Tuesday, November 29

You see, I've always been a fighter
But without you, I give up.


ODAC played 189 games today. I think I lost just about everyone of them. (: Bloomp Bloomp We arent supposed to fear failing (our new motto or something), but you cant deny you do. You always will. You try and try and try again. But everytime, you're afraid to fall. I dont think thats important. It only becomes crucial when you fear and fail to try again.


Holding on to strips of straw, struggling to stay afloat. And I realize I've every one of the symtoms of depression. Frightening thought, but nah. (: AJs horribily, creepily quite and alone in the hols, its just terrible, I cannot emphasize enough on how I want out.


The dedication I cant find in me anymore. Roles and posts dont matter anymore. I'm responsible and I dont need acknowledgement. But its sad, when you're placed in a position of power and couldnt even give half your bestest effort into it. Being a counciller doesnt mean a thing in AJ, neither does being a sports person. Facades and images, thats about the second saddest things in life.


I found the dried rose dar gave me on behalf of some class guys on Valentines Day. It brought back memories fresh and stinging. :D I cant wait for our Christmas party, can you?


Friends and family, I wonder why they love me. (: I'm not complaining though.


Pam and Por, one day I'll find a way to capture them, the world will be a chaos. :D


I wont waste myself, or let you watch me fall apart. I'm convinced of my worth after running 5 k today. hahaha But I cant do 10 k, anyone wants to hide behind the bushes and do a tag team with me please? ((:


I miss the late night soccer sessions where it gets so dark you can see the ball. Where you get so dirty and hyped and excited and replay again and again. I wish I scored that one last goal.


I want to catch the first sunrise of 2006. Any one game? (:


no, no, not anymore. :)
I give up.


I'm alright.
I'm just a memory of everything i'll ever be.
I'm gonna make it now.
I'm alright.
I'm gonna make it, even if i gotta fake it.
Im alright.
I'm gonna make it, even if i gotta break it.


Don't wanna let you down.
I'm in a new town.
Surrounded by let downs.
Don't wanna let you down.

Monday, November 28

I wont ask to be your memory.


I'm placed in a memory far far away. This is the last, I swear you'll never hear anymore. I cant tell you what I feel, but what does it matter anyway? I love you, Cleavon.


I'm sorry I couldnt wish you goodnight. I couldnt find the right words.


I'll pack and seal and send it far far away.


I couldnt find the tears to cry anymore, so I didnt. (:


Don't ask if I'm okay, the answer is yes. It always is.


Only Jamie will hear me whine from today onwards. No one else. (: You can all have your happy Van back.


A mail came in today congratulating me for my good academic performance, it made me laugh for 2.3 sec.


It was a happy day, for awhile. But there cant always be a star atop the Christmas tree.


You're wrong mark, completely wrong.

Sunday, November 27

Oh no! ):
The right words affects me in so many ways I detest.
My first wobbly steps


ni feng de fang xiang, geng shi he fei xiang.
wo bu pa qian wan ren zhu dang,
zhi pa zi ji tou xiang
(i.e It is more suitable to fly against the wind, I'm not afraid of resistance from thousands, just afraid if I should surrender)


Haha, laugh at me first, then read it again. Its meaningful aye. How many will actually brave the path, and how many will give up?


Instructorship at NCO, love-hate relationship. (: Drake, just for your info, is a male duck, not a dragon or "opiam" (quoted Edmund). Hhahaha.


I heard two songs on repeat for 8 hrs stright yesterday. I love repeats. ((:


Walk the talk wont you? Then again, sometimes even I have trouble with this.


Haha, I thought wrong. Maybe its not too late. (:


But you see, I've learnt that I tend to believe in things that I want to. I dont know, and dont want to change this. But I have to. I'm afraid.

Saturday, November 26

I'm really tired, thats rare. :)


Before you cross the road, will you take my hand please?


I look around out of habit, searching for any sign of you, and all I see are momories, fresh and striking. This sucks, I'm losing grip. :(


To hope or not?

Friday, November 25

You raised me up, to walk on stormy seas



I'm the publicity 2nd I/c or something for the UN seminar, I don't doubt me, I mean, who wouldn't wanna come to an action packed, blow-me-over, super fabulous seminar all about the United Nations? Theres no better way to spend a Saturday. (:


You're my spark. ((: I don't really need to be yours.


Cause I draw strength and love from the weirdest things.


The sunset that lasted for aft 5.3 sec and the rounding of the track with my buddy by my side whom I dearly miss made my day.


I'm willful and not nearly brave enough. I confess, I dont know where to go from here. But I've made a resolution and I intend to stick to it like popular price tags on their pens. :)


I miss wetting litmus papers! And watching Sulphur Dioxide turn it red ( or was it blue?).


I'm one-in-a-billion, once-in-a-lifetime and priceless, thanks for reminding me Alan. We'll save the day with chicken little soon, my we'll-meet-up-on-wednesdays-for-lunch partner. (:


545 are impossible timings to wake up at, I'm sure you'll all agree.
Kill me while I still believe that you were meant for me.


I havent MSNed like tonight for many many nights. Impersonal as a technology may be, at the very least it connects you to others. (:


I'd bring por on my magic carpet to, but I was kindda picturing a small magic carpet, and we dont wanna fall off do we? :D


Haha, I'm glad I'm me sometimes. I'll never figure out how some people are made to be, but I'm on my way to figuring out who I am sometimes.


I read Alicia's blog, welcome home baybeh. You'll find yourself in you if you serch hard enough, it doesnt matter where you are. (:


Clear skin makes me feel odd now. haha, ironies galore. I'm starting to appreciate them.

Thursday, November 24

I left another message, you are never around.
But everytime I look for you - the sun goes down.


A child's voice, however honest and true, is useless to those that forgot how to listen. Sad aint it? I love kids, I love the way they don't know this world and thus the innocence ( i love this word, innocence) they possess. Say its ignorance if you wish. But I'd much rather someone who doesnt plot, scheme or lie to maintain a facade.


Returned home from our very exciting and happening and odd 3505 chalet. For full details, refer to friedbeehoon.diary-x. (I'm assuming Gary will blog about in and think its fun. :D). Thanks hell loads to Gary Berry for the chalet, the food, the BBQ pits, the bikes, the absolute current, the PS2, the marjong and all the other nick-naks. Hes top, this hairy Gary juicy berry of ours! I'm officially the marjong/bridge/Nigeria trasher. :D


Booze was a terrible idea, I am laying off it for a good 78092 days at least. But after turning into someone I hate, I guess no one will let me near it anyway. Thanks to er, those who didn't roll me up in a table cloth and hide me in the bushes when I was looking my absolute worst. And Daryl and Jem and all the rest I cant really remember.


I thought it would be easy. I forgot to include in my calculations how you would feel and react. Maybe I shouldnt expect you to fall in line with my plans. The forced connection and the way I feel, you'll never know. What wouldnt I give to return to square one.


Happy belated to two very special someones.






Koped this from Pam! Its off the new Sugarcult's memory video which is absolutely brilliant and heart wrenching (also koped from Pam). :)) Watch it, all of you really should. I'll have it on reply at least 82 times. Shes the most amazing bestie to ever, ever have, I hereby proclaim. But eat slugs all of you, cause shes mine! I'll be happy for her even if I'm stuck in not-so-happy-dom cause I love her so and I cant think of anyone who deserves as much as her. :D


So do you leave memories (both physical and not) around to shoot yourself in the foot when you're least aware, or do you throw them out and leave them behind? For weirdee reasons, I always pick the first option. I'm never brave enough I guess. But they say, memories are designed to fade. We'll find out if its true in time. (:


Dodge, lie and evade. Don't you think someday it'll just come back to you all over again?


Relationships with others are taking an increasingly superficial turn and it scares me to know that maybe one day I'll become just like them. Friends or acquaintance, where do you draw the line? Your friend isn't simply the person you can share a laugh and ice cream and a drink with. At least my friends aren't. Raine will understand, that nice dear who is honestly one of the people I promise to remember. You see, that why I was touched, just when we thought we were insignificant and unimportant, someone timely showed us otherwise. :) Silly really, but true.


People tell me that I feel too much


I should be taking fruit juices and drinking water and sleeping and swollowing energy drinks (this I dont know why either, but jem says so). All I feel like doing now is jumping onto magic carpets and leaving the whole behind. But I'll bring along my pillow and bolster. :D


I promised myself I wont think of you today. The picture frames have changed and so has your name. But I'll fly you to the moon anyday - If only you'll agree.


I thank God for the many things that He has given me, and the many more things He will give me. I will make Him proud, He has given me so much more than what He has not - awsome people who care and people who love me and my ablity to believe and love. I could ask for more, but that would be redundant, I have all that I need, air in my lungs and a heart so beautiful. :))


I'm finding my own words, my own little stage
My own epic drama, my own scripted page
I'll send you the rough draft, I'll seal it with tears
Maybe you'll read it and I'll reappear
From the start it was shaky and the characters rash
A nice setting for heartache, where emotions come last
All I have deep inside, to overcome this desire
Are friendly intentions and fairweather smiles


I forgot how much I like yellowcard, but my ITunes reminded me. (:

Monday, November 21

Dear (your name here),
It's been a long time, a very long time, Since I've heard your voice and I bet you never thought I was so sorry, so. I've had a hard time, very hard time, seeing less of you- I never thought you knew.


So cant you see? You're seeing less of me darling and you're blind to the fact that my heart stopped beating. And I'm as good as dead, and I'm as good as dead.


Dear (I forgot your name again), Just picking up where I left off. This is the part where you leave me, So sorry so. I've had a hard time, very hard time seeing less of you. I never thought you knew.


This is all I have to say, to say


Sincerly,
me

New found Glory


Pam wrote this song on my Higher Chinese textbook 1 year ago, and it all suddenly seems so far away. Shes my hero, this baybeh of mine, I wish I was 10% like her. :)


I should have happy things to cheer and blog about. I have them somewhere, but somehow they dont seem important now.
I'm missing the way you look through your eyes


I tried to pack up my room to night. All I did was to make it messier (if its possible) and discover 5 years worth of dirt and grime. I've a huge (i mean really huge kindda huge) box of coloured markers/felt pens/pens/permanent markers/ikea markers/100 markers - thin, mid, fat/ etc etc. If you saw it, you'll scream in terror. And I've an entire bottleful of bangles of every colour. and er, thats all I managed to discover today. :)


I made a valient attempt at poking through my 3 drawers of what my mother terms as rubbish. I couldnt throw anything away. Not that childhood jack-in-the-box thing which spoilt 16 years ago, nor the stack of all the campbooklets I've ever received. Somehow, I just cant throw away things that mean something to me, no matter how silly it is. Just like how I'll never ever forget my Pri 1 best friend Jin Lee Si Jie (I can even remember her full name!) even though I've never seen her since she transfered out of school in Pri 4. I cant just throw away Chocolate factory dreams and regretful photographs like that. :(


I'll never stay up beyond 2 alone again, not after watching Excorism of Emily Rose.

Sunday, November 20

dis·ap·point ( P ) Pronunciation Key (ds-point)v. dis·ap·point·ed, dis·ap·point·ing, dis·ap·points v. tr.
1) To fail to satisfy the hope, desire, or expectation of.
2) To frustrate or thwart:


you shi hou, you shi hou
wo hui xuan zhe liu lian bu fang shou
Hey, I kindda like chinese oldies as well! (:


And thanks Harry for coming late and teaching dota and winning dota and playing warchasers and blogging on my behalf. (: In the eyes of a good teacher, theres no such thing as a bad student yah? hahaha. (:

Trust your heart,
Hear the voice that whispers quietly through it all


I love CDs, sometimes I wish MP3 players didnt exist so we'll all have no choice but to carry CDs around. (: So I got another oldies compliation ablum, I really couldnt resist. (:


Working with the other side feels odd. Charles says we gotta grow up, well, we're not exactly making a fuss, its just we'll so much rather be working with familiar, amiable people. My ANCO group is called Drake and our group colour is dark purple! ((: But this time I'm fully in charge and yucks, I cant lead a group for anything. :/ we'll take it as it comes, I doubt I'll survive St Johns without Qiu you know? (: Hear this baybeh!


Its something so simple, so simple. Yet, it appears only in my dreams.


Cinderella's mice and bird friends are too cute to be true. We can do it, we can do it, we can help our Cinder-rare-lie! ((: I wish I was one of them.


caught in the middle.


I'll touch every star in the sky.


Che! Why on earth do you need my commentry on Harry when you already have one long one of your own? (: haha. WHEN EXACTLY ARE YOU COMING BACK! Prata Shop is screaming our names!


Just leave it to me,
What a gown this would be!
U all suck. Stop reading this blog. -.-" Newbies...

-Harry

Friday, November 18

Everythings bigger and brighter and bluer and truer to life than before


Its squad harry potter day today! Can you ask for anything more delightful? Which means, mass missing of CHERIE! You hear that dear, come home soon!

Thursday, November 17

Santa, thats my only wish this year :)


I just realized something I've been wanting to say. If you got a C, it means you barely know 60% of the work you've been taught. Should you be proud then getting an E? which means you know less than half of what you're supposed to? Oh yikes, to think I was okay with that 2 Cs and that E. Assuming you need 4 Ds to get 16 points and then want to go on to take for subs. Issnt it dumb to hold on to 4 subjects you only know about half of? Should you complain then at the unfairness of the school not letting you hold on to 4 subs as you clearly are unable to do them. I can do with with time you say. Then what have you been doing with the time you have already been given to prove yourself since the midyears? Blame the school for killing your future, robbing your S paper or wanting to get itself into the top 5, cause ultimately, we are the ones who fail to meet the criteria we've known right from the start.
Driven from within


Cecs, Eileen and me spent an entire fruitless day hunting for a simple black wallet with nonstick plastic (you know, the kind of plastic that your neoprints will stick to?). They're exactly the same as when we last left of - the beauty of such is extra precious to me.


I'm living in memories, wading too much in the past to be wise. I'll give an arm and a leg for orange bowl daily in that white pe shirt and Mrs Seah's happy meter ; for everything to be simple and nothing to matter. I realized I've been losing my temper rather frequently this year, at this teacher and these classmates. I wonder its because of the people I'm meeting or me. I've also come to understand what they mean when they say as you grow older, its harder to find true friends. By that, I dont just mean people you can hang out with for fun. I mean those you can call up at 4am. I'm crying alot more too - I agree fully with what harry says about being stronger when you're younger. Maybe now I feel more. hurhh.


Its okay, it always is.


I hate the chicken little's my-ee-ya-hi song to the extreme. Refrain from singing it infront of me and maybe I wont think you're the biggest idiot I've seen.


I'll hear your voice of treason no more.


Let me let go.


I stop to think at a wishing well
My thoughts send me on a Carousel
They say time heals everything. I disagree. I think it just fades everything, thats why nothing hurts anymore. Everytime is covered with time, dirt and grime so you can feel it anymore. But it can never bring you back completely if the scar is deep. It just fades it and ebbs the pain, but a souvenir scar will always remain. But for now, we're lusting after the peace and tranquility and the blood to stop seeping.

Wednesday, November 16

They would make your name sing and bend through alleys and bounce off buildings


Pam, Por, Qiu, Ci and Harry came over today and we held our annual Harry Potter marathon! Ci and Harry came to dota :/ and I learnt the ropes, well, kinda. I wish I lived in Hogwarts where my trunk will pack by themselves and I'd have golden snitches to chase after all day long ; where snow falls from the enchanted shy and honeydukes my second home. (: Pam left me death cab for cutie's Plans and even though I'm only on the third track, its blowing me away already. :D


Photo updates!








BBQ at Myra's house that night, it was a heartwrenching-bittersweet affair.











We bade farewell to Project Work, and this group will leave its mark in my life somehow.










Qiu and me on our Expo adventure, where the only song we could think of singing to was the We're going to the zoo zoo zoo, how about you you you? :)


So anyway, Pam and me decided we need a Disney movies swapping event where we'll trade our Disney shows and watch Bambi. :) And she brought up that we're luncky to be living in the princess diney era with carebears (Rainbow carebear!) and ninja turtles and Cinderellas to look back on. Can you imagine if all we had were the incredibles?


A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep


Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling through
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true
- Cinderella

Its beautiful, and I'll keep believing in fairytales. (:


When I came home, there was this cat prancing about my lift lobby. She was eyeing and folling me, guarding the enterence, so I had no choice but to mobilize the security guards to remove her. He thought I was an idiot, at least he was polite enough to act as though it was the most common thing ever.

All my strength were strangled lies


Qiu and me and cheekai and the zone one people went for the St John 70th anniversary at the neptune yesterday. And we both agree that Cheekai needs image consultation badly. He strolled bengly across Raffles Place in his freaking full U and we tried our utter best to not recoil in embarassment. He ate like in a coffee shop and drowned 6 bowls of sharks fin, I dont know how more gian png you can be. :)









Zone One, SJAB. :D Its about the only reason why I put on that skin tight uniform.







Me and my qiu qiu! Finally Offiers you know! (:



The hallway I saw somewhere before.


My subconsious mind is working way overtime. My nights have been plagued with the same recurrent and disgustingly, obsessively, sweet nonsense. It pains now to wake up, and I fear falling asleep. I'm not supposed to be this way. :(


Its odd, when I have company, I crave being along, but when I'm alone I so want company. haha, you tell me why eh.


Killing me softly, with his song

Tuesday, November 15

Mimbulus mimbletonia


I hate headaches, I'll rather have a fever, cough, cold, sore throat, etc etc.
You know I'd fight for you


Sometimes I wonder if I prefer adventure to routine. I love re-runs and walking down the same path. :) I love being in PJs and talking to the same people. I love hanging out with people I always hang out with. I love cotton candy and books I've read 89721 times. I love the rain and its smell, and the clouds and the spangled stars. I love long long lists and details, but I'll leave it here today. (:


Lie and deceit. Illusions and make-believe.


We'll probably never stop arguing on your beng-ness and never agree with that long hair of yours and who Aaron likes more. Haha, but thats what makes it fun, with your roaming eyes and all. Thanks for being such a dear Alex, yes yes, we'll do this sometime soon.

Monday, November 14

The cried out tears and a never ending maze


Nothing come close to being as retarded or as a wastage of money as the CDP of AJ. Not even the packet of hello kitty stickers I got for $1. I dont feel the least developed. I dont care the reason or if I'm spoilt, but it just indicates a failure on their part. So there.


Por and Me cycled the whole lenght of ecp and and reduced our butt size (at least its a nice though) and had fun and work out with the wind in our tees. :D I love you baybeh!
so tell me, how do I start?


8 ODACians stayed over at my puny house, making it even punier. We stayed up all night for bomberman and monopoly and whatsnots and we're marching off for prata at 5 am cursing CDP. :))

Saturday, November 12

I cant find a single star to hang my wish upon


It was so beautiful, so real, and the worst dream in my entire 17 years of exsistance. I would much rather not experience something that I want so much to go through than to be so happy only to find out it is a fluke.


And if I keep my chin up
I still see clouds that look like you
So looking down is what I do


If you see the world as you did 1 month ago, you have just wasted 1 month. So true.


Lets sing to the forgotten song.

Friday, November 11

Sugarcult's memory and Jay Chou's Ge Qian.

I like. (:

Wednesday, November 9

Isn’t there a white knight upon a fiery steed?


I liked Sky High! I liked that Glow guy and Fire man (Steven Straits) and that plant growing girl! haha, Please harry, I think what you though of the show wasnt deep at all, isnt it obvious? haha, ok lah, deeper than me anyway. I like Glow, being useless or a sidekick isnt a problem.


Cotton Candies will be served endlessly at my wedding!


Tomorrow will be the last of my PW days. I can hear the cheers already, and I think we're climbing Bukit Timah Hill after that! (Somehow, I think something will just happen to prevent this.) :D


And yes, me and Qiu set off to an expedition to the Expo, it wasnt so much of where we go, but we we were with. (: So we missed the Metro great sale by a day and couldnt find a sovenier to buy and walked about 7 expo halls. But so what? :D I love her so, did you know?


Odd people from India, Hungary, etc etc, please stop asking if you can add me to your address book cause you cant.


Mario is a plumber, I just found out!


Camped at Pams house, and we're off for prata ! (:

Sunday, November 6

maybe I was holding on too tight


I cant conjure anything intelligent to say today, but then again, you'll probably retort that its obvious, seeing that I'm not intelligent in anyway. But hey, I am okay.


I went to my Grannys today. I think families are amazing. Think of it - (all based on assumptions of course) they know the worst about you, you dont spend most of your time with them, yet, they love you, clothe you and are always there for you. Haha, tearing yet? Yup, but its just terrible how I cant seem to tell them everything. I guess a part of me dont want them to worry about all my teenage angst, and the other would rather save the nagging. :/ I am a terrible daughter, I am.


Me, Mark and Harry watched Ms Congeniality and 40 days and 40 nights today. (In case you're wondering what congeniality means (I didnt know until today. :/) , click on the word congenality. ) I have decided that Josh H. (I put H cause I cant spell) is hot. We love the geeky, honest look! And we love hello kitty flying chess as with leaving bits of food behind so as not to be accused as finishing everything up. (:


I went out the whole day with Cheekai and later to Alans place for soccer yesterday. And I didnt spend a cent. If I keep this up, I'm gonna be rich. Haha, I've got everything I could ever want (except the new cannon Ixus , but I figure I wont be afford that anyway, so I dont plan on saving up for that) and so I really could save the money if I wanted too, especially now with my new eating scheme (haha, yes, I know you're heard that about 218971281 th time.)


I dont know the holiday homework due, so update me if you'll please. But knowing my class, no one knows either.


On the subject of class, its not that I dont like 35, but they're well, different. We're clique-ish, most of us have another permanent companion. Most of us have strikingly distrint groups to belong to. The class spirit thing is no longer present. I wont even consider us classmates. We're more like a group of people who attend the same lessons. I dont know, its not a personal thing, its just as a whole. Then again, it may be just me, just me and my not-belonging.


I really wanna watch Saw, all of you who haven watched it already, please go and get your eyes on it in preparation of Saw II which opens on 1st dec, cause Saw is really good! Its so good it should be made a compulsary show (just like the little mermaid and beauty and the beast and the princess diaries).


And you'll take the smiles, from all of our years, and I'll take the tears. :)


A whole truck of ODAC photos (taken at my place and BBQ at myras). Get it from me. (: Hellos failing me for the first time in forever!
maybe I was holding on too tight


I cant conjure anything intelligent to say, but then again, you'll probably retort that its obvious, seeing that I'm not intelligent in anyway. But hey, I am okay.


And you'll take the smiles, from all of our years, I'll take the tears.


A whole truck of ODAC photos (taken at my place and BBQ at myras). Get it from me. (: Hellos failing me for the first time in forever!

Saturday, November 5

Strength is for the asking. :)





You were so right about me baybeh. (:


I'm going out with my beng-est friend Tang Cheekai later. It must be worth a laugh. :D


It was a big mistake to let me memorize your face



Theres ALWAYS Por to count on. :D


Goodbye Chocolate Cherry Bunny.

Friday, November 4

Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket
Never let it fade away
Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket
Save it for a rainy day


I have the bestest girlfriends (yes, and boy pals too) on earth. I have the most supportive family members (my mum anyway, my sisters just busy playing -urgh- Maple Story which clogs up the internet). I am fortunate enough.


Good friends make all the difference in the world. Like Por and Qiu. I'm serious feeling like a million bucks cause of the both of you. :) Thanks Por, I'm touched, the papers on my cupboard will keep me going. Watching the Princess Daries made me believe again, that someday, somehow, Michael Moscovitz will be there, puting in all the money from my stolen piggy bank. (:


And Harry, I'm so glad I went for prata with you. I know I can always count on you to slam truths that I never want to accept in my face. I think you helped alot to put me back on my feet. (: Honestly, you're a great friend sometimes. (:


Okay, I'm proud of me. I made a promise, doubted if I could fulfil it, but managed too all the same. "Its what we've been through that defines who we are", said Mark (Something along these lines anyway) . Yup. I've been sheltered so comfortably for 17 years, I guess it was only fair to experience something abit out of the normal. But, now I am a stronger little girl. (:


Yes, so PW is going to be over on the 8th. Can you wait? NO YOU CANT! :D


I'm excited, the days are packed chocked and bustingly full. And I still havent gotten any form of holiday homework? haha, oh well, anyone game to help me rearrange my baby photos, they're the cutest I swear. The only reason why I didnt win the cutest baby on earth contest is because I didnt take part. :)


Hold On
B*Witched


You've always been a tough girl,
But you feel you're about to break.
You're feeling stuck,
And out of luck,
Watching your dreams all slip away.
Been working mornings in the kitchen,
And working nights at the corner store.
As your life flies by,
You wonder why,
And you know that there's gotta be something more.


Hold on,
But don't hold on too tight.
Let go,
It's gonna be all right.
Don't run away from what your heart is saying.
Be strong,
Face what you're afraid of.
Come on,
Show 'em what you're made of.


I know it's hard when your hope is gone,
But you gotta keep holding on.


You'll hear a voice that's calling,
And it's telling you to make a change.
It's time to fly,
And say goodbye,
And move on to a better place.
You know you gotta take the first step,
To get to where you wanna be.
Just get on track,
And don't look back,
'Cos it's the only way that you're gonna be free.


Hold on.
You're gonna make it,
You're gonna be stronger.
Hold on.
Hang in there, baby,
Just a little bit longer.
Hold on.
Yeah, and you're gonna be fine.
Don't give up,
Be strong.
When the going gets tough,
You gotta hold on.


Yup! I like this song! Laugh at me if you will. I'm not afraid of admitting! haha, and for the record, I like A1 and Backstreet Boys and Westlife too. Not a particular fan, but I just like them all the same. (But NO, definately NO 5566)


P/s. PPX Actually called me dear! She cares! (: hahaha

Thursday, November 3

COURAGE, my second favourite word.


I dont need symphathy or a shoulder to cry on. I want someone who would listen and not judge. (:


Thanks for coming over.


Mark is like this older brother that I always wanted but never had. I really like him. :)


So won't you kill me, so I die happy
My heart is yours, to fill or burst
To break or bury, or wear as jewelry
Whichever you prefer
Your words have run dry


ODAC will be my everything from now. (Not exactly, so dont worry my friends.) We had a productive boudering session yesterday in the longest while and Mr Lim ONLY gave a 2 hour lecture! (: And we're gonna catch up on all the things we've learnt before but forgot. Seriously, I still cant tie a bowline knot or climb a fake rock wall. Ah well. :) At least no ones realized that.


PW makes me feel like puking and dying. With the certain few pushing me up the wall, I'm dying to see the last of it on the 8th November. I curse the idiot(s) who thought this up.


Cannot be your memory.


you shi hou, you shi hou,

Tuesday, November 1

theres no healing without some kind of pain


Thank you, for loving me.


I hate these doubts and questions and desires in me. I'm going to shut them out. I need to find the strength in me. I know I can do it. So can you.


I'm really glad I'm dead tired. I'm just going to go to bed.

roses are red

阳光总在风雨后
请相信有彩虹

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