<body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar.g?targetBlogID\x3d5254780\x26blogName\x3dI+am+van\x26publishMode\x3dPUBLISH_MODE_BLOGSPOT\x26navbarType\x3dTAN\x26layoutType\x3dCLASSIC\x26searchRoot\x3dhttps://vanzie.blogspot.com/search\x26blogLocale\x3den_US\x26v\x3d2\x26homepageUrl\x3dhttp://vanzie.blogspot.com/\x26vt\x3d4444263251204079091', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>

Monday, July 7

You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress

Because so much happens to me and I think a fair deal and want to say 3 persons share, I blog alot less these day.

I've so many friends. People whom I consider as friends whom I care about and love. But at the same time I dont feel anchored to any one or any one group. I would really like to. Maybe its because everyone things i've got other friends or other people to be with thats why they dont accept me as a permanent someone to contact in times of high and low. I wont say they are unfair in their judgement, but I sincerely would like to stick with a few someone through it all. Its not like I dont have long time friends. I just dont have long time friends who call or message daily, who will go for lunch with me without a question or prior appointments, who knows exactly everything that has been going on for the past 1 month of my life or vice versa. Ho hmm.

Same with activities and CCA or stuff. Arts, Soci Soc, EHOC, 50th aniversary, Soccer, Rugby, its just quite a handful and I feel like I cannot give my all to any one at one point. Which makes it just so unfair to everything.

Its just my life, I'm everywhere but like nowhere. I do alot but I'm really not good at much. hahah. Its the holidays but I'm streched like never before.

I truely want to talk to someone or some people or something. hahaha I miss everyone back here. I dont just say it for the sake of it. I really miss running around Eusoff holding Yaohui's guitar demanding everyone listen to my "Kiss Me", I miss random food hunts with the A girls, I miss going for soccer and actually enjoying it, I miss sharon barging in and out of my room, I miss waking up at 6 am in thr morning, putting on the same uniform as I do everymorning and going to AJC, I miss waiting to pick up my dad from the airport, I miss watch the 9 o'clock show.

And because I actually am on the road to self actualization, i know that 1 year later you'll find me musing about how much I miss having a busy holiday.

That said, I'm also very very happy. Its just a low moment now. (Figures, its about 6 am and I haven slept. And we all know what sleep means to me)

Mamihlapinatapei : 7/07/2008 05:42:00 AM
| 0 Comments




roses are red

阳光总在风雨后
请相信有彩虹

♥

  • April 2003
  • August 2003
  • September 2003
  • October 2003
  • November 2003
  • December 2003
  • January 2004
  • February 2004
  • March 2004
  • April 2004
  • May 2004
  • June 2004
  • July 2004
  • August 2004
  • September 2004
  • October 2004
  • November 2004
  • December 2004
  • January 2005
  • February 2005
  • March 2005
  • April 2005
  • May 2005
  • June 2005
  • July 2005
  • August 2005
  • September 2005
  • October 2005
  • November 2005
  • December 2005
  • January 2006
  • February 2006
  • March 2006
  • April 2006
  • May 2006
  • June 2006
  • July 2006
  • August 2006
  • September 2006
  • October 2006
  • November 2006
  • December 2006
  • January 2007
  • February 2007
  • March 2007
  • April 2007
  • May 2007
  • June 2007
  • July 2007
  • February 2008
  • April 2008
  • May 2008
  • June 2008
  • July 2008
  • September 2008
  • January 2009
  • March 2009
  • April 2009
  • May 2009
  • June 2009
  • July 2009
  • August 2009
  • September 2009
  • October 2009
  • November 2009
  • December 2009
  • January 2010
  • February 2010
  • March 2010
  • April 2010
  • May 2010
  • June 2010
  • July 2010
  • August 2010
  • September 2010
  • October 2010
  • November 2010
  • December 2010
  • January 2011
  • February 2011
  • March 2011
  • April 2011
  • May 2011
  • June 2011
  • July 2011
  • August 2011
  • September 2011
  • October 2011
  • November 2011
  • December 2011
  • January 2012
  • March 2014