Sunday, October 30

Tear down these walls, once and for all
and set me free


I didnt use to believe that dreams stem from your thoughts. Now I do. The negativity about my life that makes its reoccurence is magnified. My dreams are just like reality, only worst.

Saturday, October 29

So say goodbye, for just awhile.


ODAC was cancelled again today, so we sneaked out of school and went for Macs breakfast and proceeded to my house and got entertained by saving the world, tennis (yikes, I'm awful at it), and photo albums of not too long ago. It was fun, and it was 7 before we knew it. [Photos below]


I really like ODAC. I like being around people who dont judge how cool you are by the type of music you listen to. I like being able to talk to most of these people about just anything. I like having an avenue for the cheena pok in me to be released. I like not feeling TOO inferior even though I obviously am among that bunch of amazing people. I like knowing that they dont mind me being so hopelessly un-f-math-ie. haha. Ah well, however you put it. :D I just love those baybehs so.


Well, I'm looking forward. Thats the only thing to do anyway. :)


I looked at myself in the mirror everyday, and i saw myself fading away. I used to place you as the center of me, but no more, no longer. :) I'm different. You wait and see.


Everything gets me on a temporal high. I need something permanent quick.


Haha, I just suddenly thought of these. Mr Seng (Or Daniel as he calls himself in his emails (: ) complimented some classmates of mine for having insights on racism or something and said he was pleased that they were actually so analytical . (Something along these lines anyway). Well, I'm sorry to say I've none to offer. So why do people read my blog? At least I assume they do? All I have is random rubbishy, trashy stuff like how I LOVE MY PILLOW AND BOLSTER! Ah, I'm just not analytical enough to figure that out. Perhaps you tell me.


The photos below are in the following order (Class outing, High5 (well, not really) gathering, and ODAC at my place). View them bottom up please. (:


My journey home has only just begun

Power Rangers! (Yes, now start singing!) SAVE THE WORLD!

Alternatively, theres...

Soccer, duh.

Nothing can keep a bunch of guys entertained except..

haha, now we want Clemsy and Jemsy (Oh yes, and the rest of course. haha)

With his fanclub! :)

My favourite picture of the lot! ( a pity some people cant be seen)

too cool, or not. haha

My happy family portrait, my mummys looking away

ODAC at my house! We're missing teckie and keithfie, who (goodness knows why) are taking baths at my place.

Its nice !

So thats what we did while the guys were in the tub. :)

Phototaking is really entertaining! :D

SO CUTE RIGHT!!

It would have been better if the silde was made of plastic, or so darling claimed.

Dont they look all happy, stinking up the whole place

Supposedly sneak shot

We wanted to jump in at the moment the picture was taken, but we were a heartbeat too late. so its blur. (:

We always knew they were boys.

My darling and meee!

It was really a good day to be in the pool.

Poor sad teckie.

We all want two pockets of air!

Nah, no hot bodies

Changtai, as ecentric as always. :)

((: We love these boys.

So whats new?

3/5 of High Five, we're incomplete! (No, please dont start singing)

But, apparently, we were proven wrong by yin har ( and honestly, she looks halfway decent, which is an incredible feat! )

We (Me and nana at least) cant believe that ANYONE would want to wear pants that have sewn on boxers in the outside (we call them boxer pants)

We laughed at T-shirt King for a good 10 minutes. In his defense, he really had the most customers at his stall.


I love these baybehs! :D

The grandient of colours and heights. Dont you love this photo? I do!

They drank, we chatted, and I wished that night could last

Mark wanted to buy one of these babies and shove them down the neck of his barcardy.

DRINKING IS BAD FOR HEALTH. (However, one bottle in a long long while is fine. (: )

Wednesday, October 26

You light up my days and fill my nights with songs


dont want you back, you're only the best I've ever had


I know I want to make a difference, I just dont know how.


I spent the whole day watching Lovehina, and I'm totally into Keitaro once again. (:

Tuesday, October 25

I wish I may, I wish I might.


I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you.


Its the first of it all today! :D


Whoever owns -braindamage.blogspot, I curse you into a thousand million pieces.

Sunday, October 23

Spinner's End


Its so irritating, no one has the timetable for tomorrow! Seriously, what do we even go to school for?


Me, nana and yins headed out today to put our marks on bugis V, to attack classy looking black tops and hideous boxer-pants. ((: These baybehs rock so!


Rah anyway everythings mundane, and boring and seemingly uninteresting. Then again, nothings interesting if I'm not interested. But cut me some slack, just for a day. :)


I'm better. Hell loads better.
I admit that I'm afraid of the dark


It'll be okay in just awhile. I must say I'm afraid though. But I know its gonna turn out alright at the end.


Maybe we were meant to be, but somehow we're losing it.


I really like this song, its called Superwoman by Karyn White.


Early in the morning
I put breakfast at your table
And make sure that your coffee
Has its sugar and cream


Your eggs are over easy
Your toast done lightly
All that's missing is your morning kiss
That used to greet me


Now you say the juice is sour
It used to be so sweet
And I can't help but to wonder
If you're talking 'bout me


We don't talk the way we used to talk
It's hurtin' so deep
I've got my pride, I will not cry
But it's makin' me weak


I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me


I fought my way through the rush hour
Trying to make it home just for you
I want to make sure that your dinner
Will be waiting for you


But when you get there you just tell me
You're not hungry at all
You said you'd rather read the paper
And you don't want to talk


You like to think that I'm just crazy
When I say that you've changed
I'm convinced I know the problem u don't love me the same



You're just going through the motions
And you're not being fair
I've got my pride, I will not cry
Still I can't help but care


I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me


Play waterside to get your mind off things. (: Its really fun. Alternatively, be like the CJ people and study for your Chinese AO.

Saturday, October 22

this one way street I'm walking alone
this time I'm gonna break free,


I'm going to find me.


THIRTY EIGHT OH FIVE! :D :D :D Though the drinking and midnight movie-ing didnt quite work out, I'm glad we got together and caught up abit. (:


Its like trying to hold water in your hands. An useless attempt.

Friday, October 21

Once again, today, the world decided to tell me how they hated me. But its Okay. (:


Be strong, wont you?


Its ironic, nothing more matters about me to me, but everything about you still do.


Harry, I have no idea whatever you're talking about, but if you know you studied less then me (which means you probably studied like 1 weeks worth) then dont whine about your grades, cause I think thats loser. I admit, I cant accept certain truths. So what? I dont think I'm a loser for that, I just chose to stick by faith.


Cheekai, whatever does that mean man? Ask me out for pool now, I'm free. Finally. (:


Shannie, must be!


Bah, I guess I'll be okay tomorrow. Thats the way isnt it? Crash me down when you feel like it, cause you know I'll be me again tomorrow. (Or maybe you dont even care) . I hate this this uncanny ablility that I posses.
Gary just let out a gay whoop


Yesterday, I was really happy I never would have to edit that detestable thing known as the Written Report ever again. Depite being 15min late in submission, (Ok, actually that would merit a 0 in most case) we were really happy. Seriously, you have no idea what a miricle it is for us to have a halfway decent 30 page thing to hand in. I mean in 3 days, just admit it, we're super! haha, and I feel that the WR owes much of its success (or the success that I hopw it really is) to limin and Mr Seng. So whoop! :D


After that mad rush, we are now determine to start OP way ahead of time. I'm hoping it wont be hard to coordinate with the groupmember.


The euphoria of yesterday didnt make today I guess. Cause I feel so pangsaed and it not helping that Mr Lim is hosing us down with water and theres endless array of lessons and 4 hours of more PW later. No lah, actually I'm not really upset cause of events, I just am.


I'm praying for you to have strength, to be able to take the blow, in any case. I have faith in you, I know you can. :)


I disagree to a large extent at Harrys comment on losers. People who study and dont make it arent losers, they are admirable enough to try at the very least. I think people who dont study, do badly are loser. So Harry, did you not study hard or are you stupid? Then he said those who dont accept the slap-in-your-face-kind-of-truth are losers. I disagree. What you perceieve to be the truth may not be so for others. Whats wrong with having faith in things you believe in? Then theres others, but I'm bored, maybe next time.


Then theres Gary and Cleavon playing pika ball in the school com lab. (Gary : Oh no.. The world will know..)


What meaningful things we do with time. :)

Wednesday, October 19

PW, and you.

Sunday, October 16

As we ride this water side, I hope we'll never hit the surface.


So well, it seems like here we are once again.


Its easy to convince yourself, really. Escpecially in my case. Just so you know and not try.


Yes, as we observe below, Harry didnt have the decency to post my entry for me and instead blogged an entry of his own, thus contaminating my blog with his bad english. (e.g. din)


But yes, today was the typically wasted day where your whole day is spent wondering and waiting and expecting and building up only to end on a retarded (I couldnt really find a word to describe it) note.


Honestly, I'm afraid . It was unexpected and with time, its terrifying. I'm unable to comprehend why you can be distracted by other things, maybe I just didnt know you as well as I thought you did. But I'll wish on the first star I see tonight for you.


We went down to the Esplanade yesterday for Eternal Loop. They were every bit worth the sweat and rush and 1 1/2 70 bus ride and the gawning on subway's meatball mania. Would have been more hyped, but its bedtime, so goodnight world.
Whee

i am guest blogging for today cos van din log out of her account when she left my house.

Vanessa and wong ci came over today. Din do much xcept walk all the way to jalan kayu and back after eating prata... it was like 6 bucks per person -.-" Boring day


-Harry

Wednesday, October 12

starlight in a bottle


hello hello! the promos are over!


(the following sentences are meant to be disjointed)


ask me out if you please, and I may pack you in somewhere, just maybe. (:


But for now, I have ODAC on a daily basis, on top of having to study for chinese 3 hrs a day- if you believe.


I kindda love mrs alice teo.


I sort of wish we've never met.


I hate it when you feel like you're falling, but you know you arent. You cant help feeling that way.


I would rent the entire collection of dvds/vcds/tapes and watch them with you.


Watch out, I talk like a lian.


I met the zies, they made me feel happy, safe and I dont miss out on stories about gummy and kim. (:


I need the sun, I'm bleching.


I'm experiencing the pimple outbreaks 3 years late.


I have an NCO meeting on sunday. I wonder whos going to be there. Will the same gang still be around? I wont be there to find out.


Hello Mr Seng if you're reading. Now I cant talk about my life and delightful daily PW. :) But its going well.


It was so much simpler.

Sunday, October 9

when you've lost your iron will.


I refuse to believe that I'm the bottom 1% of the school. Surely there must be people who are lazier and stupider than me. Yes, I know thats hard, but its possible ok!


Anyway, here we go again, the fruitless and dreaded struggle to defeat colonial rule and the GNP and GDP. Especially Southeast Asia with the stupid colonial powers who claim that colonization is expensive and come round annexing/implementing residential systems/etc etc anyway. I swear they're indefatigable, impenetratable and simply impossible to even make sense of.


I cant cant cant wait for Monday! Its the zies day out (eat your heart out qiu! haha) and simultaneously marks the end of the promos (It shouldnt cause a huge impact since we've already begun celebrating with PS2s, corpse brides and all, but I just know it all anyway. (:)


And and! My parents actually agreed to let me go to Thailand with the Raine, Limin and Shimu !! I promise I will resist the forces of the lians and emerge pure like a lotus. :D Aint it exciting, the mere thought of dashing into neoprint shops (if there are) makes me feel like whopping even with Malaya in my face. ((: Anyone else wanna go hurh hurh hurh? :D It would have been an almost perfect trip.


Okay, I apologize for lying that Mao Mao went to stay over at wongci's house to watch soccer. I mean, he doesnt appreciate such vigor and excitement.

Saturday, October 8

Its a sunny yellow, banana day


I just discussed an important issue with Gary berry, about our on-rpomed class chalet.


but the truth is, you could slit my throat, and with my one last gasping breath, I'll apologize for bleeding on your shirt. says:
WHY!
but the truth is, you could slit my throat, and with my one last gasping breath, I'll apologize for bleeding on your shirt. says:
only one room
but the truth is, you could slit my throat, and with my one last gasping breath, I'll apologize for bleeding on your shirt. says:
i refuse to share the room with josef
More than words can say ! friedbeehoon.diary-x.com ! says:
hahaha
More than words can say ! friedbeehoon.diary-x.com ! says:
we'll assign him sentry duty outside
but the truth is, you could slit my throat, and with my one last gasping breath, I'll apologize for bleeding on your shirt. says:
haha
but the truth is, you could slit my throat, and with my one last gasping breath, I'll apologize for bleeding on your shirt. says:
yes yes please!
but the truth is, you could slit my throat, and with my one last gasping breath, I'll apologize for bleeding on your shirt. says:
with dan seng?
but the truth is, you could slit my throat, and with my one last gasping breath, I'll apologize for bleeding on your shirt. says:
hes going to jump up screaming and insist all the guys sleep in the cupboard and the girls in the toilet
but the truth is, you could slit my throat, and with my one last gasping breath, I'll apologize for bleeding on your shirt. says:
while he gets the room
More than words can say ! friedbeehoon.diary-x.com ! says:
hahaha
More than words can say ! friedbeehoon.diary-x.com ! says:
i'll throw him into the sea
but the truth is, you could slit my throat, and with my one last gasping breath, I'll apologize for bleeding on your shirt. says:
oh oh
but the truth is, you could slit my throat, and with my one last gasping breath, I'll apologize for bleeding on your shirt. says:
yes yes please
More than words can say ! friedbeehoon.diary-x.com ! says:
or ask security to remove him cos MY DAD booked it
More than words can say ! friedbeehoon.diary-x.com ! says:
hahaha


Gary Berry to save the day (chalet!) ! I rolled on the floor in laughter. (No, i refuse to use rofl or whatever the shortform is) :D haha, okay, it must be the before effects of Prajahipok.


CHERIE! you mean i havent thanked you already? dont go round blamming the poor little postman (is he cute? (:)
GEN! Thanks darling! I need more powerful weapons!
POR! I cant emphasize enough how much I want Monday to be here (er, skip the promos part) . Meatballs are screaming our names ! can you hear? We'll catch up then, I promise.
CECS! Oh, dont try to make me read between the lines, so do you right? haha, Well, I miss both of you as well! Our regular holiday outings coming up can you see it? (:
KAI! Oh no! How come your beng friend is stalking me eh eh eh!
ISA! Eddy! haha, I still cant figure out why are you isa, and er, thanks for the weird noises/sounds, I can really decode them. haha, and i know you're hiding something from me.. right right right? Feel guilty NOW. haha.

Monday, October 3

Things that I was sure of
They have filled me up with doubt


And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating
My heart's sinking like a weight


Hey, I never knew so much about ignorance.

Sunday, October 2

I see the children, I see all their scars
I fear the monsters that don't know who they are


Promos are a piece of cake, all the best you all. (:


I mean, sitting for them are. Its the after that not. Worry about them then. (:


I dont know how I'm going to write a GP essay when I haven read the newspapers in about 5 months. But I will somehow.(:


Okok, I know nobody wants to read more about the promos, but better than watching the fight on my tagboard. Hey buddy, hey kai (ah beng!) ! ((: Stop calling us mdm/sir unless you want your hair plucked out. (:


I want to keep so many memories for always, so I want to blog about them / write the down in my diary (which my mum will be sure to see). But then I realize these memories will stick with me regardless of physical reminders, if they are as precious as I claim them to be. (OK, plus the fact I'm lazy)


Its a mixture of self indulgence, excitment, love, doubts and fear. I cant quite place it either. :D

roses are red

阳光总在风雨后
请相信有彩虹

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