin? rap ar?
den i wos the smiliest lecturer there
my teeth totally showin 99% of da time.
accd to my grp..
erms....
den gx wos quite wooden lar. readin from his cuecards..
den i wos shakin (and smiling like a goon) all dee way..
good contrast?

fd moi :
i commanded like sai.
tried to 'teach' kakana puseng
and totally sounded like shit
den i wos de only one who used the long command, who walked ard the squad. who corrected mistakes.
extra? like DUH.
hahas.. yy was standin beside me with that smile.
den i wos like wot?
and she dun care abt us. pretend we're invinsible.
but i wos goin to turn right.
and she wos barely 3 cm away from me on my right. like huhs?
but neways.
the highlight of fd wosnt my teachin
it wos dee others..
the 2 guys frm juggernaut tried v hard lar..
but somehow i couldnt help but wanna laugh.
den eric dunno kai wot joke
ask me lift my legs higher.
firstly. my legs ARE 90!
secondly, my grp de got ppl much much worst den me
thirdly, my skirts too tight to raise higher!!!
hahas.. hes quite cute lar.
ahahs.. zzl v funnie lar.
ssssssssqqqqquuuuuueeeeeeezzzzzeeeeeeeee... hahas
den he not cute lar.
ask me go give lanka command.
me. why me? bahhs him. i didnt need an extra chance to show how bad my command is.
den jiaying wos quite pro lol
she didnt look pro. but she wos!
but she funnieness lar. teach us hanta.
den zzl timing so joker
totally hoppin on da spot.
gx command v funnie. think he overly jing zhang alr.
chritina and felicia like abt the same de.. got the bedokgreen air.. hahas.. :)
totally died tryin to keep my laughter in
den cannot help it la. smilin all da way.. ahhas
influnce my grp to laugh.
den keep sniggerin behind zzl and felicia.
hahas.. sorry lar...

cpr:
flunked it.
totally.
first time ever i feel my cpr cannot make it
den yvonne not lame lar.
"my pooh pooh here will help you to jiayou"
dorts.

I am a sadistic young lad with a pathetic looking face, a total lamer...
-zzl

Saturday, December 27

wont let ya get me down

bahhs-
wos in quite a good mood taday
den she just hadda spoil everything
damn it wots her prob?
she just hadda call us back
give me a lecture.
and tell us to scoot from her sight in 10sec
wot?
lecturin me is fun? knew you were dyin to scold me since da first day
so wot? huh? staff sergent liao bu qi ar?
and when you scold. please lol. open your eyes. use this *points to da head*
since when wos i
1) a good cadat
2) someone with attitude prob?
they are exact oppersites can?
i admit i'm not a good cadat. i can accept that
but i definately do not have ap.
i'm quite confident of this
like at least not to you
the only one who acct see my ap. which is not even super strong. is liching
but she deserved it.
as for you. i never steped on your tail.
so wots your prob?
kaos. abit like telling me "vanessa. you are a very good cadat. but what is the point when you have a bloody attitude prob?"
that does not make sense.
bloody hell ya.
before ya point at me. how abt asking yourself why are you such a baised pig. why dont you use your brain. and why do you think that you're treating us like adults when you obviously dont?
i cant belive i acctually respected ya.
i cant believe i accctually thought of you as tiffany2.
PLEA-USE.
she wos WAE better.
and i went to ask charles if i had ap.
he blinked den said. "no.not to me lar."
hurmph. so there.
fail me lar. i dont believe you so great. even if you convince leekoon to flunk me with a 0.
its only 10%. so wot?
i wished i studied. den at least i know she cant do anything to me
but now... if i fail. its def cause i nv studie. not because of her.
her and her "you give me shit. i'll give you shit" attitude.
please lol.
you want shit? i'll give ya shit.
you started it.

humph. okay that feels good.
hahas... erm.. like childish?
so wot? it felt good anyway. :)
shant let it bother me anymore.
wots da pt of lettin her have the satisfaction?
ancos exams over.
theory. 45%
moi.25%
cpr.10%
fd moi.10%
cadat assesment 10%.
somehow i feel nothing can make it.
theory, instructors pick up my paper and smile. i wos like crappin all dee way
moi, wells charles say i did pretty well :) but i know myself. talkin to card. shakin. not loud enuf. bahhs.
cpr. flunk like shit. seriously. dunno why suddenly everything blank
fd. command so extra. teachin so like shit.
cadat assesment. as said. prob 0 courtesy of yy.
so that settles it
pops on da 17
mans. its a sure gonner.
but i'm goin fer pop anyway
my aim in anco is not to pass and get promoted. so why do i care?
abit diu lian lar. but ahhs. skin thick enuf can alr.

epps. quite miss my grp again
dunno why today like more together. less san. :)
maybe its cuz we had no choice? ahahs..
yeps. and i really hope we all pass it tog.
but something tells me that i wont be passin anytime soon...
-shrugs
and somethings damn wrong with candie lol.
she goes rd telling christina not to sit beside zzl cause thats reserved for me.. like dorts. -.-"
she gives me that HUMONGOUS smile when even she walks past me...
ermmms.....
and i know fer a fact it wosnt zzl in da guestbk.
cuz he has no idea wot a blog is.
HA! so whos da smart alec?

Thursday, December 25

theres no beatiful flowers in the greenhouse.

went to terence hse fer christmas partie this morn.
think his mom rocks!
known her fer ages.. her husband passed away when terence and his bro were young
and she single handedly brought em up
but i've nv seen her frown or wot. shes always smilin.
when i grow up. i wanna be a strong woman like her!
den feel so evil. cuz they got me dubbin and time machine. which cost like $40
and i got em... a box of choc and a tee fer him.
which wos like less den $20?
awws. shucks.
and my dearest mum only let me stay fer 2hrs.
christmas is a time fer fam. she claims. blahh.
so i wos dee latest to arrive and the first to go.. :(

towned from 2-8.
walk until sian
ya have any idea how many ppl there wos there?
gosh. it wos... horrible. like totally squashed on the person infronta ya.
and i donated at every person i saw..
ahhas.. christmas sprit lars!
den at 7 xuanhong wos like askin me to meet her at orchard.
den my stupid sis just hadda whine that she wos tired.
so i couldnt go.
bahhhhhhh-
i miss xuanhong also! :(

OH OH OH!
xiaolin agreed to let me have her nike jacket!!!!
my gosh!
ahhhs! i SOOOO want it!
buyin frm her at $75.
abit too much fer a use jacket.
BUDD! the jacket is like. so much more den a jacket to me!!!
its THE jacket of a lifetime...
but somehow.. i feel mean..
like make xiaolin ren tong ge ai.
aiyos...
oh wells. she has until sch reopen to reconsider her desission...
till then..
:)))))))))
jingle bells jingle bells jingle all the way

happy christmas everybody!!! :)
stay happy and stay safe!
da pres ppl > cherie.nora.pat.dawn.godma.ma.pa.sis.lyn.en.cheryl.aaron.bb.yc.val. terence.jo.charles
da cards ppl > yins.clair.mal.mel.wans.ens.lyn.jes.
da ecards ppl > ens.apple.baobei. jian
da sms ppl > baobei.ann.char.fels.cheryl.anna.gen.qius.yins.pamms.eiz.jo.cherie. apple.ens.sheens.xiaolin.dawn.shu.ying.chris.guoxiong
da guestbook ppl > hil.ens.gen.anna.wans.jiayu.dev.eiz.baobei
da online people > lost count. :)
thanks LOADIES! :)

went fer dinner with my cous yest.
really missed it.
em (3 boys) me and my sis. prac grew up together.
when wos da last time we went out tog.?
dun remember..
so it wos like so... back to da past. ahhas..
and we polished of 2 giant earthquakes!
hahas.. okae.. i know i wosnt supposed to dohat.
1) i'm sick -cough cough
2) i'm fat.
3) i needa fit into my skirt on sat!
opps.
neways. my diet starts now. today!
NOW
if you ever see me eatin. please gimmi a gentle reminder abt that!
it would be good if ya snatched away wotever i wos eatin too... :)

heard this off the radio.
thought it wos quite nice.. :)
friendship is like a bowl of white rice
its the purest of all love
friendship is like a cup of plain water
its bland but it quenches the thrist.
and it sounded better in chinese ...

Wednesday, December 24

merry christmas merry christmas
ring da hogwarts bell
merry christmas merry christmas
cast a christmas spell


and happy christmas guys!
in a happy happy mood!
ahahs.. cuz *ahem* says she likes me.
hahs.. maybe i wos thinkin too much! :)
and dee sj bbq is ON!
date :29
place : my hse lou xia.
woopies! :))

baobei!!!
finally home!!! missed ya loads!

Tuesday, December 23

apple
Happy happy burfdae!

someday.

why cant i bring myself to hate you after you hurt me so many times?
why am i nice to people who dont give me a damn and i dont give a damn to ppl who are nice to me?
why cant i just do wotever i'm assigned and ignore the rest?
why am i so irritated at your concern?
why am i so self-deluded?
why cant i just let you go?
why am i so ungrateful?
why does my mother hate me so?
why do i hate my mother so?
why do people i'm nice to think i'm horrible and people i'm horrible to think i'm nice?
why cant i just speak wotever thats in my head?
why am i fakin the smile?
why cant i tear down the facade i'm hidin behind?
i hate myself

baobei > thank god you're comin back tomorrow! miss you loads..

Monday, December 22

do as infinity

i realized something quite dumb
yuan lai the instrutor knew the 3 of us were yakin durin meals.
wunder how come they nv tell us off.
ahhas.. i still dumbly thought tha we're quite smart talkin disecretly and no one knows.. hahas..
den dunno which sir told kcp oic : the orion ppl there shakin. behind them the 3 ppl also shakin. still think we dunno.
opps-

hahas.. neways. proj with him quite okay lars.
went to woodlands library..
darn shuang. nice qing diao. hahas... eys. thats sounds scandelous.
but dun xiang wai lar.
he took like 1 hr to read a few pieces of notes that i reserched.
den i wos plannin da ppt.
we're doin like ppt.demo.charts.
not bao ka liao lar. hahas..
wells. just hopin it'll work out
-crosses fingers and toes.
we were all done by 3 (we met at 1.05 cuz he wos late)
hahas.. den went shoppin at causway
bought this crumpler bag!
one item off da wishlist! hahas..
so funkaY!
and hes da first guy i know to bring tissue. to bring umbrella and to watch hong dou nv zhi lian!

and i just realized something.
i dun wanna retake koto!
dun wan dun wan dun wan!
i doubt i'll ever be this luckie again.
WAHHHH!
the run ends. the running doesnt

-coughs coughs
throats burin
urghs. think i shdnt have taken that chicken porridge yesterday.
:(
gotta do proj later
with kcp oic
eks.
haven decided wot teachin aid we're usin.
so sai.
wot the hell are we gonna do later?
beats me.

ohs. how come no one believes in santa anymore?
feels so unchristmassy dis year..
:((
my wishlists up anyways.. hahas..
santa clause is comin to town!
yo!

Sunday, December 21

i love to run.it makes me smile
think i'll run another mile.

went out to grans.
my babie cuz so cute!
ahhas.. eyes. so big big de!
hahas.. babys rocks!

shit lar. no more aussie fer me
dad couldnt make it. darns.
but also quite hengs.
haven touched schwk at all.
and still got exam dae!
miss dee anco mates!
and i seriously dun have time.
schduals all corked up.
have to settle it soon or someones are gonna be darn upset with me...
:/
helps!

ens > thanks fer dee vote of confidence! :)

Saturday, December 20

*thanks:
cherie : fer the hp notepaddy thinggy. hahas..think you'll hquite like my pres too. hahas.. and hp. sticker? -bawls with laughter.
cheryl : fer da candy floss! whahas.. so thoughtful! so sweet!
enen : for da red thong thinggie and da pink thinggie and for sayin i'm such a pro bowler. thank you thanks you! hahas..
fel : for the yummie lookin kikkat strawbery! ahhas... although i cant eat it now and its really temptin me. hahas..
sec1s : for da gingerbread thinggy which ya didnt even borther to take out da price tag. hahas.. but it still looks good.
sec2s : fer being so enthus! hahas.. march frm pt to pt. very can lars!
wanxin : fer the neos! hahas.. i look quite shitty in em though. hahas..
flaggin rocks

flaged! woohoo.
can wos supa light. wotever. hahas..
but we had fuN! hahas.. rights grp 5?
hahas.. think we were the only grp that sorta stuck together.
very thanks lar.
but so wot? we had fun. we took neos. we crapped and lamed. hahas..
wanxin.cheryl.jiawei.vann.shihui.ruixi.em.stef.
hahas.. flaggers united!
hahas
enen and sok abit like paoqi us lar. hahs
den hadda treat wanxin and cheryl to lunch cuz my can wos lighter then theirs. ahhas..
had yoshi.
acct wanted crstaljade/marche
den like abit thanks lar. hahas..
hahas.. but they were like supa nice!
they remembered and got me candy floss! wahahs..
so sweeet!!
hahas.. in mie mouth and heart lar. hahas..
thanks loads!
mie jnrs rock!
hahas.. but then again. did we acctually do serious flaggin?
:/...
erms.. hahas

den we went bowling!
me rins che doreen and hil!
1st:rins
2nd:che
3rd:vann
consolation:hil and do.
hahas..
i got some strikes and many longgaos.
hahas.. think i got 136/200.
which wos abt 6.8 pins per game.
bu cuo lar. ahhas...
den anna and ens abit not guigui suisui lar.
stand behind us silently.
prob laughin at our horrendous kns bowlin. hahas...
but feel so evil.
they like came all da way just for her letter.
awws... so touched. ahhas..

happy14th anna! [yo!]

Thursday, December 18

i'm ur venus. i'm ur fire. ur desire.

anco03 rocked!
wahahs..
i say zone1 you say rocks!

advance ncos :
woohoo!
we rocks!
from the initial 41 of us.
to the remaindin 38 (eiz.alan sick,went home. zhida went fer holiday)
super duper enthu!! yos!
so super fun! super enthuness! super on! super efficient! super together! super duper duper! :)
-big grins

da basic:
hahas... okaysss.
we were better when we were basic i suppose. hahas..
so not enthu de.
and i hate parades with em
esp morn parades.
they take ages and ages and ages. forever and ever and ever
chao tortoise de.
wait for them to report strenght is like waitin for the leaves to turn brown.
forever hai me to stand there and wanna doze off. esp morn so cold. they still so slow.
zhen shi de...
and wait for them to take food is like waitin fer da food to rot. hahas..
but must be excused i suppose. they have 90+100 ppl. we barely have 1/2
hahas..
but last year our basic was WAE tougher. ahhas..
this year like not so excitin. hahas... sadistic.

instructors :
hahas.. charles and fabian and leekoon rocks!
weesiang and weixiong =bro bears!
xun v impressive yet nice at da same time! :)
keatru is zhong kan bu zhong yong. hahas..
vincent also v nice. ahhas.. abit act funnie bua funnie lar. but hes really quite good instructor! i mean anyone who nicholas 'listens' too has to be good! hahas..
candie is quite okay. quite tiffany no.3 hahas..
yvonne is like. my grandmas grandma. from the back so chio. from the front. eees. and the way she shouts screaches makes ya wanna stuff a bao in her mouth. hahas..
yingying and laiyong. hu leng hu ree. sometimes quite okay. otherwise is like. yucks.
yingying is so darn super baised. like really. super obv. think you would love her if you were in orion. but if you're not. its dee opp.
and laiyong can be super unresonable lol.
on dee first day when xh fell in w/o tellin me (but obv smart me saw)
she wos like :
course ic. do you know ur member just fall in?
yes mdm
did she report to you?
no mdm
did the grp ic report to you?
no mdm
why didnt both of them report to you?
erm. i dunno mdm.
so how? my fault ar?
plea-use. i barely had time to ask the gic. den she come and bitch alr.
walao.

hikin
very jianfei-ing!
10km! only!
den da outdoor cookin very cheng gong! hahas..
den walk abit not alot only lar.
but our grp qiute together. most of us helped da flag!
and the cheerin wos quite lame at da start.
i mean how dumb will ya look? cheerin past ppl's house. got ppl stick their head out to laugh lol
hahas.. but when we cannot cheer that time like so quiet... so boring.
den just walk and walk and walk...
den still must walk in one like. so stupid. not hikin like de.
hahas.. bud walkin with zzl gx and pierce de. quite fun lar. ahahs..
den walk back with mie tudi. hahas...

food
whahas.. so much better den last year!
but still alot alot aloT!
sightly less den last year too.. either that of my stomach gre bigger. ahhas..
the 'red' rice v bang!
den the part where u have to sit in sedia position v stupid.
i mean this is trainin camp . not prison trainin.
stupid.
but not like we cared lar. we still yakkin away. ahhas..
ohs. da last dinner quite funnie
leekoon abit smile at me and say : my course ic! give more!
den she and hakim gave me one servin of noodles each!
one alr dyin alr. still 2!
ahahas.. den wos like strugging like crap.
den zzl and gx helped abit lar. ahhsa
den got 1 point he poke da fishball with his fork and say : this one looks nice.. round round clean clean one.
den when he lifted it. there wos a bite and the back and he wos like wth?
hahash... v funnie his expression. den me and gz abit laughin like xiao kia. ahhas..

lectures
hahas.. charles and fabian de still okay.
derick and yaowei de..
wakaos. can die lar.
dozin durin both of em de. ahhas
esp yaowei. den abit kana caught lar. well done!
hahas..
but some lectures abt da duties of dee nco thiggie.
-sighs.
at first i though i wos still okay,
den realized i'm quite shibai.
hahas.. how to be fierce? how how how?

games
HIG! (hydra.indigo.gladiator)
hahas.. suprise suprise. 3rd runner up!
yo! must be they count wrongly. ahhas..
the telematch we not last summore lae! considerin we're da biggest grp of 30!
drank half the pail of apple water
den after the elephant dance, gong like hell.
ran totally diagonal. grp 1 to grp 5. hahas.. den fell down quite a few times on the way.. hahas.. not diu lian eys.
den heard someone ask me are you ok? den i wos like yesyes.
hahas.. dun even know ho. gong until cannot see. ahhas.. but found that its ens lar.
den qiu and xh good laugh. stand there and laugh at me. hahas.. quite funnie lars...
but anna and zhenglong more cham
anna walked right into da drian. :x
and zl fell down in this pool of water when he had his hands tied behind his back
den he looked like a fish. ahhas..

h.y.d.r.a
yoyoyo man!
we rock. we rock. we rock!
mie grp sia!
2 bedok green gurls. chris and fel. ya know wot? chirsts acct quite nice! :) felicia lae... well... shes totally not hengfeng-ie. totally oppersites. but she darn nice also lar!
2 peirce gurls. jiaying and hweesiang. hahas.. forgot to write hweesiangs name on da flag. ahhas.. opps. jiaying reminds me loads of cherie. ahhas.. 'quiet quiet' type. same shape de somemore. ahhas..
2 malay gurls. massura and aini. hahas.. daenthu kias. talkin to em very xinku. cuz i very used to mixin chinese. ahahs.. but they really chao enthu sia!
2 guys. zzl and kuohsiung (pronnounced as guoxiong). hahas.. wot to say? see below.
one me. hahas.. da one and only.
ahahs.. not extra.
but still we rock!
i cant believe we managed to pull da campfire item out! still so cheng gong! hahas..
the dance thinggie lame until buasai alr. ahhas...
zzl got that 'face' everytime we had to do it. hahas.. den guoxiong... super enthu. help to think of dance steps and stand infront somemore. ahhas..
rock on hydra!

ninja/orion:
me and zzl are the honourary member of ninja! woohoo!
stupid guoxiong lar. chase me outta hydra
den zzl got bored. so come ova too. ahhas..
yo! ninjas so friendly grp!
although i dun quite get wotever kenneth was goin on abt. ahhas..
but at least got 2 delta de ren!
and orion! hahas...
xuanhong is like. si bian tai. ahhas..
bit her hairs so cool! hahas.. love her loads.
hey buddie!
ahahas... den peilin.
like. sorry. not enthu!
hahas..
think her food fight with nichloas chao funnie+lame.

course ic :
woohoo. course ic !
yippee. so overjoyed!
:/
sucks lar.
everything also u kana.
course cup not to the brim, you drink
course fidgit you sign
course late you kana
couse missing you answer
totally crappified
somemore da instructions all diff.
eg1 :
ss yingying instucted ta give da guys 30 sec to finish 1/3 of their water.
den kana 'scolded' by keatru and leekoon
kr > dont give unreasonable timing. wot if they chock?
Lk> next time ask fer extentions.
like dorts. since when do i make da commands?
dumbie.
den when ss yingying gave 5 min to change to 1/2 u or something and i smartly asked fer time extention...
"you are all anco cadats. are you trying to tell me you need as much time as the basic?"
like shit lar. sai.
had to lead da food cheer and stuff.
maluation.
the bnco cic on that day very cute. ahhas..
keep on got that blury face. think hes devin or something
den i quite smartly solved da ava no-chair prob!
yeas!
keep havin to keep time and stuff.
the ambulance ppl. just have to make use of every sec they have
and ususally they end up late lar. ahhas..
keep havin to shout the timin to em. hahas.. think i sounded dumb over da sec1 quad.
ohs. den i wos tryin to be real helpful and clean tables afta lunch
den ss yingying wos like : course ic. wot are you tryin to do? are you the duty group? dont act smart.
shit her lar. wot is her pob. i'm kind and helpful kan?
stupid lar.
being course ic is sai lar.
eat food also cannot eat in peace. ppl have 15 min. i have 5.
and every few min the course errupts in "course ic. course ic. course ic.."
cause paraniodiness de! ahhas..
plus my command and all the timings. sucks :(
bud leekoon rocks sia!
wos supa nice abt everything even though i fouled up like every 5 sec!
tried to comfort me lar say i nv let her down and blah.
nice try.
hecks lar.
good expperience to keep. but best unrepeated.
:)
and guess how many extras i managed to sign as cic?
nil! woohoo!
i rock man!
ok. that wos a self comforting thinggy.
cmi lar.
hahas.. this year sign extra also no biggie.
last year one totally can die.
this year just clean abit of bench. hahas.. nothing de.

da shuai ge -pui and da sissy:
which happens to be zhang zhenglong and guoxiong.
hahas..
both of them like total oppersites.
one couldnt give a heck. one enthuness like unlimited. one toliet ic. one oic. one so 'nan zi han da zhang fu' one so niang. one so laid back. one so serious.
only similarity. both also lame galore. ahhas..
2 of them reallie v comical.
every meal. when we were sittin in sedia position
me and zzl would be talkin away
den gx will be like shhh. shutup. dun talk.
hahas.. and both of us will be like wotever.
and on the seldom occasion that gx acctually talks.
he will be tryin his best to no move his mouth
and we totally cannot hear anything. hahas..
and gx and zzl totally channel enetertainment
gx is like 18. and he always say we're too imature fer him
hahas.. so the 2 'imature' us will be forever gangin up on him
not lame lae. hahas..
den he and zzl forever must dou zui. ahahas.. and gx always loses.
and gx actions sumtimes really quite sissy. hahas..
i can understand why zzl refuse to do da friendship dance with him. hahas..
they would really look like gays. :)

mortal and angel:
hahas.. not xie men at all.
mie mortal. zzl aka lil dragon. hahas
hahas.. his face wos so stuck lol.hahas..
throughout da camp my grp abit can only lar.
i mean just cuz i talk to him loads doesnt mean i have ta like him
and i dont purposly chose to sit beside him or wot. is purly coincidencial..
den leekoon abit askin
is zhenglong like vanessa or vanessa like zhenglong ar?
den both of us abit -pui together lar.
not qiao.
den my grp wos like "both like each other!"
wotever. ahhas..
but he wos quite 'irritated' with me cause i told sn gurls abit his "little dragon" under the sole of his boots and jie fa his embarrassing secret.
-sniggers.



sectwos :
ahhas.. yo! ya all made it!
some of em march from place to place. their marching chao funnie :X
ahhsa... den nort very enthu..
and so dirty!!! eee. all dun wanna bathe de. ahhas...
but so wot!
sn still rocks! all dee way!
hahas.. den fer da campfire i pulled yilin out ask her go pull yx. she went back to sit. den my friends abit laughin away lar. ahhas.. at least susu enthu enuf! haha..
susu!
think she quite dun like this name. hahas..
nvm lar. ens also enen wot.
also liddat. hahas...
and mie angels wenxu!
yeas!
cant believe it rights?
someone as angelic as me also got angel. ahhas...

fellow sn anco cadats:
we made it we made iT!
woohoo!
we rock mans!
rock rock rock!
eiz > sorry ya couldnt be dere. but ya were always in our minds! we love ya loads! hope this reports long enuf. hahas...

cant believe da campin days are over...
on dee first day zl and me wos still like counting da minutes...
"4hours only lae..."
hahas.. and now its over alr..
:(
gonna miss it loads and loads and loads and loads.
not lookin ferward to da exam though.
doing moi proj with gx.
kcp oic.
ahhhs. dunwans!
ahahs.. cant use powerpoint cuz he claims hes a com baichi.
shucks lar.
meetin on da 23...
wastin one good day. :(

hmm. i wanna linger here..

hydras da biggest (9ppl) fittest (we hike real fast!) reliablest (the only grp which everyones present! :)) alertest (our grp flag wos nv stolen!) healthiest (no one reports sick) dirtiest (only i bathed! yucks. so in the end all also stick lar. hahas..) bestest mostest wonderfulest ......

Sunday, December 14

i'm flying w/o wings

cant seem to sleep.
shucks
thanks fer all those votes of confidence!
wans.qius.gen.ens.anna.hil.jo.shijie.
-huggs.
cant promise. but i'll try!
so geng now. hahas..
and mie temps. 36.1.
:/

and dun miss me! ahhas..

i dont wanna fight no more
i forget what we were fighting for
for this loneliness thats in my heart
wont let me be apart from you
i dont wanna have to try
gurl to live w/o you in my life
so i'm hoping we can start tonight
cause i dont wanna fight
no more.

yesterday
fa prac.
think mie fas qiute not bad
ahhas
bandaging queen lar. wot to do?
toc and cpr all also quite a breeze.
i hoped i passed.

so anyway
tom.s anco.
suddenly miss all my squad de ren
like last year we were all present for bnco.
all 22 of us.
den so fun
got groupmates that ya acct know for more that a few days.
now its all so phathatic.
feel lost.
course ic tom.
wot da hell.
wish me luck.
i'll need it
at least my hairs black.
its so black its blacker than black
-sighs

Friday, December 12

if givin up wos so easy, i wouldnt be holdin on

i dun wannnna dye my hair........
-wails.
i dun wanna flunk anco either...
:(

enen/em/shijie/qius/gen > its a goner mans i tell yar.
wans >see yar tom. i haven finished da book.. so yars.. hahas.. dun expect too much frm me.

Thursday, December 11

vann
zhenglong
jiaying
hweesiang
guoxiong
fel
chris
aiini
massura

<<< hydra
we rock. believe it or not.
penguin in my panties

dead beat
packed all mie files today
and did chem homework
read 5 chap of king of dee castle.
feel quite accomplished
todays the 11...

12 : tution and flag makin
13 : lit proj part1 and fa prac
13 : tution and pack and rest fer camp
15-18 : camp
19 : rest
20 : flagday
21 : studie fer exam
22 :exam den go out
23 : free (apples burfday thou)
24 : christmas eve party at dawn's
25 : christmas!
26-31 : going aussie

okay.
so when shd i be doing
1) da rest of my hmwk
2) studie my amaths
3) the other 3 tests on da 1st week
4) revise sec3work
5) lit proj
???
someone help me.
i need time.
-urghs
i'm sorrie whoever i promised that i'l go out with during da hols
i really cant make it...
sorrie sorrie sorrie!

mood swings hitting.
feel like slapping some ppl.
-slap.

Wednesday, December 10

still road south

mans!
survived da course!
yaes!
today wos fun.
finally lee koon mdm came
yaes. no more instructor-less
hahas.. shes so chio! and so damn chio in her u!
ahhhs. no fair
shes quite alright lar.
den she insited hydra squeeze in one table for lunch
when there wos 2 empty tables side by side..
den i was darn squashed beside guoxiong lar.
totally squashed
and when he knocked into me
den will will go : sorrie sorrie sorrie
and that happedned like.
everytime he took a mouth of his noodles.
-.-"

den lectures were okays
fd theory!
qius, you SO have ta teach our jnrs that
full of shit.

i love activation aka traige!
so fun! so shiock!
first aiders rocks!
fabian sayour coaxing was good! ahahs.. yeas!
and cc said my cpr wos not bad! ahhas
funniest wos micheal.
did cpr on him
and he wos singing away. no breathing no pulse.
all the ways.. hahas..
so he died
but he wos still singgin away
stuppid gurl
told her must do cpr till the ambulance arrive
see lar dun belive me. hahas..

and guess wot?
i'm couse ic for 15th dec.
wot da hell?
shit.
why me??? i dun wannnn!
damn shocked when she called me.
thought it would be zhang zhenglong or something
darns.
threw my face the mom. i shang ren
marched wrongly.
bet cc was on the verge of yelling at me.
anyone wanna bet how many sign extras i'll get?
i'm trying for 2. betting 5.

Tuesday, December 9

da sheep song:
ba ba black sheep have u any wool?
yes sir yes sir 3 bags wool.
1 for my master 1 for myself,
1 for the little cockroach called vanzie

da cockroach song:
vanessa has a big cockroach,
big cockroach, big cockroach,
vanessa has a big cockroach,
which she kisses everyday

i had to tell some lies to get the ungratful enen to 'sing' this song for me.
ahahs.. so evil.
bud so cute rights?
advance listen up.

hahas.. tan pan zhuan jia rocks!
stupid yingtung wenta tell me wot happened in the end.
no fun de. ahhas.. but it still rocks!
yangguang v shuai!
hahas.. and his shifu very poor thing.. awws.
and i want a tudi toos! hahas..
but i got nothing to teach other ppl.
bahhs. :/
eys. ens and phil. ren wo zhuo shifu laes.
zhem me shuo, i wos also da one who taught and trained ya last year...
hahas..
phil still got hope.
enen.
deng jiu jiu ye mei you lar.

today anco quite fun laes!
got triage!
triage prac is SO much better den the theory!
quite alot of stuff they're teaching is so diff frm da sn way...
like stretcher drills and head-ta-toe. even bandaging
bahh.
can ya believe it?
the oic of *ahem* never did head-to-toe survey before.
erms. not xun only lar.
den anyhow mo. summore.
dunno wheres da ribcage de.
eeps! outrage of modesty!
somemore they check is : checking for arm. checkin for pelvis.
hello? feel like tellin them. of cause got lar.
den i sounded quite pro.. hahas.. and they were like. wahhh.
-swells with pride

last course day tom.
shucks.
3rd day. skirt stinks
2hrs of fd theory. t
theory? :X
since when did fd have theory?
dumbness
ahhs. dun wanna bang anymore.
heels hurt. alot
calf musles too. darn it.
wot possesed me to subject myself to such torture?

went hm with sec2s+yiling.
bahhs. halfway all got down
left me and enen on our ji mo de lu cheng.
hahas.. den i lost count of how many times she said : cong ming de ren shi zhe yang de...
-.-"
ahs. tom. no one goin hm with me alr.
bahhs.

Monday, December 8

squad dari blakan bilang

anco today. big flop.
and thats alr an understatement.
charles knew i dyed mie hair.
bahhs. at least i have mie temp dye as backup.
stuff we did. leature.lunch.fd.leacture
my command sucked. sucked
and other sch de timing is like in 1 spilt sec.
-pants. nort tiring lae.
did like 200 sediya. senandiri. banged till my heels hurt.
and i wos like sleepin during tirage lecture
and charles prob knew. opps.
i suck in mie u. totally.

met loads of familiar faces.
but feel so wierd.
the last time we went for bnco. 22.
now. 5.
so ji mo...
and theres a felicia tan in mie grp.
far cry from da fel tan i know.
when i wos sleepin in tirage.
she wos takin notes?
wth? wots there to take notes when everythings printed?
heng feng would prob sleep with me.. hahas..

but today wosnt very xiong lar.
it was way more baddd last year.
but this year like so little peeps.
last year bnco along alr like 150 ppl
now + anco. only 167.

went hm with sec2s.
hahas.. no dumb only lar. only sec3
as suhui would put it. extra.
den she wos tryin to make me say who wos in zc
you wait long long lar.
wos the only person at yck mrt stop.
only! wows. bus is all mine. hahas..
lameness.

da defination of hydra:
a) (Greek mythology) monster with nine heads; when struck off each head was replaced by two new ones
b) a persistent or multifaceted problem that cannot be eradicated by a single effort
c) some plant-ty thing
wows. how us.

Sunday, December 7

kiwi>leather>instant wax shine>black

shucks lar.
temp. wos 37.7 in da morn
bud trudged to maths tution under my mums orders
and now its 38.7
obv maths dun agree with me.

okays. anco first corse is tom.
shucks. hope my us. ok.
haven put it on since... pop? or wos it agi?
which one first?
hahas.. anyways. after anco.
wanna see me in it also v hard alr.
hahas.. shd i be happie or sad?
:/

ohies.
energy.wil.evonne.
sang this christmas song : universal love
the rap part Very nice!
niuniu and da!
yeas!
the best way to spread christmas cheer
is singling loud for all to hear!

ohs. i'm in hydra for anco!
sounds cool! yo!
hahas.. i'm all alone. :/
dan qiang bi ma.
and my chances of passing are.
close to 0
hmm. shd be optimistic lar.
but something tells me i'm not gonna make it past the drill test. :/
damn it.

been up since 7.
reading the whole chuck of fa enen typed fer me
thanks alot gurl!
some of the stuff she typed are lameness-dom.
hahas.. but wos laughing away most of da time
thanks for making fa fun toos!
and i do not look like a jie shen po. hahas..
thanks mans. and ma fan le!

someone is apperently playing a joke
sent some funnie "secret admirer" thinggie to my email.
hahas.. is this supposed to be gotcha or something?
so dumb. links to sponsors after sponsors.
didnt getta see who it wos at the end.
hahas.. but anyway. think ya got dee wrong add dude.

good luck to jlpt takers!

Saturday, December 6

be good for goodness sake

i'm officially corperal!
bye ikan billi!
hahas.. qius zai jie zai li!
sergent asap! hahas..

went ta army market
lookin darn outta place
silver heels. and da blu shirt
supposed to meet sec2s+gen at city hall at 12
late by 15min. last to arrive
opps- paisaes.
den wen i steped outta the mrt station.
all of em turned and "wahs"
den everybody abit turn to stare lar.
not stupid lae.

den at army market.
i am officially promoted!
yeas~
ahhas.. wotever. lame
suhui said i wos EXTRA. a bit directly.
:( weis. will hurt my feelings de lae.
hahas.. but i love ya anyways.
hahas.. i do!
den on da bus back to raffles..
had to go up to call the sec2s down
den like when the bus stopped, flew down the stairs and landed on my 2 feel
but made a huge impact.
like BOOm.
not embarrassing lae.
and now one of da sec2s said thanks.
ungrateful pigs.

went ta watch movie with shu.chin. and my sis.
lee zhi shu is such a lamer.
daredevil.
wahahas.. wotever.
caught brother bear, than ELF. ($34 like damn it)
hahas.. both also nice!
elf very chrismassy
the lil boy very cute
and the bear also. :)
repeat after me. Ko-da. KO.DA!
hahas.. bitten by the lame bug.
zhishu and i were laughin like idiots in the car.
over this black cat
seemed so hilarious just now.
now it just seems lame.
:/
oh wells. hahas.. thats me.

lost count of how many times i tripped on my heels
and how many times the heels got caught in my skirt.
feet hurt like shit lar.

Friday, December 5

can the world stop spining w/o me?

i have darn it no idea wots goin on
someone fill me in
anyways. i do know that i'm a darn evil pig.
i think i said something evil to hurt enen.
well. i'm sorry. really.
whether i insulted/offended/disregarded your feelings
or took sides i'm sorry.
i though i was tactful enuf.
i'm sorry i wasnt.
i'm sorry if i made ya upset.
i'm sorry.
i really am.
pandanpahadapan pandang
down.

wots up nowdays?
baobeis missin in action. haven been able to contact her for days...
annas acting strange. dunno wots shes driving at..
i'm supposed to prep talk someone abt something i feel darn paisae abt.
and i happen to think theres a storm brewin between some one in 'my' squad and my squadmate
darn
this is shit.

"helped" in banner hanging today
like wows.
i wos wearing my new white cool and funkae shirt
den didnt wanna get it dirty. so didnt paint
but it still gort stained in the end.
shitified.
we 'outdoor cooked'
for lunch
maggie mee and canbell soup.
outside da sj room
abit nort stupid lar

practised command/timming/fd
cuz heard that anco got some command test thinggie
i'm so nort gonna make it
all of a sudden i think my command is soft and un-sard.
darn shit

wonderin wot to wear with my silver heels tom.
hahas..
first time on heels.
so if i fall, which i prob will
i shall prepare to faint.
den nort so stupif lookin.
hahas..
jos.sok.fels.stef.dor. nort going
bahhh-
i'll be da shortest there.
enzie!
come back online!!!
i want da zhang lang and sheep song!

Thursday, December 4

Starting time: 5.44pm
1. What is your full name: chang yuning vanessa
2. nicknames? van. vann. pokk. vannie -.-"
3. b-day? 27aug. every year
4. Age: 15.
5. Sex: f
6. Social Security: wot?
7. Where were you born? sg . but i wanna be born on a plane! so cool! next time, i'll give birth on a plane! :)
8. where you live now: mie world
9. Zodiac sign: virgo
10. What grade are you in and what school do you attend? sec3. sn
11. What are your parents names: i call them mamie and dadie. you can call them uncle and auntie
12. siblings and their ages? yonger sis. 12 with a mental age of 42
13. do you get along: with?
14. Pets: liying gave me a female bird. and i bought a male one. and they both died. :(
15. Righty or Lefty: righty.
16. bedtime: 1030. but i usually wake at 11 to use the com after my mum sleeps.
17. handphone: nokia 7250. aiming for panasonic g50
18. Hair color: authum. browny. goona be black for anco.
19. Eye color: browny black.
20. Do you wear contacts or glasses? glasses. contacts just cant seem to go in
21. Do you have any piercings? 3 on left ear. 2 on right.
22. tattoos: dad would skin me alive. but i dun mind.
23. scars: nahs.
24. Height: shorty
25. Do you wear any rings: yea. they always drop off though. can walk behind me and collect.
26. What shoes do you wear: slipper.sandles.sports.sch (perfer the tag kind). and wotever.
27. drove a car: the small kind that runs on battery. would love to do that now. bud. abit will break lar
28. met someone new: like DUH
29. done laundry: once. den my mum forbid me ta. cuz i kindda made a huge mess. but i do the dishes! :)
30. cried: duhie. but when i wos born the first thing i did wos to laugh. serious! hahas..
31. wore a skirt: yeas. i look dam stupid in em. bud wot to do? i look stupid in everything.
32. How are you today? burried under all the amaths.
33. wearing: slacker u. the slobby stuff all slackers dorn.
34. thinking about: whether theres a hong dou nu zhi lian part two
35. What does your hair look like at the moment? like shit. rats tail dripping water. just out from the bathroom. still haven comb.
36. What song are you listening to right now? sweet dreams by zhang na la. ya know! my love patzzi!
37. What was the last thing you ate and/or drank? strawberry milk in da morn. on a diet. hahas..
38. How is the weather right now? cooling and nice. everyday shd be my this
39. Last person u talked to on the phone: the cat. asked me to call her. den ask me to put down. -.-"
40. watching: the world go by
41. what time is it: 5.52 am

*****DO YOU BELIEVE IN ******
42. yourself: duh! believe in yourself and the world believes in ya!
43. friends: yes! wot are friends for then?
44. best friends of the opposite sex: yes. why norts?
45. santa claus: yars! he exists somewhere in finland. just that sg no chimminy
46. tooth fairy: yes. she exists too!
47. angels: yars. cute (plump) little gurls in white with halos at the top.
48. ghosts: yeps. but i'm nice. so they wont be after me right?
49. aliens: yeps! and ufos too!
50. God: yup! though i'm not a christian

*******MORE ABOUT YOU!*******
51. what are the last four digits of ur phone number? 6122
52. Do you like the person who sent this to you? jace
53. how do you eat an Oreo? open it, give the uncreamed one to eiz. ( cuz she likes it) and lick the cream side.
54. If you were a crayon what color would you be: can i be the box? if not, white. wanna lighten up other colors!
55. Have you ever almost died: yeas. when i dyed my hair. when it wos meet the parents session. so on and so forth
56. What's the best advice ever given to you? my friends and family. like duh. would a stranger stop me and give me advice?
57. Have you ever won any special award? erm. -thinks hard. i'm sure i have. hahash...
58. Do you like to dance? yeas. i dun dance well though hahas..
59. Worst sickness you've ever had? over stressed. i needed a conceller once.
60. What's the stupidest thing you have ever done? loads. and loads. i'm sure you'll agree with that
61. What's the next CD you are going to buy: hao ge hui yi 2. i think. considering. seems nice!
62. What sport you hate the most: squash. always get smacked in da face.
63. Place for a dream house: on the beach
64. How many kids do you want to have? 5.
65. Have you ever sprained/broken/fractured a bone: yeas. i gotta be really kukufied to have sprained my knee during "chicken dance" -.-"
66. Who do you tell your dreams to: i seldom dream. if i do and rememeber, then everyone lol
67. What are you most scared of? amaths. emaths. zhang lang! definately!
68. How many tv's do you have in your house? 4
69. Do you have your own tv? yars. with my own dvd and tape player!
70. do you have your own phone line? yeps. house and fone. hahas.. but done call the house one. i'm always too lazie to pick up..
71. do you sleep with a stuffed animal? yea. my bunny who has been with me since 4. hahas.. its still pretty clean!
72. Are you a flirty person? no.... at least i dont think i am
73. Are you shy? ya gotta be kidding. hahas.. i'm one of da most thick skinned ppl i know.
74. Are you outgoing? i shd think so! but in other words. thick skin
75. Who is the loudest friend you have? erm. qiu. krist. accordin to fel, i'm the loudest there is. hahas.. am i?
76. Who is the quietest friend you have? jiawei?
77. Who looks the worst in the morning: me. my hair is like BOOm. and my face is. well . i look like a walkin zombie.
78. Who's the messiest eater: me. i mess the place. but sorry lar. very can control lae.
79. Who's the slowest eater: and me again. che prob can make the list too. hahas..
80. Who's the bossiest: (in a good sense, as in she is leadership material) wanni
81. Who is the 'mom' outta your friends: gen. but they say its me. which is so untru.
82. who are the top 3 hottest guys/girls u know: hahas.. top 3 only? cant say. peeps will get jealous ya know.
83. who's the weirdest: liying. i have NO idea wot goes on in that genius brain of hers
84. who is the funnest: many many many!
85. who do you go to for advice?: dependin on wot. ppl i respect to a certain extend i guess. ahhas..
86. who do you think about most when you're not happy? the other side of wotever that made me unhappy in the first place.
87. who do you cry with? whoevers with me lar.
88. what's the best feeling in the world? the feelin of being loved in return
89. when's the last time you cried: think the eg concert?
90. is cheerleading a sport? yeps. i think. its a sport for chio bus.
91. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop? many many. that reminds me. haven ate a tooties pop in ages. wot happedned to all my tong nian?
92. Which came first the chicken or the egg: egg
Root Beer or Dr. Pepper: dr peper. sounds funkae~
94. vanilla or chocolate: choc and vanila! depends on wots it in though
95. Love or lust: love
96. silver or gold: silver
97. Have you ever gone skinny dipping?: very want too lae. ppl with drown upon seein my fat figure lol
98. What's your favorite color: everythinng! cant imagine the world w/o any color.
99. What's your favorite band/singer: jay.eg.
100. What do you dream about: stupid nonsense. like my jnr refusing to fall in when gen asked em to. ohs! i like to dream abt clement tan when i slp in maths class. abit yes lae.
101. Favorite song? theres a phase for diff songs. hahas.. but i like songs of breakup and sacrisfy.. like anjing! and shijiemori. and wo bu nan guo. so on and so on.
102. Do you like to sing in the shower: i get out of the shower asap. i hate to bathe.
103. Had an imaginary friend: yeps. how dumb
104. Wanted to "hook up" with a friend: yep. not tellin more.
105. Cried during a movie: hahas.. almost durin lilo. but no. didnt. ahhas..
106. Had a crush on a teacher: like ewww. wot? cym ar? -pui
107. What is the first thing you think about when you wake up in the morning?: my brian only starts working at 8am

*****Preference*****
108. Sleep on your back, stomach or side: stomach
109. Adidas, Nike, or Reeboks?: nikes
110. Croutons or Bacon Bits?: wot wot wot?
111. 2 doors or 4 (on a car)?: 2
112. Bridges or Tunnels? bridges! bright and sunnie!
113. One pillow or two?: 1 and a boster please
114. Salt or butter flavored popcorn?: mixed.
115. Fizzy or still water?: still. and fizzy
116.Red wine or white wine?: red. seems more classie

****Word Association - (1st Thing That Comes To Mind)*****
117. Rubber Gloves: fa case
118. Disney Character: micky
119. Fast Food place: fats!
120. Board Game: pictionary queen! me and fels
121. Rock: mayday!
122. Blue: house!
123. Wet: water.
124. Cry: tears.
125. Peanut Butter: yucks
126. Hay: wassup!?
127. Paper: amaths
128. Wood: choi!
129. Yellow: da sun. and me. so sunshine!
130. Laugh: lame ppl. like my jnrs.
131. Ugly: me
132. Happy: house!

**YOU AND LOVE******
133. Do you believe in love? yup.
134. Do you have a girlfriend or a boyfriend? nopes. too fat. no one wants.
135. do you have a crush? yeas.
136. who is your crush? nort telling.
137. are you sending this to your crush? i'm nort sending this to no one.
138. do you believe in love at first sight? nahs. so... flirtatious. hahas..
139. What song do you want played at your wedding: xing qing. def.
140. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with: def. not my sis.
141. Do you find yourself attractive: hahas. in my way i guess
142. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? face lar.
143. are you too shy to ask someone out? depends on who.

***When was the last time you...*****
205. Took a shower: just.
206. Watched Bambi: long long time ago.
207. Got a real letter: on mon. from ens.
208. Wished upon a star: anytime i see one
209. Asked someone for forgiveness: today. dunno wot wos anna pissed abt thou. hahas..
210. Hugged someone: today. after old man. pamms.
211. Kissed someone: last week.
212. Ate something: dun remind me.
213. Called someone: just now. upon request. anna tham.

*******What is your...*******
214. Good luck charm: loads.
215. Bedroom like: world war 3
216. Favorite Breakfast food: can we stop the food thinggie?
217. Favorite lunch food: URGH
218. Best thing that happened to you today: went for old man? i would hardly consider that best

*****What do you think about the following*****
219. Abortion: cruel. well depends on da situation though. i guess its ok if you were raped or something
220. Homosexuality: fine.
221. Rap: yo yo check it check it out [yo]
222. Classical: classy
223. Oldies: lu bian de ye hua~~~ ni bu yao cai~
224. Swing: dancing!

**********PICK ONE: THIS OR THAT**********
225. lights on/off: 1/2. dim
226. sun or rain or snow? sun. with some wind please
227. mickey D's (McDonalds) or BK (burger king): mos.
228. do you like scary movies or happy movies better? both are great. depends on who i'm with though
229. backstreet boys or NSYNC? bsb. def.
230. on the phone or in person: person. more. sincere
231. summer or winter: spring! got ang bao summore
232. chocolate or white milk: strawberry
233. CD or tape: mds
234. hugs or kisses: both! am i too greedie? :/
235. cake or pie: cakes... hmm. HEys. jianfei!
236. cats or dogs: anything as long as its 1 m away.
237. mud or jello wrestling? jello! never tried!
238. skiing or boarding? both! but i'll prob make a fool of mieself..
239. day or night? night
240. sunset or sunrise: sunrise
241. diamond or pearls: diamonds are a gurls best friend!

*******YOUR FAVES*******
242. candy: the only from bei hai dao! super butter caramel! da best sweet ever!
243. Beverage: yakult. the healthy family drink
244. cartoon characters: ppg! fighting crime tryin to save da world!
245. sport(s): bball! vollybally! swimming! cycling! skating. eys. den why i so fat ar?
246. Song: anjing.
247. favorite actor or actress?: shuai ges and mei nus
248. Favourite movie: the princess diarys. and disney movies. and hp and ......
249. tv show: for now lar...guess? hong dou nu zhi lian!
250. Favourite food: NONONO. NO FOOd! i cant fit into my skirt alr!
251. ice cream: thin mint from swensens.
252. subject: wotever. depends on the teacher
253. shampoo: johnsens baby shampoo! doesnt hurt the eyes!
254. favourite month: da moth of hols. and aug!
255. favourite number: 1,2,4,7,9,22,77
256. favourite person to talk to online: ppl who acctually reply at a reasonable rate.

******HAVE YOU EVER******
257. cut your hair yourself: yea. failurtic experience
258. been on stage: yar. and threw face nia
260. Ever thought an animated character was hot: yeas! kindairo in lovehina! hahas..lameness
261. kept a secret from everyone: yars. but very easy to see when i'm doing that lar. its all on mie face.
262. been hurt emotionally: yea. thanks to you
263. been in a car accident: no thanks
264. put a body part on fire for amusement: do i look dumb?
265. drank: yars. and made a fool of myself.
266. smoked: no. so stinky. besides. my dad would kill me.
267. broke the law? loads.
268. ran from the cops: yar. when they tried to throw me in hougang chalet.
269. made yourself cry to get outta trouble: am i such a loser?
270. tried to kill yourself? no. life's full of hope!
271. made your self throw up? tried loads of time. bud dunno why cannot
272. ever been in love: dan lian jiu you.
273. loved someone so much it made you cry: yar. i mean you wont cry for someone you dont give a heck abt rights?
time ended : 6.51 pm
perfect han yu pin yin.

sorry lar.
first entry on wed night abt minicom part two.
outdoor cookin part.
is "anna ask me to feed her"
nort "feel her"
abit nort far fetched nia. hahahs..
happy now anna tham?
the love story of the red bean gurl

i wanna smile. to hide the falling tears
i nod. i admit i'm afraid of the dark
wo only ask for a little time with you
but you dont even give me pity

i wanna cry. to see if i'm numb alr
i seem to be the only worn out person on earth
no matter. i'll just take the unhappiness as it is
and just hope that dispair and helplessness goes away.

the skies are gray.
will it help me forget who you are?
the darker the skies get the more my dreams betray me
bud whos there to comfort me?
my world is crashing in on me
maybe things have to turn out form what i want it to be

i'm tierd. i wanna sleep
only my shadows here with me
the skies get darker , the dreams further
theres no one around
my world is crashing in on me
maybe not knowing anything is also a form of beauty.

Wednesday, December 3

a note from the boss

anna and en bu kui shi hao you
both ask me wot i want fer christmas at the same time
one sms one call
abit nort xie men.
hahas..
xin ling le!

anna > i'm sorry if i ever offended ya while blogging. kou bu ze yan. i dont really mean bad. hahas.. but sorry anyways~ ya're really quite bu lai! :)
you let me down more than once
but how come i like you more and more?

dan shi wo cun zai zhe
wo yi zhi cun zai zhe
he ni yi qi de zhao pian ren zai wo de shou ji shang tie zhe.

you've always overlooked my presense.
why am i still so stupid?
why am i treating you like some gem
when i'm just a dirt who does redundant stuff in your eyes?
someone pull me out of this bottomless pit
please.
superman

okay. wot shd i start with?
today yesterday, rox.
minicom part2
3h03 bbq
ahhas.. funness.

fall in at 8
reach there ard 7.15
thanks to my lovely mum.
hahas.. mei xiang dao shihui and dior earlier than me nae.
realized my squad.
lazie ppl
all come the latest. hahahs

wore collared tee.
i abit look nonsense.
collared tee are not made for fat ppl like me yes?
got dic.group ic.
very long dun have le!
but abit nort lame lar.
4 grps of 8 nia
oic>dic>group ic>members
so rubbish.
oh wells. the babaric system of sjab.

mpr.
wanted to barang. abit no time
snrs came back.
quite apperciated it
standard really considerbly improved
bud i dont understand why
they need to be treatened to do stuff
can they apperciate niceness?
chi ying bu chi ruan.

pt. abit xiong lar.
suhui was giving me the look.
wows. very my fault lae.

bud. fd was xiong-er
every mistake like down 5
i was downing with them
arms and knees abit like not pain lar.
hmm. how long was it since i had pumping marks?
i was nicely correcting mie jnrs mistakes
by just telling them
again and again
but cannot like give up ma!
perseverence!
ruo was giving me the dissapproving look.
think she dun really agree with the way i teach jnrs.
too nice alr?
abit nort praising myself lar.
but she gotta understand.
she does things her way. i do mine.
bud then again, her way is really much more effective
for the first time EVER,
our jnrs timing got echo nae!
hmms.
but i'll NEVER get to her level.
so dun have ta try lar.
oohs. i like my pandanpahadapan pandan command!
got echo de! hahas..
it the only command that i'm good at!
i think...

outdoor cookin was good.
nort the food lar.
the way our jnrs were
so united! so prodda em! ahahs..
supposed to be with grp 3
enens and yilins
they abit bu gei mian zi lar
ask them open up the circle.
butt like got gold. dunnwan.
wotever.
join grp2
they so nice. so enthu!
:)
food very nice! for outdoor cookin standard
cut my hand twice. burnt thrice.
nothing compared to kiat.
she wos bleeding so profusly lol.
anna abit nort filtatious lar.
ask me to feed her.
dorts
hahas.. she also guai ke lian lar
busy cookin, nv eat. ahhas.

den prize presentation
some ppl face really quite funnie.
anna. most diligent lae. hahas.. but she did improve loads. well done!
wenxus grp really verY together lol.
feel quite touched for wenxu. ahhas.. cheryl cried when she won best leader
so on lol. her members really very devoted and driven for their leader.
bu kui shi best leader!
proves we didnt make a mistake!
valerie smile very cute!
she looks like a small big felicia!
jiayu best asst leader. did quite well for com. but today always slackin away. ahahs
enen abit doubting her prize nia lar. ahhas..
huiting did really well!
-pats on da back
yilin. nothing to say lar.
her grp. best.
feel quite dui for phils grp. i'm sure if given more time, they could have done like really well!
oh wells. its over.
zai jie zai li!

den had activation. bud hadda go for fa exam
abit not like shit lar
at least i clinched some marks
the case study really gone lar.
took case one. craped all the way
fell down and fainted.
den i abit, possible injuries : fractures, concussion, sprains, abrassion........
nort nonsense lae.
full of shit
and mrs tan is gonna die at my paper.
words all like shit.

gave sec2s their pres
lameness golore.
hahas.. i think esp annas one.
a cats a cat. and thats that.
hahas.. bit it was cute marrrrrr~
the rest pick their own pres lar.
all the wrapping like sai.
i suck at wrappin pres.
total enen she was my sp.
ahhas.. abit not fated lar.
wotever.
hahas.. glad some of em really appeaciated i!
gave sec1s hershys chocs.
sorry~
:/
broke..
ahahs.. but i'm really starting to think our jnrs are nort bad!
nort bad at all!

den went for 3h03 bbaq
clique as usual
but can feel class warmth and unity!
renns and yixians parents so enthu!
hahas..
ate. 2 sausages and 1/2 an otah. hahas
bud nevermind lar!
had my fair share of fun
so the zies were like taking fotos everywhere like suaku pigs
hahas..
dor!!! mei nu!

*jnrs. ya rock mans!*

Monday, December 1

mc'03

i cant believe minicom is over
like.....
hmm..
3 groups over perfomed
4 groups under preformed
and one grp did as expected.
well.
didnt really see everything. so cant really comment much
besides. gen will just KILL me if i leaked.
hahas..

was nursing patient
backed ached like hell after 5 grps uped and downed the bed
and turned me too and fro.
feel so taken advantage of
some ppl anyhow mo...

stayed back to prepare pres and discuss results.
yeps. quite unexpected.
very pround of some ppl
=)
feel so dui for some ppl
they can do it de
bud dunno wot happened.
results quite unexpected.
=)

bud on the other hand.
soem ppl oughtta get a grip
hello?
its minicom.
nort playtime.
u inspection was totally like shit
most of the sec2s ran down.
left sec1s to fend for themselves
wells.
the sec1s were like : how to wear barrea? huhs? helps!
den me was there to save the day lar.
i think i wore barrae for like. at least 5 sec1s. in like 3 mins?
hello?
SEC2S!?
and uniform was. horrifyin.

oh wells.
still quite prodda them!
=)
maybe i'm easily satisfied.
=)
at least its over
=)

roses are red

阳光总在风雨后
请相信有彩虹

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