Tuesday, August 16
This is the longest team I've stuck around with to date.
Labels: love you, rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 8/16/2011 02:44:00 AM
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Wednesday, May 25
I used to apologize for telling lies, I now apologize for telling the truth.
Training was uncharacteristically fun, and I finally found it me to tell wing how I'm contemplating this to be my last season and it feels so... final, like its really happening. I don't think people realize that filling up a gap in the national team in full knowledge that I am unable to perform my role adequetly isn't really a comforting thought. We could talk about it, but I guess this season is what counts. Also, I also don't think people realize that saying I'm fast makes me feel stupid cause thats something I will never feel I am. (I AM NOT, even saying this here makes me feel paisae).
Kaihui and Aileen give me hope, have a safe trip loves (:
Labels: rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/25/2011 11:18:00 PM
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Sunday, May 8
This was my team in 2009. 3 years later, I am still wearing the exact same boots model.
Labels: rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/08/2011 04:47:00 PM
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Sunday, March 13
So the season has come to a close not in the exact way we would have wanted it. I think the biggest regret wasnt losing to anyone but weiyi's knee. Juan's "people who want to play also cannot" was too potent. Anyhows,I'm glad I got got over my reluctance for contact before the last training and there really wasn't any other way I would or could have played the last game. And I guess the plans to pick up a new sport has to be shelved in light of the fact this this cannot be my last memory of 15s. I mean not like anyone really believed me, but trust Kaihui on this and what a hard time this gave her. But I'm sure 2 (studying filled) weeks away from Blacks will make me want it back.
Labels: rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 3/13/2011 12:47:00 PM
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Sunday, February 13
Today is the second time I cried over sports, the first being my yr 2 ihg soccer because my favourite team lost quite sadly and also because, well, mostly because, everyone was crying and it was quite heartbreaking since they were all my favourite girls. And today, because I don't have enough words of my own, "…I felt dreadfully inadequate. The trouble was, I had been inadequate all along, I simply had not thought about it." (The Bell Jar, Sylvia Plath).
Well, its definitely not "dreadfully" and its definitely nothing insurmountable, and its definitely more mental than anything else. So maybe I will forget about my moment of weakness in about 3 years.
And the word of the month is by far, pain. I don't remember the bruises of last season to be 一摸就很痛 kindda pain.
Labels: rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 2/13/2011 11:27:00 PM
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Tuesday, February 8
Labels: rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 2/08/2011 03:22:00 AM
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Thursday, January 27
I'm excited about Hongkong mainly because its going to be awesome (:
I hereby promise never to act all travel smart and buy as little luggage space as possible because I am an overpacker but so what (I carry also not you carry) and I should stop apologizing for it (except to my parents haha). That and guess who has everything you need (and more) when you most need it? (:
Labels: (:, rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 1/27/2011 02:24:00 AM
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Sunday, January 16
Sonic bloom.
5 days to
DP and the end of someone telling me to "run more gracefully" with my hands stuck to my sides and my fingers poised painfully in an 'effortlessly' elegant manner. I think the only reason why I'm not sacked is because I can't be at this point (or so I think).
The past week was stuffed full with so much high and lows it seems so extended I feel like it been month since I've touched a real rugby ball. And 5 more days to one times good sigh of relief and 1 week to a semblance of a proper life again.
That said, I love the handball girls so very much and that, no matter how politically incorrect it might be, is the biggest impetus for my enjoyment of the sport.
Labels: dance, Eusoff, handball, rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 1/16/2011 11:22:00 PM
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Friday, December 31
All the energy is supposed to be worth it. But I can't quite put my sprained little finger as to why traces of melancholy emerges. When is too much of good things simply too much?
I was truly happy for most part of the day, except the two times I had to slap myself 3 times over to get out of bed. Oh and during the highly intense dance conversation (is that what being a nonsportswoman feel like at training? Maybe I shouldnt be too harsh then) that annoyed my battered jaw. But otherwise, I am a lot happier than I sound.
Oh and I had fun being complete sluts with the pack leader of the 155 club at 1 am and that completely made my day. (:
Labels: Eusoff, love you, random, rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/31/2010 02:17:00 AM
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Thursday, December 30
Despite getting a B+ for soci of emotions, I am still none the wiser about why emotions are such unstable states of being. Like one split second ago I was on a high from having an awesome time at Wing's with the contact girls and but its all so different now.
It could be the side effects of having a womb.
But I had such a good time it was probably one of the best ways to end the year of the cyst. ((:
Labels: random, rugby, stargazing
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/30/2010 01:05:00 AM
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Wednesday, December 29
And today, I'm officially (whatever that means) missing you.
I feel like when I'm nice to people, most of the time, the person is superficially nice back when actually he/she doesn't really care if I'm nice or not, some times the person takes it as a sign that I am a mild person and steps all over me, occasionally the person replies with so much enthusiasm I get overwhelmed and once in a while the person thinks I'm being creepy and/or overwhelming.
Am I just hard to please or is it no longer fashionable that niceness begets niceness in the purest form? Don't get me wrong, I am nice to people (mostly) because I want to be but recently I've been wondering if people don't actually welcome that sense of niceness then what is really the point? What happened to the days of being nice to people and finding a nice friend in return? Is it about the age and the people I meet or is there something fundamentally wrong in me per se? Is the days of meeting a Kaihui over (this is actually kind of creepy haha) ?
And there is no point in this musing because my boring 'nice' trait is something I can't help, something like my habit for opening doors for people.
On a much more positive note, the doctor (I refuse to say "my doctor" because I really want as little to do with NUH as possible) has given me the green light and after one day of friendly and back breaking Blacks, I am convinced I am fighting fit. I must say seeing the wound slowly close up (still a small little gap) really upped my low spirits bit by bit last week. (:
Today I also contemplated talking about you, for the very first time.
Labels: rugby, stargazing
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/29/2010 02:22:00 AM
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Monday, December 20
I love Yap Qiuhong (please say thank you so I can say valcome).
Aside from Crazy Christmas with her and a very happy phone call I also had a great day food hunting across more than 5 mrt stops.
But 15 min on the sidelines seem, well more like 45mins. And every time my wrist winces, this snowball of irritation within me grows.
Some people would but they couldn't and some could but they wouldn't.
Labels: ):, love you, rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/20/2010 12:44:00 AM
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Friday, December 17
I had fun at Scooby vs KR soccer friendly then sparring session against 'SRC' during training yesterday but I must say the wound that burst open staining great portion of my shirt is freaking annoying because firstly it hurts (more that I care to share already) and secondly I don't think I should be training very much now for awhile (I guess maybe NUH werent kidding when they said 1 mth for full recovery) and most importantly, now I cannot lie on my tummy and watch dramas on my mac.
Sorry, I tried but I guess theres no way I can whine about this in an effective manner that wont make me sound like a baby/ act poor thing/ ays.
Oh but got to play against and with Phin and she still is too funny one of my favourite people I don't know (:
Labels: (:, ):, rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/17/2010 12:56:00 AM
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Wednesday, December 15
原来心酸比心痛难受
Having a slight headache from dehydration/the never ending chemicals in my hair. I must say that perming my hair really helps to be able to tie my hair not too tightly and my bun stays in a bun and so its not purely for aesthetic purposes. On the downside, I look aunty MAXIMUM every time my hair gets wet. Oh well at least I'm interesting now.
The to-be-scar on my wound suddenly turned a scary shade of black, I'm kind of scared now actually. :/ Also when i press around the area there seems to be a solid bumpish thing and the doctor did say there is a chance that the cyst may come back and this time I really will cry.
Qiu and I tried to hide our blotting paper from the ktv guy as we were crossing the overhead bridge and the though of that will never stop making me crack up. ((:
Labels: everyday nonsense, love you, random, rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/15/2010 12:44:00 AM
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Wednesday, December 8
"I'm a stitch away from making it, and a scar away from falling apart." -Fall Out Boy
THE ITCHYNESS CAN KILL. Really shouldnt have geh kiang and put the brown tape now I am curling up in pure agony. (Okay there really wasnt a need for the pictorial grossness but these are my first stitches after all)
Labels: rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/08/2010 02:28:00 AM
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Friday, December 3
You could be my plus one
(I think plus one is such a cute term)
Really had a simple but great day today and I'm craving for more of that samsui chicken thinggy.
Cyst op tomorrow after 6 months and 7 doctor visits (I kid you not) and taking into account that its my first real surgery and everything I guess I'm being kind of brave. But I'm actually more afraid I don't have the discipline to stay out of any physical activity for two weeks.
And I was packing my cupboard just yesterday and am actually surprised to find so many jerseys as if I'm some really multi-talented athlete. I still wonder sometimes how I try to play sports when I am really not gifted in this department.
You really should not have said that and I really could have done with a more honest reply.
I need to get down to make my bedroom look as comfy as this (: Not that I need more reason to stay in bed, but this would totally put me in a snazzy mood all day.
Labels: everyday nonsense, home, rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/03/2010 05:25:00 AM
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Sunday, November 14
So play and pretend to keep me here.Had so much fun today. Its supposed to be non-competitive beach fun. I mean supposed but obviously some people still remain more competitive than others. It would have been nice if we won but it was still fun. And the bitching session after was possibly even more entertaining and I wonder if people actually think I'm just overwhelmingly overthetop. But whatever, I shall attempt to be the saint for the rest of the month to make up for tonight. And the point of this is that I'm really looking forward to 15s season (:
This entry is so simple and supificially happy, just the way I'm feeling now (:
Labels: rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 11/14/2010 02:06:00 AM
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Friday, November 5
Now I'm done believing you.
Been on an overdrive but now that I'm on track with Glee maybe I should start my healthy lifestyle once more. Especially with the exams looming. Maybe that should be a cause for concern but if you know me, I measure my time with what comes after, so 3 more weeks to sleep in all day days. (:
Need to stop burning weekends as if I'm even on track with my week 1 readings.
NUS rugby training was oddly weird I can't put my finger to it, but this break is much needed.
Labels: NUS, rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 11/05/2010 03:45:00 AM
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Friday, October 29
I can feel the rings.
I'm FINALLY (its been a 5 mths worth of pus) going to NUH tmr to get my cyst out and I'm actually abit scared cause I dont think I've ever had stitches or surgery or anything of that sort before. Oh I'm just being a baby but it seems like it would be appropriate to ask one of my friends to go with me (as my mother suggested but really its only supposed to be a 1/2 hr deal) except that I don't know if I really need that and its too much trouble anyway. I promise to treat myself to the free new and exclusive Mr Bean icy milo soya to reward myself for my bravery tomorrow.
"What is she doing here?" is really quite a bitchy thing to say (unless its like your house or room) but it just bugs me to have such a negative presence hanging around with ulterior motives I can't quite figure out.
Labels: rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/29/2010 01:30:00 AM
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Monday, October 18
The previous post is just kind of bratty and embarrassing but whatever, I was really ticked off yesterday.
Almost as pissed off then as I am tired now. And its really barely 12.40 I have half a mind to take a nap since I did manage to wring an extension for my feminist essay (supposedly due tomorrow). Its gonna be a grueling week and I have no one to blame and whine to but myself.
So this is my team at the Singapore Rugby 7 Series that just concluded today and there were high and low moments but I thought some people really leveled up and so my 2 precious weekends and multiple scratches were kind of worth it. I think we worked hard to get there. The thing about sports is the people who shine are naturally more valued, but I think it is important to recognize that there are people who helped them get where they are and are also playing their best- which is really everything they should be doing and I think everyone who did that should be proud of themselves and should have teammates who are proud of them.
One of the thing that struck me most (although I am hardly in the right frame of mind to reflect) is about how much we've got to want it and how it is a game of passion. In Tabi's words, if your heart cannot take it go and play something easier. Like the violin (I am still amused by it) haha. But yes, the warming up was more mental than anything and its really not how good we are that impresses me and makes the game enjoyable. Its how we show that we want it (no I dont consider "Are you ready to play?" -awkward silence then "(meekly) yes?" wanting it) and we're out there fighting for it.
And this is what I'm reading now. Usually I would completely be interested (and its actually an interesting read) but I am so tired I am actually kind of convinced maybe its a good idea to take a nap.
Labels: everyday nonsense, NUS, rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/18/2010 12:40:00 AM
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This was my team in 2009. 3 years later, I am still wearing the exact same boots model. 
