OH MY!!! I post it on my blog, but YOU HAVE TO WATCH THIS! THE FIRST VERSION OF THE POWER RANGERS! (: (: (:
Every minuscule movement of yours hit me like a thousand horses.
Hello everyone! I'm now proudly part of the 4 Million Smiles Campaign! You can look for me (and Hazel) if you want to waste your time and run away from the books (:
Regrettably, I'm affected all the same. More than being upset by the true impetus that affected me (lets call it XXX) , I'm more at grief with myself for being affected by XXX. ):
I think it was absolutely funny when Gary said that Ms Williams was asking for it when she set us about the question on nothingness. After all, no matter how it is phrased, the bottom line is that nothing may be something but something can be nothing. Thankfully, no such line made its appearence in my essay.
I should have given you a reason to stay
Two of the brightest smiles you'll ever come to know ((: It takes an even eviler person to show you that the person you thought was evil in the first place is not really evil at all.
I had the decency to not point fingers and be a loud mouth and you had the decency to protect your own skin. Sounds like a fair trade to me. (:
You're the kind of person I want to blot out of my life but have no choice but to smile and pretend while writing hate notes in my mind. (But I pretty much fail at this cause I'm never great at hiding such intentions, how very much unlike you) Goodness, I sound so childish. Just abit lah okay, I'm seventeen! (This is not meant to be a hint whatsoever)
I cant wait till Ms Ng comes back, I promise never to anger her again.
Jack Sparrow (!!!!) is charming beyond all charm humanly possible. Hes the kind of guy I'll like to fall in love and sail off into the sunset on his Black Pearl with. :D
I think we're all seeking escapism - in the new TV show, in the new love target, in the love of your life, in the friends you conveniently reach out to, etc etc. Some people just make it more obvious than others. Not that I'm in the best position to comment about that but lets snap out of this pathetic state yes?
I may be terribly wrong, maybe everyone is so truly contented with life and the smiles are only facades in my imagination. I wonder does anyone think these same thoughts when they look at me.
I'm good with the way things are now. Could be better, but it'll do for now. (:
Sometimes I fall so hard into my world of disillusions. ):
Haha, I'm not at odds against the world. I feel I need adventure, I need to break this mould and do new things everyday. No, I'm not influenced by the glass menagerie. I always felt that there must be more than this provincial life.
I don't often blog about specific areas of my schoolwork (as if I need more reminders around) but I'm extremely fustrated with the History tutorial question 3 : Discuss the development of Thai nationalism in the 20th century. Either this is a completely intelligent question designed to make poor humble students like myself feel completely stupid or it is just a dumb and lousy question that we have overrated.
Daniel Seng made us write our problem areas with History (isn't that like all?) and proceeded to group us up with people with the same problem areas. Yeah right as if. He placed Wongci, PPX and I in the same group though we don't exactly have the same issues and just so coincidently, the 3 of us are 'attitude' cases (though not completely justified in PPX's case). So we expect our 'consultation sessions' to an attitude reforming class? Oh great. Now we're forced to leech onto other groups to escape that horrid fate. So much for a fair, great and deserving teacher. I do hope I didn't give him a teachers gift last year. (Okay lah, I admit that he does have a good heart, pity we got on a wrong start. Sometimes my blog is one side and biased, the way I meant it to be.)
Dont get me wrong I dont blame all my teachers for whatever dismal grades I get cause they can teach (or not teach) what they want. I acknowledge that I have to work hard on my own. Such is the beauty of SDL, and I feel that it is amazingly good training for the university. Therefore, come to AJC should you desire to start your own learning 2 years early. (By that I include marking your own GP essays and AQ, reading up endlessly on history facts cause apparently, the thick notes is simply insufficient as well as doing close reading of lit text on our own). All these while ending school at 6.15 for 3/5 days of school.)
Maybe what I need to is to implant a device in my brain that sends a minisculeAlicia and Gary can contest for the funniest blog award I promise. In terms of looks (no ugly act-chio, wanna-be, fake lashes pictures to irritate the ends of your toenails), substance (although both are increasingly on the decline, I'll rather know about the latest random aspect of their lives then what the hottest fashion is), and humour (not overly and tastelessly done), they reign superior by endless miles.
volt of electricity everytime the lazy/indulgent/unmotivated parts of my brain
are being stimulated. That'll show me! How dare I have the temerity to play
around at this time of the year when it's barely (6!!!!) weeks to the exams and I
still am not entirely confident of which texts to write on for English, let
alone start memorizing quotes for them!
They almost make me feel like switching from air-conditions to fans. For someone who wants to heal the world, using air-cons seem to be almost an irony. :/ Well, I do make up for it by recycling paper! (:
Today AJC had this evacuation drill. There was an uproar in the RR while shenglong and I sat in and laughed at the stream of befuddled people on the basketball courts. And I found this (or something along these lines anyway) by the principal very extremely funny : Those who have left your food in the canteen, please note that there might have been birds eating it. For hygiene purposes, please do not continue eating it. Funny what, no meh? haha (:
Even though we know that we always have to face the music and pay the price sooner or later, we're just incorrigible people who'll rather enjoy that moment of convenience. Like how I never bother to do anything with my schoolbuzz, only to realize much much later how all my achievements are strikingly missing (e.g interhouse basketball and soccer and 7 aside-soccer competition) Grrr. I blame the school for not making it clear that we have to sign up for schoolbuzz activities ourselves. (Sometimes, it just appears, and sometimes it doesnt. Why?) And I've enough hours for a Platinum Service Award, someone tell me how to apply! (My ignorance is once again blamed on the school. Or maybe it was cause I was sleeping in one of the many mass civics lesson)
NONONO! I'm not supposed to be mean no more! But I really cant help unpleasant thoughts sometimes how how! No, maybe I'm not mean! Maybe I just don't like you. Yes, that must be it since you're the exception. :) Now I feel better already.
I'm a corward, but hes an easy thing to be.
I found this Chinese song I've been looking for since I was about Pri 6. Wheehee ((: Some things just do make a great impact. I don't even thing I remember the names of some of my friends from 6 years ago.
Jie da huan xi - jin zhuang ban just ended. :( :( :( Sundays will never be the same again.
Despite all the cheena-ness, I'm really no more an ah-lian than I was. (:
In 2 days, 3 different people have asked me 3 very different questions. All of which are rather disturbing. Haha, think think think. They'll probably end up unanswered anyway.
I finally watches Pirates 1, and boy is Jack Sparrow charming beyond charming! (:
Meryl's recent post is a classic example of a fallacy. Not all who walk past the poor blind man without sparing a cent are heartless. Sometimes you don't have the change, sometimes you're lazy, and sometimes you don't believe if the person is disabled enough to warrant a donation. By her definition, should you walk down the streets of Bangkok, you'll end up with 1 baht or even less. Of course we should donate sometimes, but perhaps its rather unrealistic to say that this must be done all the time. (but of course we should try as much as possible to buy tissues from the poor old lady, especially so if shes the ultra skinny kind, because firstly, shes a poor old lady and secondly, you always need tissues anyway)
Two-one-two : Team Tau-huay!
AJC ODAC OEI! ((:
False medals, but a good picture nonetheless.I'm no longer who I was, sure you've realized.
I dont think I know everything about everyone, but I do know somethings about some people. And sometimes knowing too much is an extra burden cause you dont know what you should and can say anymore. But I do care, and I do try. Dont tell me if you dont want to anyway, I'll understand.
We do realize how much we actually understand each other, maybe previously I would like to think about how to better this situation and to make the world a beautiful place. But not now, not anymore - I've got too many things to worry my head about. I'm fine with leaving things the way they are. Although, of course, I wont say no to better relations.
Maybe being very tired is no reason to become a neglient friend. Oh fiddlesticks, I will strive super hard alright, and I'm going to start with you. ((:
Sometimes all we need is a smile from that certain someone to make our day. (:jho says:
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fierce!Whee hee, I love being fierce! (:
Donating blood today was such a happy affair. Three cheers for Alan, Taiyong, Changtai, RSSP and me! And look! I've got a happy bumblebee bandage. :) ( and we had to take a photo with that drop of blood)
Sometimes people can just be so fustrating to be around. You can be so close with a friend for this period of time, but everything you thought was could be naught in just weeks. I do really like you and the things you do. But its fustrating when nothing happening and the defensive blockade you put in place remains as firm as ever. Sadly, I'll probably never found out what went wrong somehow and if you havent already guessed, I'm too tired to try.
I'm undecided as to if I hate the unknown or not. I would think yes to a large extent.
Haiya, its all beyond me, the best way out would be to run away. I hate you for teaching me these cowardice.
I'm in a mood for watching movies alone. Maybe I'll do just that tomorrow. (And if you see me, pretend not to please)
If i gave you a nice bar of chocolate, you threw it on the floor and stomped on it, do not expect me to be gracious enough to pick it up, clean it and return it to you. Nope, I'm not some Cordelia.
In fact, I'm a pretty evil person. I'm the kind that if I was going to kill myself, I'll take down with me all those people I dont like. (:
Shoo shoo, go away.
[Aside: And at this moment in time, Marks wondering why are none of the increasingly decent looking girls from Jaguar. Seems like a crisis to me]
I would predict I'll have about 5 minutes for myself and Bunny this exciting weekend.
Not that I dont like such a busy life. I do! It makes everyday seem so much more exciting. But sometimes I wish I had time of my very own. To come home and sleep the afternoon away, to study with my RSSP ( :( ), to eat zha jiang mian at ecp with my RSSP, to call Por/Qiu/Rina/Yin/Pam/Feng..... just because. Guess not.
Thanks for noticing Keith, dont worry, I'm not down and out. I'm just abit more irritatable this few days. Maybe its all the times I feel I have to do. Plus all the things I'm hearing and such.
I'm giving myself 1 week to hit full gear. (: Try and be kind to me please.
Canoe Polo day was such a happy affair we JUST HAD TO hide behind the 'coconut tree'.
I think Wednesday's soccer clique is about the best thing in AJ
Somehow, retarded things are fun to do. (:
And around school -
(:
I've just finished my ODAC reflections, its about 11.20 and I started at 2. Oh golly, I am greatness at wasting away my time.
I didn't watch Pirates of the Caribbean because of my Jie Da Huan Xi- Jing Zhuang Ban. :) And I marvel how come Hongkong have so many cute actors (Sorry, I don't quite go for Ang mors as much) - and the baby! Super duper cute la! Cuter than even my new turtle. (I'll show it to you if you ask me nicely over msn)
So so so, I'm not supporting either tonight, maybe I'll study econs while they cheer on, and its about time for me to leave. But its not as if they miss me anyway.
Which brings me to the point that I wish I had more girlfriends, the way it was in secondary school. Not that I don't like the company I'm enjoying now - I just feel that I need a bit more of the feminine touch.
Rina and I were talking about the good food we are going to attack on Friday - Orange Bowl, Pasta with fish, Purple bowl with crabstick, Uncle Mobin's iced tea, Uncle Mobin's rock hard white biscuit, ripple ice cream and Auntie Annie's new mua chee! St Nicks canteen always leave my tummy with the emptiest feeling. :(
I don't get why some people take girls (or guys for that matter) as an ornamental object. Is looking good all there is to love? (What a cliche topic you may exclaim. Proceed to close this window than. ) Indeed, looks are important to a certain extend and once you go beyond a certain dress size, you probably aren't considered attractive anymore despite whatever shining personality you may posses. But to actually dehumanize all girls, tagging them a label and everything is completely disgusting. I know I do that sometimes, but I honestly don't mean it in a demeaning manner. But I know of some who truly feel that if your 'other half' is not 'presentable' you should be terribly ashamed of him/her and keep him/her at home (or dump her/him). You poor thing, I guess your sense of worth comes from your 'ability' to boast to all your friends at the number and quality of girls you have falling at your feet. I truly hope you feel the same way when you're 37 you superficial scumbag.
That said, I think inappropriate public displays of affection are equally repulsive , regardless if you and your 'other half' are good looking or not (but if you are, it is slightly easier on the eyes). I believe in some school ethics, and being decent in school is one of them. Outside, I couldn't care less if you stay away.
Why do some people get some things they hardly deserve? Superficial people get goodlooking ornaments who are happy being ornaments. People who don't study get grades, and more unfortunately, the other way round. People who put in the effort don't get the recognition they deserve. Non-country club members sneak into country clubs. Non-SCAB people get to watch the world cup and even other channels. The world is unfair, that basically sums my above paragraph.
I do great with some people and some things in my heart. Please do not tell me what I can/cannot do. Firstly, you're not me. Secondly, I accept comments, not directions, and most certainly not from people whom I feel are doing a worse job than me at running their lives.
My last ponderous paragraph is : Who are you to define another? I'm echoing Rosanne when I say this - we are not 3D objects subjected to scrutiny and judgemnt of another. Or rather, we are not, but only if you refuse to be one. "If you do this this this, you are a loser." So how about if I say if you don't do this this this, you are a loser? Who defines loser? You? The oh-so-great winner of planet earth? I admit I'm not as self-assured as I appear to me - there are moments when I do falter and allow the judgment of another to be passed on me. But thats in my worse moments only. I try not to be. (: You're cool if you think you're cool.
That day when I was walking out of school with ODAC, I never felt worst. It was a mixture of being alone, not being alone and completely unwanted. Thankfully, it lasted for about 2 mins only. But I've never felt worst.
Alright, my songs done with its download at long last and I'm off to the world cup with ODAC! (I wish)
