Pick it up and pass it on,
Thats whats gonna make us strong

So Man U lost, surprise surprise.

But thats the only small glitch in my good day of today. ((:

Changtai, you made me really happy today! :D And I love you too ! (sorry, dont happen to have a mike, make do with a blog declaration!)

Everyone's a super hero

Please dont stay to gloat, take and leave.

Although its highly unlikely since we're such insignificant beings and belong in the lit group of Jialing and Joyce and the 2 chairs, I still think its worth a mention that today was the first time me and Raine spoke in a Silas Marner class. Sorry Jialing and Joyce for our last minute chionging and stealing of points.

Hey, cheer up grumpy! Everyone needs a sunshine bear around sometimes. (:

Sports Day again tomorrow. Last year's didnt seem all far aways, now what happened to the 365 days?

Have you realized? The As are creeping up on us! (I bet this line is jinxed. I better say it before everyone else then.)

Some might say we will find a brighter day

Its unfair, I swear. But no longer do I care cause there's nothing more you can have from me. I feel that I'm being misrepresentation and misunderstood. I refuse to accept this punishment due to the injust of it all. It may just be just me cause I'm seeing things from my point of view. When you're not showing me yours, you cant exactly blame me.

I just thought you should know that you left me behind and never do accuse me of doing just that.

I dont need any words of sorry or pangs of symphathy. Its been worth it all these while but I'm not clinging on to something thats rejecting me. I've got my pride so although I dont know why, but I'll just not care for now. But I know they'll always be there. ((:

Ms Daljit makes me feel like spending 5 hours on GP a day. A pity todays test will probably ruffle some feathers.

This is getting mightly childish.

I read this blog entry about how we're all concerned about ourselves and thats about it. It got me thinking once more. (Sorry, I think alot and do abit. )

Keep away from me now I know how to kill myself
Live behind the iron wall that you've built around yourself

For the first part of today's entry, let me bring you to recent entries of my friend's, affectionately known as PPX. (Putting my AQ skills to good use you see)

We'll start with the latest, dated 23 April 2006, where she brings up the topic on bitching and how people, or rather, this person is a "ridiculous" "asshole". Let me begin by firstly stating that I do not know who she's refering to, and I'm not replying personally to her. And I will not be asking people about such posts because confrontations is simply not in my peace-loving nature. I believe that if anyone have a problem with me, they should come to me directly. It just occured to me that many of my classmates could feel this way about me, and how my constant 'whinnings' about my lousy class is uncalled for and downright annoying.

This got me thinking for awhile if such a hate-post would relate to me as well, for being full of complains and zero actions. Hello my dear classmates, if you're reading this, I would like to explain myself and not, unfortunately, apologize. I think I've done some things for the class before, and therefore, am allowed to proclaim "I give up" rather than not have to have done anything at all and just badmouth us. I think its fair that I say we suck as a class, (Note, I use the word we- its collective) cause I have never once claimed Y or W or Z or any individual to be a terrible person. We're just a 'class' with no dynamics, no spirit, and nothing to boot. So deal with it, its not as though I'm proclaiming how lousy YOU are as a person. In fact, I think most of you are nice people in your own rights - honestly. I'm also not whinning about the class. You dont see how I say I wish I was in another class or why is my class like that etc etc. I just make a simple comment about the way we are. No, I do not intend for anything to change. I just say stuff like this as a note with full acceptance. Maybe we just cant function together cause our birthdate clashes or something? You're welcomed to challenge this claim, but I'll be glad if you can actually refute this. Please let it be of a certain substance and not back up your arguement with "You just suck cause I say so". Otherwise, to save your trouble, just let me be aye? We're probably not that close if you think I'm just whinning for the sake of it, so it doesnt bother you anyway what.

Next, I refer to PPX's post on GP dated 20 April 2006 where she mentions "she obviously hates me, and i guess its because i pass up my work on time and sleep lesser than *named personX10* here." Again, I dont know if "named person" happens to be me, but this, for sure I fit the bill.

Again, it set me thinking (PPX for inspiration!). I think my sleeping disorder, if you'll call it that, is terrible. I wont even begin to deny it or say Daljit is ungrounded for telling that to my parents. I was thinking that IF i was the person PPX's was refering to, what difference does it make anyway? Does my sleeping more that her affect her in anyway? And I came to a conclusion that thats kind of a retarded comment to make. Then I realize that thats exactly what I've been doing. Do some work then compare with people who do less to make me feel better. :/ Hmm, maybe it's about time to admit that my life is in a mess.

To start saving it, I promise to finish Guru's essay by today.

Moving on, I think that good-looking guys who really love their not-so-good-looking girlfriends are really nice people. They bring hope to mankind. (:

And after 3 hrs of studying in Macs with Mark, I kind of feel like watching the Seseme street concert (kudos to the repeated advertisment) and learnt never to open toilet doors, or any other doors for that matter, by myself as there are people who actually not wash hands after using the washroom. Extra disgusting points are awared to the males.

I guess you took the worst of me.

Three cheers for Alan Shearer! He'll always be the hero of Newcastle for me. ((:

Limin, Rara and Mark stayed over for marjong the day before yesterday. And I really hate winning with 2 or 3 tais. More practise is in order I believe.

And sleeping on the floor is not for me. The 3 hours gave me backache, I guess I must be delicate. ((:

My Mr Incedible pin is officially very sad cause Mark left him behind. ):

My class has no spirit even friends who dont know my class at all feel so sorry for me. But its not all that bad lah, the less you give the less you receive, its only fair.

I think the way they handled family day was crap. Not that I did anything at all. Then again, I wasnt assigned to lead or follow. To think me and Dar laughed at our phathatic un-fun game booth we had last year. At the least, it was a booth. And we had fun with it. (:

The way we're handling the class jersey is crap too. It'll never happen I'm sure. But hey, it doesnt mean anything anyway. We dont even have thirtyfive somewhere on it. I think I'll rather have the jersey with nothing on it.

But its alright, I guess a group of friends will make up for the lack of a class. Family day wasnt alright with Limin and Raine and Rara. The bestfriend splashing game was cornily fun, and I realise how Raine deems being late as her worst habit instead of ponning school. Great pririorities I see.

And Jems, Clems, Chings, Weilong and Keith deserves great rounds of applause for waiting hours for us. What awesome people they are! (:

Sunday naps seem to be the norm when I will sleep in the afternoon for hours at a go. Thank goodness Changtai woke me up with his call. Or else, I shudder to think what Beloved will do to me.

I dont feel the least bit sorry for my GP, I dont think I can afford any more time on it in the very first place.

Haha, just last Thursday everything was great. This Thursdays gonna be the turning point day as well, and everything will be awesome once again. (:

And all the photographs of ghosts of long ago,
Still they hurt you so, and won’t let go.

I'm depending on Nestle Mistra to keep me awake the whole night. I've got so much work its unbelievable. Well, not really, but I've got a hell lot of work anyway.

My GP teacher is really giving me a hell lot of trouble and being a totally overbearing pain. Fancy calling my dad up when I have NEVER owed her a single piece of her homework or ponned any of her lessons or anything like that. Oooo, the injust of it all! Theres room for improvement for everything and anything. What kind of reason is that to dictate my cca life?

Speaking of which, I'm sick of teachers acting like being in a sport cca merits you excuse to everything while the rest of the phathatic non-sporty people are free to do all their homework and sleep all they want at home. I dont think its fair to make such a generalisation. Not when I'm in ODAC anyway. I'd bet I spend more time on my CCA than 90% of the population. Yes, inclusive of those sports people.

Ok, so I admit my studies must be suffering. Nothing too severe I guess. No ones found me out just YET.

I wont do anything so stupid ever again.

I love love good hair days. :D

Theres gonna be another day with the sunshine

I'm quite upset with my language ability. I want to put down everything thats running through my mind, but I'm not quite up to it.

Caught one episode of hong dou nu zhi lian and I've my future all planned out. I need to resue a cute korean guy in distress and tada, everyone will fall in love with my foul temper! Sounds brilliant.

And what was that for? Honestly, I dont think I love myself nearly enough. Time and time again, I let you make me feel like the biggest loser I know I am not.

Its true, without you I would fall apart.

Its been swell today, getting kicked out of History class despite doing more than 1/2 the people actually sitting in class, and feeling stupid in econs and throughly lost in Lit. (Beloveds gonna be my downfall, I can feel it already)

But good lunch, good dinner and good people makes up for all! ((:

I've got 1/2 a mind to hit the sacks and the other half to do my work. Now I watch them battle. ((:

Some people make you feel so secure and protected its like nothings can ever harm you while you're with them. Others unsettle you and watch as insecurities eat your insides.

The following is my ultimate favourite song of the moment - its been on repeat for the 4th day straight. All of you MUST listen to it and cry along. (:


Yesterday Once More
Carpenters

When I was young
I'd listened to the radio
Waitin' for my favorite songs
When they played I'd sing along
It made me smile

Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where they'd gone
But they're back again
Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well

Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-wo-wo
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're starting to sing's
So fine

When they get to the part
Where he's breakin' her heart
It can really make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more

Lookin' back on how it was
In years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad
So much has changed

It was songs of love that
I would sing to then
And I'd memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years
away

All my best memories
Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more


Harry : What kind un-understandable tag is that man? Bite is right by the way. Still biting you see.
Dar : Refer to the 1st paragraph on my ever so productive day

As we grow older, we try harder to make ourselves look good and feel good.

I think thats just dumb.

Smile, an everlasting smile

Navigation on Saturday went alright I'll say.

Take

back

now,

my

life

you're

stealing.

I wish that it was still last night

I had a headache so bad this morning that I decided that there was no point in going to school and tumbled back into bed with the toothbrush in my mouth. For that, I earned myself being irresponsible and dishonest and the likes. According to Ms Daljit, if you're unwell, stay at home the whole day. But I dont get it. Is bridge such a treat that I would skip school and purposely just come for bridge? So much for trying to be a good student and rushing back to school. The next time, I'm staying at home for good.

Too many things are going my way. Haha, and I'm getting increasing paranoid cause I'm sure somethings gotta give somehow.

Whats wrong with me and being so mean sometimes? ): I dont think you deserve to bear the brunt of my annoyance. I mean you're naturally stupid and not doing it on purpose what.

So I got a Band 2 for my Project Work. Alright. I really I dont deserve anything more for that stack of lies and nonsense. I dont think any survey/interview in that was done with honesty. So hip hip hooray. And now that I've got 8% of my University admission in the bag, whats next?

I pulled the muscles at the back of my left thigh. Its really scary!

I cant live,
I cant breath,
Unless you do this with me.
:D

Fly me to the moon and let me play among the stars! It was an beautiful starry night tonight. Get your butt off the chairs and spend a moment star gazing. (: If you think theres nothing worthwhile about it, I'll bet you're an AJ sciencer.

Good relay passes excite me, as with good pacing lessons. ((: Todays ODAC was most fulfilling. :))

Abandon ship, cause I'm going down
You can jump first, cause I'd rather drown

Today joins the ranks of a happy day. :D

To put it mildly, I'm glad that Changtai got into the semis and that both ODAC teams got into the finals for inter-cca race and ODAC 1 amazed everyone by being forth. :)
To put it honestly, I'm exhilarated. :D

Small but delightful little surprises. ((:

Then there was a good lunch. Really, we all should have good lunches occasionally, they make even the longest Mondays bearable. (:

And the cherry atop it all? Happy dinner with ODAC.

Yes! everyday is gonna be like today. ((:

My dismal grades are so much more trouble then they're worth.

By the way, Tuesdays are such worthless days really. For all the 8 hours we spend in school, barely 1 hour works the brain. Okay, so we should really be kicking start those productve plans of ours. ((:

And I've learnt 2 really cool analogy today, maybe I'll share with you tomorrow, but for now, I wanna go to bed the happiest little girl on earth and worry about GP and the likes tomorrow.

I went to this most ulu building at French Rd today and freaked out pretty bad.

When reactionary forces arent working anymore, maybe you're pushing the wall and its about time to stop. Thanks, the scolding was much needed.

Oftentimes, I dont understand myself and the way I function. I try really hard, but somehow I fail anyway, sorry.

I cant, and theres no need for me to fake anything. Believe as you please. I'm learning to let it go. Though honestly, I'm disappointed with you and the way you imagine me to be. So be it anyway.

haha, its pretty easy to redefine my mood. All it takes is a caring voice, the rooftop, the stars and their comfort, my bunny and jie da huan xi. (:

I dont understand alot of things now. But I know I'm changing, I'm not the jedi I should be. Haha, okay, not apt. But yah, I'm changing. Responsibility, logic (or whatever little of it I had), passion and courage - they're dearly missed.

I'm on a mission to find me! (:

Please dont look at me with those eyes.

We're covered in lies and thats okay.

And now you're terrified when you see what we've become.

If we waste every Saturaday away like today, we'll become very sad and fat J2s by the end of this year. But happy, dont forget the happy part. ((:

I used to do as I pleased, whenever I pleased. I felt that there was no point in pretense or facades, I'm just me however I try and fake it. Those were the days when I was real. Still am now though I wont deny I've learnt to hold some things back.

watermelon washout

And feel sorta good today cause I hit 12.48 for my 2.4 for the first time in my life. (: I always knew my nikes were the best long term investments ever.

And though we lost (very gracefully I must say) at the 8 x 50 inter cca relays, it was worth a try, and a pretty good one. (: We had fun passing baton-spar at the netball court anyways. ((:

Dinner was a happy event. Eveyday should be today. ((:

Pretend to be happy if you're happy that way.

I am beautiful, no matter what they say. ((:

Heres to 1 year 4 months and beyond! (:

"I dont know" was the most honest answer I could master.

And you speak in that language of your own.

More and more, I'm forgettin' the past
More and more, I'm livin' at last
Day by day, I'm a-losin' my blues
More and more, I'm forgettin' 'bout you

The radio plays our favorite song
And it's what keeps me holding on

Really, it was a stupid reason to get upset.

Our group won the debate by the way, out of sheer luck of being the proposition. (: And I got best speaker, out of sheer luck of being the last speaker of the proposition.

Not that I'm trying to be modest here, but how can OWNING a PERSON ever be justified. What future, hope or rights is there for a person whose existance is simply as a possession of someboday else?

Can I fall into your eyes tonight? (:

Although there is NO case for the continuation of slavery, I dont think I'll be too surprise if my group loses the debate tomorrow.

So, here we go again.

Just let me know I dont affect you. You're not doing a good/convincing enough job.

Hey, I live with myself fine this way.

I sleep so much in class its impossible. -WAILS. There must be a way to get rid of this sleeping aura. Its causing me and my teachers so much distress!

Did you know that I'm actually really really scared?

People used to tell me what a bundle of energy I am, how they dont understand why I'm so happy and energetic all the time (I suppose they tell me this out of class). But now, all they ask is why I'm so tired or so down. Maybe I'm just spending too much time in class.

But happiness arent rare at all for me. They come in the form of great friends, good hair days, 46 marks GP essays, nice pick-me-ups, sad corney Chinese croonys, good meaningful english lyrics, kayaking, the better toy shop, so on and so on.

But I'm disappointed that Beach Stomps cancelled though.

Hmm, I'm confused but I deserve it. I'm such an idiot sometimes you know?

Zone Competition went successfully today. Hey, I'm pretty impressed by this committe of younglings. ((:

Why cant things always go my way? :( Dont like that lah please?

Whoa, I'm listening to the voices here
Whoa, I gotta concentrate so I can hear

Prata with Ci, Mark and Harry seems suddenly so far away.

Talking to Harry made me face the blatant truth that I shoved under the carpet all these while. And suddenly, nothing is in perspective anymore. Surprisingly, I'm calm and happy. Its the first real talk I had in ages.

I wonder whats gonna happen tomorrow.

I ask myself for the trillion time if its impossible.

And words that seem so hard to say,
Come out when you've gone away