Sunday, October 31
My sister is such a
disappointment today and I am a lot more sad than I am angry.
I also wonder if I have any right to feel disappointed when in the first place I am not of any
exemplary daughter material.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/31/2010 01:26:00 AM
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Saturday, October 30
I can't decide if I miss you or not.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/30/2010 09:51:00 PM
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All my best memories/ Come back clearly to me/ Some can even make me cry. Copying down my messages from my ex-phone and all the old times and jokes and gossips and random nothings just keeps coming back and I wonder what changed between me and some people. Its weird (but not entirely so) that we used to be so friendly and happy but as we got to know each other, its like we lost the
excitement of the getting-to-know and all the courtesies that come with finding a new friend. I mean we're still friends, in a different way altogether. And I wonder is that a good or not-so-good thing. Its just so so true that
"Sometimes you have to get to know someone really well to realize you’re really strangers." (Mary Tyler Moore)
Then I was looking for my old diary and I took a short cut down memory lane (because its really late I need to sleep and wake up to try and get rid of my cyst again. I absolutely refuse to go down to NUH EVER they just transfer me from one a&e to the clinic to the surgery room and I've wasted about $300 on this cyst and about 10 hrs (and still counting). I think I can actually live with it. OKAY sorry big digression here).
I found this letter that Taiyong wrote me (that I almost can't recall) about how I'm such a people-person, how if he threw me in a cage with a Tiger we'll end up being friends, how I was such a thoughtful friend and how that was the best part of me. (How ironic he was possibly one of my least closest friend in Odac) Then I saw in one of my old sms 'records' that Guoxing sent me on my birthday 4 years ago about how he "probably never told me this but I am one of the most bubbly person (he) know(s)". And all these just reminds me of who I wonder if my friends who knew me as the happy bubble then (YES, I was sincerely bubbly and friendly and brimming with uncontainable young energy) would appreciate me for who I am now.
Yet I appreciate
everyone who has walked into (and for most, out of) my life because everyone has something to offer and something worth appreciating them for (either in them being themselves and teaching you a value, or teaching you what isnt a value). Its like when I think of the people who left, most of them really make me feel "oh-i-wish-they-were-still-around-but-nevermind-i-wish-them-every-happiness". I think people who made an impact in your life just leave a part of them with you.
I sound like I'm writing in an autograph book :/
Labels: love you, random
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/30/2010 02:35:00 AM
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Friday, October 29
I can feel the rings.
I'm FINALLY (its been a 5 mths worth of pus) going to NUH tmr to get my cyst out and I'm actually abit scared cause I dont think I've ever had stitches or surgery or anything of that sort before. Oh I'm just being a baby but it seems like it would be appropriate to ask one of my friends to go with me (as my mother suggested but really its only supposed to be a 1/2 hr deal) except that I don't know if I really need that and its too much trouble anyway. I promise to treat myself to the free new and exclusive Mr Bean icy milo soya to reward myself for my bravery tomorrow.
"What is she doing here?" is really quite a bitchy thing to say (unless its like your house or room) but it just bugs me to have such a negative presence hanging around with ulterior motives I can't quite figure out.
Labels: rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/29/2010 01:30:00 AM
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Thursday, October 28
I keep losing thing I wonder why I'm not used to it. Need
this badly. Also need to stop having bad sleeping habits.
That and I am aware that of late I've been eating too many muesli bars and drinking too much cereal and H20 just because I've been so reluctant to get out of my room for proper meals. I just rather be clean and comfortable then to go burn a few hours with random so and so. And its scary how so many people are increasingly making their way into my "random so and so" list all because really becoming such a snob. Maybe I really should move to C block and stop this migration to social reclusion. But I really did have such an enjoyable day in with no one but glee. (:
Labels: did you know?
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/28/2010 04:56:00 AM
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Wednesday, October 27
Truths,
Half-truths,
Half-lies,
Lies.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/27/2010 08:12:00 PM
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愛你夠不夠多對你夠不夠好
可以要求 不要不在乎
Somehow this song is apt for a nice rainy night that precedes a schooless day tomorrow. (:
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/27/2010 04:02:00 AM
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Tuesday, October 26
Kiss me goodbye, I'm
defying gravity.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/26/2010 06:06:00 PM
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Please call me up, because you know I'll be there.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/26/2010 05:53:00 PM
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Monday, October 25
Love and other bruises
My darling claims she is "how 叫不动" and how dumb she thinks it is to pay money to run. But yet she came for me and drove us there in the cold (IT WAS DAMN COLD I CANT BELIEVE YOU TAHAN-ED ALL THE WAY) and doddered all 10k of the way and I think thats a lot like love (:
My friend who always makes me feel like eating sashimi is the happiest thing in the world.
Do you think we can rock the wet and curly hair look?
Was having a pretty good day because mostly, I love waking up to rain. But I decided it was finally time to visit NUH to get rid of my almost 6 mth old cyst. And who else but Kaihui will sit there for 3 hours with me while I kept falling asleep for most of the time while trying to talk to her. Anyway that was a failed attempt and all I got of it was a nice Mr Bean meal and a Mr Bean plush keychain (:
I grudgingly got myself off the bed at 930 because I've a presentation due tomorrow but I received a message from Juni: "no shakespeare lesson tomorrow. This is not a Punk". And then my life seemed complete there and then. Especially since I've been having a dull headache since the stupid hospital visit and am really not in any mood to do the presentation so this is somewhat a God send. And sleep in FTW. (Just realized I have 'no more' lessons for the week! WHAT WHAT WHAT ? :D
Before exchange, I thought if I was willing to leave up all the happiness of then, go off and return to people whom I wasn't sure will still remember me. Then Ben said : People who are worth staying for will remember you even after you leave and those who don't aren't worth staying for. I thought this was a simple straightforward line that made so much sense. But now I'm coming to terms that maybe relationships are a lot more complex than that. Maybe people care in different ways and someone who cares might not appear that way at all. Maybe some people find it easier to care when you're away. (You know like how easy it is to tell someone they are appreciated over written or typed words rather than face to face. Which is a shame) And maybe, some people will never care no matter where you are.
I wonder why you say goodbye I say hello.
Labels: love you, NUS, random
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/25/2010 10:54:00 PM
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So this is strange, / our sidestepping has come to be a brilliant dance / where nobody leads at all.
I wanted to say something but I passed out on my bed.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/25/2010 12:24:00 AM
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Saturday, October 23
Sew this up with threads of reason and regret, So I will not forget, I cannot forget.And then sometimes words can mean so much. Like a random few words strung together can paint such a beautiful
imagery and
summon so much to mind. They don't even have to be well thought of or big words or have a complicated structure. Like how Sarah Kane's "remember the light and believe the light" is my current favourite line. Would post a list of random quotes I like (but on second thought that would really be endless) but I really should be sleeping cause we need to kick everyones butt tomorrow to end our season with a bang.
Okay random but I used to dislike Sarah Kane cause of her warped obession with sucking out eyeballs and fucking children but I had to read 4.48 Psychosis for class yesterday and wow, I must say I am impressed (but there were still some eyeball sucking action in that play though). I always have this habit of being too quick to judge.
I STILL LOVE YELLOWCARD (yes, so much so that I had to post it on facebook). Hahah brings back those bittersweet yesteryears.
Labels: (:, theatre
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/23/2010 01:50:00 AM
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We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks.I really should be sleeping in my deliciously comfortable bed right now but I just found the most awesome glee rendition of "
Total Eclipse of the Heart" and I'm in love with it all over again. :D
Someone asked me to do something that that someone is perfectly capable of doing herself and I was nice enough to say okay even in the midst of my hell week. And now this person is totally rushing me to get to it. The sense propriety is so starkingly missing I'm actually as to loss of how to reply.
But my darling just offered me a bike ride down to our human race tomorrow and I AM EXCITED :D
Labels: (:, everyday nonsense
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/23/2010 01:25:00 AM
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Friday, October 22
Words can be such an inadequate medium to communicate emotions sometimes. "There are many things that's I would like to say to you but I don't know how". Is that why people adopt the policy of silence, or is that what I'll like to think when really people just don't have things to say to each other any more. I love comfortable silences but I love someone who just gets me as well. There is no point about this post if you don't get my point.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/22/2010 04:40:00 PM
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Thursday, October 21
You are my thin ice syndrome.
Tumblr turned its dashboard purple to show its stance against the bullying of GLBT. I don't particularly support this move even though I like the new colour because I think its fundamentally flawed.
Bullying, no matter by who or directed at who, is just wrong. And I guess thats why they say to see the true character of people, you will gain more insight by observing how he treat his inferiors (or perceived inferiors) rather than his equals/superiors. People who think themselves as of a higher breed are just plain disgusting. And then theres the 'passive bulliers'. Some say bullying is a two way traffic because the bullyee allows himself to exist in that relationship, but I think its just an excuse for the 'some' so that they feel better about themselves when they stand back and do nothing. I dont think the bullies should bear full responsibility for the suicide cases (and why just suicide cases, what about mental health and other woes they have to bear. Is it only important when it cumulates in a drastic act?). Because everyone who knew and let it happen are equally at fault. Hiding behind a purple outfit shows your support yes. Showing your stand is great, but it is not enough, maybe its time people actually did something.
Then theres the stance against bullying GLBT that somewhat offends me. Because its not just about the bullying right? Its about the whole accepting and understanding part as well. What I mean is, you can take on the stand that you are okay with GLBT but what your kid was one of them, can you accept it then? Just because you don't bully someone doesnt mean you accept the person for who he is. I think a superficial move to stop discrimination is good, but it is definitely inadequate as the end all.
Labels: random
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/21/2010 12:37:00 AM
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Wednesday, October 20
"Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do."
- Apple, Think Different
Can I be a Great Spirit in my small way?
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/20/2010 10:20:00 PM
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Too often we dont realize what we have until its gone.
Too often we're too stubborn to say "Sorry, I was wrong."
Too often it seems we hurt the ones closest to our hearts,
And we let the most foolish things tear us apart.I still love rhymes.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/20/2010 02:23:00 PM
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Tuesday, October 19
There are just some people I need to be away from to love. And every time I sense that, I just feel bad. Because firstly, I don't want to upset you yet I don't want to be in contact with you (I don't see how these two can happen simultaneously) until I can stop seeing everything you do in a negative light (At the risk of sounding trite, its me not you and I mean it.). And also, I don't know when, if ever, this feeling will fade.
Maybe I should stop building bridges until I learn how to stop burning them.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/19/2010 03:52:00 PM
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I cheered up considerably because hall dinner was good and my nap was good and I cancelled one day off my horror week calendar. And then I came up with a one step at the time plan and I cannot cannot cannot wait for Friday. (: Or actually Thursday would be greatly welcomed too. You see that white cloud like thing? Its actually a sheep and theres the word SLEEP in it and thats the projected next time I am getting what my heart desires most.
And then theres this whole getting easily distracted business going on and I mean what is up with that?
Is it weird that I'm not worried (or doing anything) about how I'm going to complete all my work but am completely prepared to pull yet another all nighter. Somehow, the words just fall into place 3 hours before the deadline and that is really such a bad bad habit.
Hate this whole honours student deal and with my honours coordinator emailing me every other day asking me if I can graduate if I want to pull my CAP up and how I should be studying. If he has been talking to any of my professors (which I'm sure he has been) he should realize by now that it would already be a miracle if my CAP maintains. And no, I do not want to ever hang out in the TS honours room and spend some time getting to know my peers and feel even more inadequate then I already do.
Yesterday, I though I was having a sort of shitty suay day but now I can barely remember what actually annoyed me (except some unhelpful shitheads. I mean study so much and still so selfish then you study for shit) which is good I guess. And which also means I was just being unnecessarily worked up (as usual. Running on a short fuse of late). Okay just as I was about to say today might not actually be so bad, (and add a smily face behind for good measure) someone just walked across my corridor and my open door and is smoking. WTF really, if he walks past again, I am going out, hairband hair or not.
Labels: everyday nonsense, NUS
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/19/2010 12:27:00 AM
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Monday, October 18
The previous post is just kind of bratty and embarrassing but whatever, I was really ticked off yesterday.
Almost as pissed off then as I am tired now. And its really barely 12.40 I have half a mind to take a nap since I did manage to wring an extension for my feminist essay (supposedly due tomorrow). Its gonna be a grueling week and I have no one to blame and whine to but myself.
So this is my team at the Singapore Rugby 7 Series that just concluded today and there were high and low moments but I thought some people really leveled up and so my 2 precious weekends and multiple scratches were kind of worth it. I think we worked hard to get there. The thing about sports is the people who shine are naturally more valued, but I think it is important to recognize that there are people who helped them get where they are and are also playing their best- which is really everything they should be doing and I think everyone who did that should be proud of themselves and should have teammates who are proud of them.
One of the thing that struck me most (although I am hardly in the right frame of mind to reflect) is about how much we've got to want it and how it is a game of passion. In Tabi's words, if your heart cannot take it go and play something easier. Like the violin (I am still amused by it) haha. But yes, the warming up was more mental than anything and its really not how good we are that impresses me and makes the game enjoyable. Its how we show that we want it (no I dont consider "Are you ready to play?" -awkward silence then "(meekly) yes?" wanting it) and we're out there fighting for it.
And this is what I'm reading now. Usually I would completely be interested (and its actually an interesting read) but I am so tired I am actually kind of convinced maybe its a good idea to take a nap.
Labels: everyday nonsense, NUS, rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/18/2010 12:40:00 AM
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Saturday, October 16
RANTY POST AHEAD. (will probably make me sound like 15 again)
I just wasted about 3 hours of my life first trying to download all sort of crappy programme to watch
Lawrenz's sunig video that is in .
MTS formet from Pluto. When that failed, I then tried to download another 7 different programmes to convert the .
MTS files into something playable without leaving a watermark. What is the
fucking point of recording a video in high
definition if no one can view it anyway. Not that I am hard up to watch but its like I made the effort to go get it and try to open it I wanted to complete this task but what the shit. I hate technology. I mean yes I love
aircon and my
iphone but if not for the fact that it is so much of technology causing global warming in the first place, maybe I won't need my precious
aircon so much. As for my
iphone, well, everything apple is just worthwhile technology (the exception to the rule).
Okay then I tried to find one of my MANY huge black bags and wasted another 1 hour of my life because my mother has this sickening habit (which sadly I inherited) of packing everything (like I really mean everything including the world's ugliest vases and those free supermarket paper/
canvasy free bag SHE WILL NEVER USE) into this corners and boxes and I failed the treasure hunt game and am now sweating and just completely pissed off. (Don't you dare say I'm a brat blah blah blah, I just dont understand why can't she leave my things alone. Its not like she will ever want to use my adidas duffle.)
Wah lao eh and someone completely messed up my closet and I HATE HATE HATE COMING HOME TO SEE MY SPACE INVADED.
My parents are somewhere stranded in Beijing and my sister is working night shift today so really I came home to an empty house. This is great (I actually kind of mean it) except that I am really angry now and have no one to unleash my
wrath upon.
Labels: everyday nonsense
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/16/2010 08:13:00 PM
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Immediately after retrieving my laundry from the dryer, I used a fresh out of the dryer towel to dry myself and can I just say that at that moment the bliss I felt was just too awesome. Its really such simple (okay not very simple need to walk up and down to do laundry and need to pay 20c for dryer) pleasures in life that takes you by surprise. :))
Labels: (;
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/16/2010 12:14:00 AM
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Friday, October 15
Athazagoraphobia is the fear of forgetting or being forgotten. And isolophobia is the fear of being alone.
But no amount of fear can delay the inevitable.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/15/2010 07:43:00 PM
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Every Friday I get enough love to last me for a week. (:
Labels: love you
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/15/2010 07:20:00 PM
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要我用谁的心去体会?
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/15/2010 05:22:00 PM
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Wonder what my neighbour will say if i go into her room now, plonk on her bed and explode in a series of whines.
I guess its come to this and lets just leave it at goodnight.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/15/2010 12:36:00 AM
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Thursday, October 14
And once again, even though I am in my room making no noise and pretending I don't exist,
you are my kind of beautiful.
(If only I was this dramatic in class. I think my lectures will like me about 340% more.)
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/14/2010 03:48:00 PM
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Sometimes we say things we mean and sometimes we don't and sometimes we say things and pretend that we don't really mean it when really we mean so more than we care to show.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/14/2010 02:48:00 PM
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Who cares about practicality?
Boxed water is just cooler.
Labels: random
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/14/2010 04:43:00 AM
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Labels: love you
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/14/2010 04:35:00 AM
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If it is born in flames then we should let it burn
The only person I would coordinate dressing with. (Just kidding, I think we've established our name as the twin ommpas without having to wear the same shirt)
Aileen Tan drove us out in her new car and bought us supper and I feel so touched because I remember the days we used to talk about what we will do when Aileen graduates and it is finally materializing. It feels like shes in some new stage in her life but shes still her. Or maybe its that I'll always have a soft spot for my favourite chopstick.
"She has a tummy!"
"No, she has more than just a tummy, she has 2."
I am the worst module planner in the whole NUS possibly. I have taken like 6 extra modules (and that is really more than 1 sem). I mean its partially exchange and mostly my own stupidity.
Its a shame we came to this.
If this is meant to end, I hope it ends where this began.
Labels: random
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/14/2010 03:38:00 AM
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Wednesday, October 13
Lying in bed, thinking overdue thoughts, listening to chinese hits from 10 years ago. I think I could do this all day or all week really.
Where should we draw the "too nice" and "too fake" line?
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/13/2010 03:38:00 PM
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I'm amazed I'm still alive since I've only managed to put in 6 hours of sleep time in the past two days and was completely floaty and cold during training. Head aching from either tying my hair too tight or the lack of sleep and my right back-arm area is barely staying together. Got much to reflect and work on too, and i keep trying to picture a defense line i'm bordering on the verge of being obsessive. BUT I must say how happy I am because I'm looking forward to almost 8 hrs of sleep and I am a very satisfied and happy girl. Good night star lights :D
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/13/2010 02:39:00 AM
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Tuesday, October 12
I'll be so happy if you came back, I'll be so happy if you wanted to come back.
I AM SO TIRED. Last night I kept thinking how its all psychological and I am blessed to be a blessing. I wish I was a bigger blessing. Gonna need hide out somewhere and find some energy air or something. This is annoying- my healthy lifestyle for 3 weeks ruined in a span of 3 days.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/12/2010 11:36:00 AM
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I'm just so tired, will you sing and fan me to sleep?
I think its a good idea for me to disappear tomorrow and the next 4 days after.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/12/2010 03:49:00 AM
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Monday, October 11
If you were a facebook status, I would like you.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/11/2010 05:43:00 AM
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No more Sunday love.
Just came to my attention that the next two weeks will be shitty with the rapid fire of deadlines. Maybe I should write a note to self to stop whiling away time and actually do something productive but I know thats not gonna work so I shalln't try. In fact, in an effort to procrastinate doing my essay due tmr for as long as I possibly can, I have gone on every possible facebook page, and downloaded more iphone games that I probably will not play and did up my schedule for the fortellable future. And its just completely downright lugubrious I think its can cry one lor. haha. I am actually looking forward to Wed 1 am because that is most likely the next time I can imagine getting a decent sleep.
I can easily write 300 words in 15 minutes. If spoken, maybe I probably can manage it 1/4 of that time. But I've just been so lacklustre about it. And its just a reflection damn it. At the D lounge now and its so hot I've been sweating endlessly on the sofa its almost obscene. Either those two boys (its not their fault but I'm secretly annoyed at them) are REALLY heat tolerent or I need to do something about myself. Like move to somewhere where the weather is cool. All the freaking time.
Can't believe I used to type wot instead of what.
Oh my I think the guys been spying on me (he probably thinks I'm DAMN hardworking cause I suddenly seem to type so quickly) because he just asked me if its okay if he turned up the fan. YES (in the most bo seh manner)!
Labels: Eusoff, NUS, theatre
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/11/2010 04:55:00 AM
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I won't, I'm not nearly brave enough.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/11/2010 03:11:00 AM
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Sunday, October 10
情难了
Quite a badly taken picture by my ah go go, but what a deliciously wonderful memory it was, flying the kite that I carried all the way from Seattle at sunrise on the day before our final exams.
Oh and the SUNIG dinner thing kind of annoyed me cause firstly I think they could have cared enough to remember that we played 7s not 10s and its just unacceptable that its so unprofessional about it. Then there was the food shortage. But the rest of the night was great. Siewhuai's birthday party was so out of this world I felt so happy for her and I almost died laughing when she started on the building Mcdonald hell money/ gim zhua thingy (note to self: find out what that is called in english). And spontaneous KTV with the lyric police and the girl from the different era was fun for me and them if they enjoyed my singing haha.
Labels: (:
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/10/2010 02:31:00 AM
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Saturday, October 9
On an aside note, I met J today. We used to be kind of friends before she fell sick. And she used to be really good friends with my friends. But after she fell sick, we hung around for awhile before we let go. And I think I will always feel bad about that. You know what they say about how a friend is the person that walks in when everyone walks out. And I guess we belonged in the group that walked out. I always wondered if anyone still thinks of her like I do, and if anyone actually stuck around like they said they would. But I guess like all things that we don't like to think about, she doesn't show up in our conversation anymore.
But I still wish her every happiness. And I am very happy she is well.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/09/2010 04:09:00 AM
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Your gaze was fixed somewhere else.
This picture was taken kind of randomly but it really means quite a lot to me. Everything that happened on that day did. But this best exemplifies "the best thing about a picture is that it never changes, even when the people in it do."(Andy Warhol) Oh well, glad I met her anyway.
So, I went jogging with Shuwen at night and we were just talking about things. And all of a sudden I just felt lonely. Like woah lonely. Like I can't think of a single person to call lonely. And when I finally did, that person just kind of made me feel lonelier. Tonight, for the first time in a long time, I wanted some one to just be there. To ask me how was my day and to sincerely be interested to hear the most mundane of replies.
I am sincerely interested in what my friends have to say so long as I truly take them as a friend. But it seems like this has ceased to be the norm and somehow the way we interact with one another has became more cautious, more calculated. Its not to say that we're all insincere beings, but I would venture a guess that its because I don't feel as free to just say anything I want anymore. So much of our interactions rest on the superficial, and a quick check on my phone's call history reveals that all these transactions are because I want something from them or they want something from me. It sounds a lot worst when I put it like that but what I really mean is, when was the last time you called a friend just because? People talk to me when I'm injured, hungry, sad, broken, blah blah blah, but maybe I want someone to talk to when I'm happy or bored or whatever. Since when do you need a reason to want to talk to a friend?
Maybe I'm jaded about hall. Maybe because I waited for Shuwen to celebrate Lynette's birthday with the hall people which got me thinking like when you talk to so many people can you sincerely care for all of them. And come to think of it, I don't really remember who crowded into my room on birthday. I term it the you-know-so-many-people-you-don't-know anyone-anymore syndrome.
Maybe I just want someone to share my minute and painfully detailed observations of the world with. Like how my neck could use a massage, and how I am actually considering giving up all sport participation and how Minli is just amazing and how
this is actually kind of funny (but I secretly don't trust the NY times) and how I think people who collect post-it notes are kind of sweet.
Maybe I just want you around. (or maybe I don't want to want you anymore)
Labels: Eusoff, everyday nonsense
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/09/2010 02:35:00 AM
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Friday, October 8
I don't know why, but i really really really really feel like having this now now naooo.
Labels: food
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/08/2010 02:33:00 AM
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And together they touched the sky.
What didnt start out as a promising day ended quite well. The whole feel of the beach contact event, good company and the whole holiday atmosphere was kind of nice (for awhile).
And this is my friend Terence.
Creepy, but they do really look quite alike here.
Dragon ladies are just cooler (sorry about the orange tinge, lazy to edit)
Young blacks (really damn young dammit)
I always claim I'm non-competitive (I really don't think I am, like I will never force someone out to let me play and I can truly appreciate a good game even if we must lose) but sometimes I wonder if I am in the eyes of someone else.
Labels: rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/08/2010 01:34:00 AM
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Thursday, October 7
My right arm is sore, tight and numb all at once I am scared.
Haven woken up past 12 in the longest time but yesterday I was quite amazingly tired. Still am. :/
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/07/2010 12:31:00 PM
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I dont always have the smartest things to say and my forearm/wrist is throbbing all over again.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/07/2010 02:25:00 AM
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Wednesday, October 6
Funny how a photograph can take you back in time
to places and embraces that you thought you left behind.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/06/2010 10:47:00 AM
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I always miss home at 3am.
Labels: home
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/06/2010 02:52:00 AM
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Tuesday, October 5
I know I signed up for it but dance is seriously the darkest part of my day (and it hasnt even started yet)
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/05/2010 09:20:00 PM
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I've been up since 854am to have breakfast with Minli (aka athletic nice neighbour whom according to Shuwen is "so good at everything". Walking beside her slim and tall frame makes me feel like we're a perfect 10- no prizes for guessing whos the 0 but thats beside the point here sorry). And then somewhat rushed back to my room to hang out on IVLE because we have to elearn online and post responses on the dot.
But no questions were raised as promised by my intimidating lecturer and hence no response required. So class is out but I just spent a good 3 hours stressed up over IVLE and when the page went down I actually felt my stomach flip. And I bet we have to make up this class out of our own time too. Stupid elearning week. I guess this is what they mean by "misery in disguise".
Of the 1500 FASS students in NUS, there are only about 10 TS majors and 5 TS honours student. So as I am one of the 5 I guess you can consider me somewhat a rare breed. Coupled with the fact that I am a TS and Soci double major, I'm possibly the only one in 5 years to be doing this course of study and I'm practically a unicorn.
But I am a damn fail unicorn. :/
Junyi (the main reason why I'm sane in class) :
margaret chan u dunno meh
CRUSH U LIKE COCKROACH
ivan heng u dunno meh!?
leow puay ting is familiar sounding also mah
And am about to get crushed like a cockroach. It is of little wonder why all my lecturers are giving me the "you are an insect" face (hereon will be referred to as the insect face).
Labels: NUS
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/05/2010 11:36:00 AM
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Wish you were here!
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/05/2010 03:08:00 AM
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The only people I won't feel resentful hanging out behind with for 4 hours despite having Peter Brook's King Lear hovering above me. :)
Labels: love you
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/05/2010 02:15:00 AM
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Sunday, October 3
我不愿去相信我们之间隔着海洋的距离
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/03/2010 12:28:00 PM
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Saturday, October 2
不经一番寒傲骨，怎得梅花扑鼻香?Not entirely related to this post, but a nice idiom (or whatever the chinese equivalent for it is. 俗语 maybe?) that I got off this HK drama I've been watching for the past 6 hours.
So we lost SUNIG yesterday its okay but not really okay. We played awesome as a team but I personally played unacceptably (no one want to hear self indulgent I-wish-I-was-better comments.) But I definately would say no regrets, we're just gonna keep uping our game.
I finally got my hands (throbbing finger and all) on all the pictures Gerry took of the team so far and here are some of my personal likes. I'm not even in Singapore when most of them are taken but I'm happy seeing all these loves. Its been quite a journey and an even more awesome future to look forward to. (:
The bitchy club at our first 10 tourney.
Picture with Siewmai just because shes one of the people I sincerely like not because I really know her or we're close or what. But its the simple really like feeling (:
With chiewy bear at some display game I think. The horrifying same jersey game.
Happy toffie
Love the happy simplicity of this.
By the wayyyyy.... in case anyone forgot what XY looks like with longer hair.
I recognize a whining picture when I see one.
Being greedy with the balls.
Happy animated coach.
Just by looking at this picture I think I can smile for awhile (in a non creepy sense hahah)
-_-
Tomorrow we will squat at SA and pms together (:
And this is the team with the coach that wears her $5 spiderman jersey with pride and the captain who is twenty as of 9 minutes ago!
Happy birthday cuddlesnugglesnigger buddy Captain Cas! (:
Labels: rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/02/2010 09:03:00 PM
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Friday, October 1
Kind of busy tonight with work and the battle against discomfort (losing miserably)so I'll leave you with two thousand words very apropos words. Actually I could have just used apt but since I'm preparing for my presentation tomorrow, better ready my closet of act chim vocab.
Labels: random
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/01/2010 02:29:00 AM
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This picture was taken kind of randomly but it really means quite a lot to me. Everything that happened on that day did. But this best exemplifies "the best thing about a picture is that it never changes, even when the people in it do."(Andy Warhol) Oh well, glad I met her anyway.
Love the happy simplicity of this.
By the wayyyyy.... in case anyone forgot what XY looks like with longer hair.
I recognize a whining picture when I see one.
Being greedy with the balls.
Happy animated coach.
Just by looking at this picture I think I can smile for awhile (in a non creepy sense hahah)
-_-
Tomorrow we will squat at SA and pms together (:
