As if my iPhone isn't awesome enough, I have now downloaded the app to blog on the go! Cause I never know when the need to spill my guts out might arise.
The iPhone, or most phones today really (for the bb idiots who imagine that their phone can match up), is so distracting. It connects us to everyone expect the people in our faces.
When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone but it goes to waste
I don't mean to be a wallflower wanna be, but as I watch Brazil slowly, but surely kicking Chile out of the world cup, I cant help but wonder how many kids around the world now aspire to be professional football players, how many will actually work towards the fulfillment of this dream and how many will actually make it.
We hear and speak so much about holding on to things we believe in and not giving up when the road is the hardest, when the night is the darkest etc. But it takes just as much courage to let go of things you've become too used to as it does to cling on things/people.
I am building a fire, and everyday I train, I add more fuel. At just the right moment, I light the match. (Mia Hamm)
If only some people would recognize the need for preparation. But actually, I just hope that people will start showing some semblance of responsibility. Must I keep asking to get rejected or are you too damned sick to text. Oh and stop bailing out 5 mins before games - its not that you can't fall sick, but maybe you would like to let the team know instead of having them call you only to realize you're 'sick'. That is just fucking irresponsible. Sorry, extremely just doesnt cut it.
We're 1 mth away from our BKK tour and its almost ridiculous how people are still flitting in and out of training. What you really think we're there to go shop and massage is it?
Mamihlapinatapei : 6/29/2010 03:31:00 AM |
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Monday, June 28
There really isn't anyone whom I will say this to. Because always is a word that cannot be used at whim.
However, I would concur that you are quickly becoming my favourite. That hardly sounds adequate, but I'll have you know, at least I mean every last bit of it.
The perks of being a wallflower has been an interesting enough read that I decided not to sleep (even thought I am pretty worn out) and downloaded the ebook (even though I hate reading things on computers).
I'm not done with it, but I felt the sudden want to proclaim my hor fun craving :/
Mamihlapinatapei : 6/26/2010 03:47:00 AM |
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I love it that we have a coach who cares enough to MMS us a picture of when the fundraising shirts just arrived. I'm not exactly the best person to deal with money and this is hopefully the last fund raising/ marketing (Oh the horror expedition days!) I'll be in.
Friendly today was delightful, stressfree and held loads to learn.
Van is worn out and still has to be at Simei for handball tomorrow I hope it'll be a nice great match. (:
"I love how she makes me feel, like anything's possible, or like life is worth it."
- 500 days of Summer
Anyone wants to watch (and spend 500) days of Summer with me? (:
Haven been having that good a day (yesterday, today will be perfect!) but meeting Qiu for big walk registration and dinner after was a breath of fresh cookiebakingsmell air. We had a manicure session outside Mos burgers and resisted Koi not once but twice and shes everything I ever wanted in a friend and more! Por, we cannot wait for you to please get completely well so you can frown upon all our rubbish (like keeping counts of how many time the sushi rotates on the rotating thinggy)
I don't really like it when people reply me with "Whos going?" or "What are we doing" - as if having my company is not enough. No but more than just to fuel my egocentric nature, I think its rude if your first reply is "whos going" as though if theres no one worthy of your pressense then you won't come.
I feel like that sometimes, like I don't really want to go out at that moment- when I was younger I used to come up with crap excuses, now I speak more of the truth. But I try not to make the person who made the effort to invite me seem stupid.
This post wasnt supposed to come out all angsty- what I wanted to say was: I like not having plans and just hanging out with some special selected individuals. (:
Mamihlapinatapei : 6/19/2010 05:08:00 AM |
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If I were the wind, I would make you fly
I thought it would be appropriate to cry at that moment and I thought it would be the response you more than wanted, but somehow the anger/sadness/fustration gave way to pity, meloncoly and a dull pang of regret that I hope won't settle in for too long.
Rooney has my official stamp of disapproval. I hate seeing players throw their fustrations on field, especially if it negatively affects the team (eg not chasing after a shitty pass, if you even consider those passes). Its almost as bad as him belittling his opponents and I must say he needs to wake up his idea and get his head in the game (literally- I think he missed all his headers).
Tonight has been a night of many :(, so why did she have to catch me on a bad time and make me feel like she deserves everything shes been getting. Well I'll probably take this back tomorrow, but I don't thing what she did was fair and nice. Than again, we all shoot our mouths off and say things that are unfair and not nice sometime, maybe I should stop judging her the way I think she needs to stop being so judgemental and (pardon me) stupid.
Mamihlapinatapei : 6/19/2010 12:45:00 AM |
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Thursday, June 17
"Can you understand? Someone, somewhere, can you understand me a little, love me a little? For all my despair, for all my ideals, for all that - I love life. But it is hard, and I have so much - so very much to learn.”
— Sylvia Plath
I think I'm a pretty empathetic person, sometimes I think although I may not agree with what someone else is doing, I can somewhat understand why someone is doing that very act. Ben told me once that people do things for a reason- and this thought stuck with me, even though sometimes I act in a contradictory manner, I hope you know that at the heart of it all, I'm open to explainations, reasons, or your "just becauses".
And that is if I love you enough. Cause otherwise, I'll have you know that nothing you do can affect me.
Sylvia burst out in the Jigglypuff song today that still have me sniggering at the though of it. As with the one on one slap wrists/ touch face thing with Chiewy. Funny friends are such a blessing really, its like when you feel all shitty inside that these people put a smile right back on your face and a spring in the soles of your feet.
Cannot wait for rugby shirts to come and go (please let them all be sold)- I hate Tshirt printing because it involves such a wide variety of opinions, disapprovals and very pressured communication. Tshirt printing is evidence that you can't please the world.
Mamihlapinatapei : 6/17/2010 03:05:00 AM |
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Tuesday, June 15
I know plenty of people with eyes closed, they dont see you like I do- Darling I do. (:
That said, some people never fail to disappoint- thats why people 'learn' to expect less. But thats a sad thing no? Because when you expect less from others, you start doing less for them too.
NUS S&C went alright. It doesnt feel quite like a team yet (I won't lie, I miss it when it was all my friends and no one to give me weird stares) but I thought that it was pretty awesome we all pushed for completion at least (: Cant wait for ball touching trainings hahah
Mamihlapinatapei : 6/15/2010 12:14:00 AM |
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Monday, June 14
I know just how to fake it , And I know just how to scheme. I know just when to face the truth, And then I know just when to dream
Its never about what you do, what I dont understand or any tangible excuses anyone can come up with- I honestly dont care. What really broke the deal was not the lack of a quid pro quo relationship or the frequent spaces that emerged when we could not carry a conversation- it is simply that I dont feel that you are happier with me around.
Mamihlapinatapei : 6/14/2010 01:07:00 AM |
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Wednesday, June 9
离别的时候 别想太多 别想要企图挽留
I'm totally getting more cheena and I know it. Actually wait this might not actually be true- maybe I'm just getting more secure of my cheena being. (:
But whatever, some things just dont sound right in english (you try translating the above statement).
Anyways, I've finally finished 籃球火 and it is totally the worst show ever made. I would do a review because its SO bad someone needs to stop unsuspecting victims- but its 3.41 and I need to sleep so that I can win all my Wii games tomorrow at Baby e's (My first Wii experience!). Why why why do you look so good in it Jerry, and make me have to sit through all 25 episodes of IQ torture.
The one who's gonna love you when all of the others go home
Maybe I'm tired of more things then one.
Its like people laugh at me about the my 'ang moh bf' and I supply them even more things so that we can laugh at me together. But before this jocular nature, I wonder how many actually knew how I wasn't okay. Miles away from home and feeling like the worlds biggest fool; not to mention heartache and being treated like the world's biggest fool- would you be okay with that?
"Its okay I tell myself all the time, it doesnt matter". But its one thing for you to tell yourself that and another for people to write you off, or simply not care (I can't decide which is worst).
You're not the only one who hopes that Van just comes in the always-happy mode.
Mamihlapinatapei : 6/03/2010 12:33:00 AM |
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Tuesday, June 1
"When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then, you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there's no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?”
Carrie, Sex and the City
You know the exact words that make me feel like crying- not enough to make me cry, but enough to make me feel all vulnerable inside.
And when we go through things we grow- so less things hurt and hit you as hard. Its supposed to be that way.
But I had a throughly awesome day- good news from friends, good company and good sex and the city. (:
I love it that we have a coach who cares enough to MMS us a picture of when the fundraising shirts just arrived. I'm not exactly the best person to deal with money and this is hopefully the last fund raising/ marketing (Oh the horror expedition days!) I'll be in.
Even though I went alone, Seattle holds so much memories for me. 
The beauty of film cameras is it always holds the potential of being so beautiful (: