Saturday, July 31

someday,
i'll smile just like before.

you know wot?
wotever.

i dont want old mans later. but i dont suppose i have much of a choice. i am going to buy 2 cups of instant cold coffee. yes. thats what i'm going to do.

Friday, July 30

i know someone whos short and round and looks like a big blue ball
i know someone whos a total idiot
i know someone whos a big retard- and i dont mean it in the nice sense
i know someone whos brain is as smooth as a hard boiled egg
i know someone who is horizontally and mentally challenged
i know someone who cannot even master the universal language
i know someone who passes her tests by strokes of luck
i know someone who is a social reject
i know someone who deserves to be shot and hanged and strangled and put into a blender
i know someone whos a total hypocrite
i know someone with no backbone and who is easily swayed
i know someone stubborn and unreasonable
i know someone who is wasting her life away
i know someone who is wasting everyones love
i know someone who is oh-so-phathatic
i know someone who is a whiner, grumbler, and a yue-bang-yue mang sorta girl
i know someone who is a talentedless freak
i know someone who wishes she never existed

and you know that someone too.

 

i was resonably happy until that hit me.

i wonder if its me. but people seem to get either gumpier, more uptight, more tired, and more retarded as the days go by. maybe its the impending prelims. or maybe its just pms. me, i'm getting extreamly retared and increasingly unhappy with myself. 

but i found out today i dont pms.  i'm not normal. but wait, feng and pam doesnt pms either? maybe people who're short dont pms cause they do not have space for excess hormones to rage on?

and feng says she'll get me a tamagochi for my birthday. ok. she said she'll try to.  but she will. i just know it. cause shes nice and cause i know shes reading it.


hope dangles on a SPRING!

cpr course wos not as good as i thought it would be. heck. it wosnt good at all? erm. ok lar. i had fun? but i'm proud to say i know more than wots taught. :)

our cme proj went very well. :) thanks to eiz and pamm and qiu and wans. and i helped by going to sleep.

happy nursing day.

Thursday, July 29

even if i am halfway round the world;
that wont stop me form loving you.

yins just msg me and said
"what name shd i give my tamagotchi?!i need names! i want it to be male yea? Oh max 5 letters!"
this is so unfair. i wanted a tamagotchi first! haha. nevermind! guess whos birthday is coming up? ((: hahas. i would name mine mm!

ok no. i'm not going to school since theres no photo taking. hahas.

but i'll still be going to old mans. ):

st nicks ; double champs !
 
yest
we rocked the national stadium man! and we got washed away in the process. wearing my adidas there wos the stupid move of the week. (acctually not. getting the hello kitty stickers were.) neways, it wos darn fun, aside from the getting half exposed part.

today.
should i or should i not go to school?
 

Tuesday, July 27

Revenge of the Sith

5 tests AND 2 mocks next week! the highlight just so has to bethe 18 chap of PHYSICS and 33 chap of chinese. hip hip murray! ((: why didnt they just give up chem as well? bring it on man. (: yea. and night study sessions starting on mon next week which is so totally good for me! look for me and pamm everyday from 6-9 in school, mugging hard with a pen behind our ears. and if you care to drop us dinners, that would be nice. (:

i have given up the idea of heelies, i saw this one girl wearing them and falling down like 1 whole flight of steps.. and it wosnt very nice. the amazin part is that she just stood up, told her friend that she was ok and no problem, and both of them heeled away. erm.

i cant believe i did well for english oral! ((: pretty well infact! rockys darn nice. darn! but i really gotta stop the "its like" thinggy and the funny hand gestures which i believed i picked up from enen. so if you see me doing either, please poke me in the fats.

did i mention? jays new song is nice! way nice. its on 933 hotstuff! ahahas. but i cant hear the lyrics though.

"donging" stickers is one of the most retarded things ever - especially if out pops a hellokitty one. haha. (:

back to electrolysis. which is frankly, full of crap.

Monday, July 26

wo de jia ; shou chang
wo de huan xi bei shang
 
i love singapore!!!!
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

boy, am i a retard.

P and C rocks! n! ((:

oh yes! my jnrs greeted me today! haha. yea. so qi pai. for a moment, i thought it wosnt me, cause, they never great me. actually i have no idea wot i'm typing abt.

oh wait. i know. its bedtime and i'm retarding away.


Absolute Sole Right

schools getting more and more, shall i say thrilling? every teacher, with the except chenyongming is obsessed with their subject, and totally do not get the fact that we have 8 more other subjects to pull our hair out for. like jacob, when she expects us to be memorising quotes on all our mrt and bus rides. and seah, when she wants us to go home and do the dunno how many revision test she got for us. even the old man is asking me to practise more and go to him more. i am trying. really. trying! and mrs ang, expecting us to do all her damn wksheets and giving us that face when we dont. shes totally pmsing. like she wants the sulphuric acid and atmosphere done by tomorrow? and theres like 20mcq and 20open ended for atmosphere alone? oh yes, she wants revison paper1 in too. eyeer. and we cant not do cause shes mrs ang. so all i'm doing about it now is moan and groan. and yes, i did it ok. me being so guai. ((: oh yes, and i'm totally suprised that we dont have to pay for the 10 chem past year practise papers and 5 revision papers that the school generously gave us. how bloody brilliant! and when shall we find the time to do?

yet again, some of my classmates are coping pretty good. so maybe its me.

amaths failure tomorrow. trigo! and p and c! and i circular measures. but circulars ok. at least it wos the last time i touched it? which wos last year sep? :/ well. wotever. cause i have my chem to worry about and i have to do all her stuff if not she'll just kick me out. i just know it. i could see it in her today.

theres this pretty good vcd in the school library : tian chang di jiu (or issit di jiu tian chang?) erm. ya. cym loaned it out and let us watched and we finally finished today. its pretty good and i have come to agree with qiu that the lead, xiaofu, actually does look like a much more handsome version of weikiat.

zoe made me chase her to 3wisdom today, and i kicked the spec stand stairs on my way up and my new shoe is dirtyy.. BUT! with the amazing power of jif, it is now white once again. :) and as much as i hate to admit it, my beauutiful shoes have gave me a blister. oh but anyway, i love zoe! thanks for the shirt and for making me look retared, running after you on my stout lil leggs. :/

f and n wos a total flop. sheesh. i cant believe that piece of crap was for my Os. so was chinse by the way. cyms not gonna be pleased.

i just realized today that i like to see zhongxueting around in school! cause her beeaaggg smile is very happy to look at. :) hah. ok. i like to see everyone i know in school. every single smiling one of you. :)

yea. i have no life at all. thats why i'm here. blogging stuff that i'm sure everyone read halfway and gave up.

happy sixteen dor!
i liked the pres i got her. so yunyun-ie. :)

anon ; nahhs. i read it somewhere sometime back. cant remember where though. :/

Sunday, July 25

this could be the one last chance to make you understand.

Saturday, July 24

if i had know that was the last time i would be talking to you on the phone, i would have said goodbye a little nicer.
if i had know that was the last time i would be hugging you, i would have hugged you tighter.
if i had know that was the last time you would be telling me that you loved me, i would have said i love you too.
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

screwed my oral. ms rocky is so nice. pity theres no way shes gonna be able to give me a decent grade.

finally went back to have my glasses seen too. back with the roundish black ones at the moment. and i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it. yucks.
oh, and my qirksilver gold belt is official out of stock. -screams- and i so want it.

the twin effect2 is opening on 12aug. pamm doesnt wanna catch it, but shes gonna go with me in the end. i can feel it in my bones. ((:

yikes. i am lagging yet i still want a break. students like me are a teachers worst nightmare.

my mum rocks. shes the only one who can suck and rock so much so much at one go. ((:

i so wanted to go for sj.

Thursday, July 22

today, the world decided to let me know how much it hated me.
i'll rather be a piece of broken jade then a complete square of concrete.

Wednesday, July 21

its the end ex-girlfriend.

i cut my finger today with my brand new penknife which i wos so proud of. i saw the flesh (which is gross i tell you) , felt the pain and stuck in in my mouth. i think i freaked jill out pretty bad. :/ its at least one section of the penkinfe blade in and its gonna be a while before it heals. if it heals without leaving a scar. luckly my fa nco wos 1 m away with a first aid kit. ((: i did pretty well too! remembering the direct preasure hand over heart thing. with a pain resistant of 0, i am seriously am a wimp. :/ why am i even blogging abt this?

we're doing testimonials for english now. seriously, there is zilch to write in mine. good luck to qiu. i wonder wot is she gonna crap out abt me. seriously, i'm a talentless freak. eiz is a blackbelt, qius can speak jap, pamm can guirtar and sing, wans can play weiqi and is an amazing prefect porlie wans, jill can play the guitar and is in some bball team, nana can play the organ. everyone can do something. they have either beauty (in and/or out), brains or bawns. musically, acadamically or physically inclined. and me? i can do nothing. (eiz told me i could match my nose color with my sb, but that has been proven wrong because enen reminded me that theres no way i can make my nose rainbow or transparent) i believe quite god forgot to give me a secret talent. :( wot is a talentless freak like me doing around anyway? at least, He was nice enough to give me people who love me. thats a consolation.

i just realized that susu put ex-nco rocks as part of her nick. then she told me that she has alot of exncos. :/

Tuesday, July 20

the passing out parade of 2004
more affectionately known as pop.
 
its quite full of alot of me.
:)
red faced me.

our world is linked by the fine threads of memories. 

blogger is getting really complicated and corked up. i still insist the old one wos better. and i cant even publish chinese. goondo thing.

i saw some jnrs at recess today, at places ard school when they we supposed to have drills. i wos gonna open my mouth to say something then i realize that it really issnt my charge anymore. :/ sheesh. somethings are just hard to changethere were so many sec3s down. ((: they beat us flat.
 
prelims are in 2mths, and i just realized. brendas really tryin her best to make us all frightened. and i really should be, seeing how little i am prepared for. 
 
minhuay can really qualify to be my little wenxu. :)) even though she doesnt really like it. hahas. but the resembance is uncanny!
 
y o u are all i need to get me through.

happy belated caiyilin, emily and douyaqiying ! :))

Monday, July 19

i suppose you have the right to break me
seeing you're the one who made me into who i am today.
but did it ever occured to you that if you made me just to break me.
i'd rather not be made at all?
 
no.
i dont suppose i'm significant enought for you to care.

In fairytale stories, the princess or the heroine is always portrayed as the pulchritudinous lady with a suave prince on the white stag, while the evil witch is the one with a nose full of warts. Yet, in reality, this is seldom so. A raven?s heart may reside within a dove?s pure and chaste body, and vice versa. Appearance may hide what actually lies beneath. This holds especially true for my favourite haunt.
 
Walk past its door when its opened, and you?ll scorn at the pathetic look of it hanging by its hinges. Open the door, and be cautioned that if you attempt to use more force than sensible, the metal knob will come detached in your palm. Look into the room, and be greeted by a state of devastation. A hybrid of medical smell mixed with the smell of bed sheets that have been unwashed ever since they came into the room one year back slaps you right in the face and threatens to knock you out flat.
 
This is the ?welcoming? scene of my favourite haunt ? the CHIJ St Nicholas Girls? School?s St John Ambulance Brigade room.
 
chim chim chim? :))
 
with my beautiful saturdays replaced with saturdays full of hard work, i have nothing to look forward to now.
 
i like the cd i gave enen. its ugly but i like it. :)
 
you- get lost.

Sunday, July 18

to my meimei
coneyness stuff i've wrote.
:) but i do mean them.
 
(remember to rightclick)
 

Saturday, July 17

with only 1/2 hour of sleep and 2hrs of crying. my eyes are tiny and blury. i can barely see wots on the com scren. but i must still blog about today. i'm not a fan of minute by minute entries, but 10years later i wanna look back on this entry.
and remember everything that happened today.
 
i had 5 bags of stuff totally occupying the front of the ava room.
 
for the first time, i saw attendance taking without my squad. and i wos dead prodda the sec3s. silly but true. it wos like my baobeis were all grown up.
 
some major police and thief game. we got picked! hahas. me and feng were still like wot if none of the sec3s wanna pick us? den abit good lar. left there all alone and unwanted.  anyways, me and feng and hil and doreen wedding marched the whole place and self entertained lar. and we got resued by a pack of xuchuanmei-cannot-make-it-ers.
 
i got the best gift i could ever ever recieve from the sec3s - their squad tee. all of a sudden i feel so belonged. considering todays the day that i step down, thats abit fast? haha. enzies drawin is proness and i'm potrayed as changi aiport with a bean and a banana steping on my head. oh well, considering i could have been drawn as a vanguard sheet with 17 people/things on me, i shd be thankful.
 
we took sqd photo before yingtung (with a doramon container of my dreams) and yingxuan left. wheee- we take 10minutes to decide on like one pose? such is the efficiency of us. haha. and it wosnt even complete due to the absentness of onyee.  that means i never do have a whole sqd photo of my squadd. ):
 
games were duper fun .the clothes one. my goodness lar! the cocunit husks totally tops the list. we all looked like some total goondos.  and we had like upper loads of funn! meow meow meowmeowmeow m e o w! guess which group we were in.
 
wos sickening full during lunch but forced some down anyway? yi si yi si give my squad main zi wots. but it wos very nice  the squashed atmosphere and the chatter and mirth.
 
we marched in and sat on the ba yue shi wu papers. the booketlet wos darn nice but of course, mine still takes the topps. haha.  the sec1 item wos super cute lar.  throw sweets. for a moment i thought they were gonna throw the apples too. and their version of gudanbeibanqiu. sad lar. but i wos trying to not look at em and stuff to er. not cry? it wos very nice. the best sec1 item we're ever seen. :)  and we all agree that teh sec2s dance is a micture of our sec1 and sec2 dance, only nicer. and their shoelace-tie looked so pullable. ya. but we cld see the effort that shone though. (: sec3 thinks that by singing/doing guan huai fang shi/peace like a river, then we will think that its so new and original. haha. kidding. but theirs wos still more chenggong than ours anyway? hahas. impromtu throw face session. but i suppose the underline meaning got through anyway. ((:
 
me and do sang our ice kachang song for our sqd. without any practise beforehand. so its quite an accomplishment. in case the lyrics couldnt be caught , here they are.
you are my ice kachang
in the tropical heat
you are my favourite desert
so cold and so sweet
would you like to bobochacha
come along and dance with me
for you are my love
my one attapchee
someone i like to eat.
 
some past year snrs whom i didnt even know came back. that wos extremly nice of them. stefanie, our favourite nco, never did came back, even though she said she would. 2 years since she passed out. two years ago she said she'll come back and visit us real often. and we never ever heard from her since then. the only nco who came back wos ruo. and to think we so oftenly overlook her presense. shes actually the only one whos really with us all this while...
 
the actual parade was smooth. escorting and pc-ing deserved full marks. jnrs u, as usual, wos a source of entertainment. i wonder if i do look like that back them.  post announced. with the element of mystery robbed from several people. :/ i totally like the sec3nco tag i made zoe put on. but she wos cryin and crying and got me all upset and so i lost 12 cones of icecream. for a moement, i did thought she didnt like the post or something.
 
acting santa clause wos chaotic. and phototaking a failutic experience. face totally red like tomato lar.  er.. ya. but for the first time, i dont really care. its not like i wont have chace to take ever again.  sec1s cldnt draw on my black tee. but i'll make it up on mon.
 
suddenly, i do agree. the pop wos very successful.  from the movie treats to the silver ribbon on the pop book, everything had chengyi splattered all over it.
i am very proudda my squadd.
my lil darlings are no longer little anymore.
 
i would sign the guestbooks, but i figured they wont let me do so many at a go.  so here goes :
 
ex-oic! : i remembered. of course i did! we both wanted one remember? (: its an ankelet! not a bracelet larr.  thanks fer the letter. i'm so speechlesss lar. my sec1 sp remembers me! (: and it wos a very nice letter. i just remembered i left something in the sj room. and you know wot? now i no longer can ask you for the key. you'll always be THE oic. (:

ex-aic! : baobao de baobei! haha. i really cant remeber when and why, but i'm like always hearing you go "stop! lets go back to the topic" haha. my exexexexexex no.2. (: vanns loves you yes no ger? (: you'll always be THE aic. (:
 
doreen! : my mrs ong! refer to the letter yes? (:
 
hilda! : haha. miss hearing you call me vanzai? or how ever you pronounce vanzie. haha.  
 
wendy! :wommannnn! i still owe you funds man! 
 
dm/shijie! : no longer will i have you to lend your most critical eye to inspect my uniform. then again, no longer will i need it. :(

dodo/baoabao/evilbao/asst! : you were sucha great nco, if i do say so, a fantastic assistant, always there fer me, and an amzing middleman. (:
 
cherie! : i have a squad shirt! na-na-na-na-na ahahas. but you have sucha nice squad. and a hamtaro pillow. haha. i forgot to tell you - some of your minicom presents to the sec2s are still in the room ya know? and does harry rock as much as me? (:
 
eiz/bestie! : i wont tell you anymore sqd stuff alr. arent you just so glad? i wont miss anybit of you, cause we're never very far apart are we?  oh, with the exeption of those zebra print slides. :)
 
jojo! : my exexexexex assitant leader from once upon a time. (:
 
weilin! : you still haven mastered the beautiful art of bandaging - directly from the expert! namely, me! haha.
 
jess! : you'll always be my silently dependant and secretly rocking squaddie!
 
qiuqiu/chiew/chui/however you spell it! : no more nonsense from me ehs? (: wont miss you neither! and thanks for my chief com! i still need my koto! haha. so i'll still be lookin fer you!
 
nana! : the patientest fd nco! lets overlook the other side. (: you rock man womman! you so gotta teach me indian poker too. someday, when eiz issnt hang about with her cam. ((:
 
yins! : i'll miss seeing you in your full u with your fringe coming out from under you barrea. koping you from swimming wos the best move ever yes? (:
 
feng! : now i cant influence you wot to do for pt anymore. haha. and i cant believe you scraped on even 1 pingpong ball...
 
kiat! : my da tou! no more fisherman jaket for me to laugh at! :(

haoge! : my vesi co.! (: i highly doubt you'll be reading this anyway. we may not be the best squaddies, but we are squddies anyway!

jiawei, yingwan,stella! i cant believe you guys ponned your own pop! hahas. wells, again, we may not be the best squaddies, but we are squddies anyway!

sec4squad2004! well, I suppose this is it.. the ?end? of our squad.. not technically lar ? our sprit will live on for always! ? - but you know.. officially. No longer will we be the head squad. Hahas.. and I suppose, we will never have a chance to squadbond together again. Our days of ?wheres your timing!?, and ?fidgit somemore!? and our arm slings and bedsheets and ?drink water good!? will all simply remain as memories..  (: of the fondest kind. It seems like yesterday when we all came together dancing our sec1 pop dance (upside down! Bouncing off the window!) then it wos the liching war, then our bnco with all the YES COURSE ICs! Then our enthu camp days, mini com. If I were to list, one toilet roll also bu gou. Hahas.. well, when you look at this letter, it may all just be words, random alphabets strung together. But think (and read the underlyin meaning) of wot they mean. The joys, the tears, the laughter, the sweat, the saliver. The memories. Everything that we shared. together. The squadship that I?ll miss so incredibly dearly. thank you for growing up with me, for living though all my crap and rubbish, for always being my squadmate whos there, for sharing all my fondest memories with me over the four years.
we arent just a squad, we are THE squad. :) and we'll always be. you guyscame sucha long way with me.

todays pop.
haven slept yet.
whee- van the panda shall appear tomorrow.
yesterday- recieved much pop well wishes and blah. i have darn sweet jnrs. :)
 
its finally matirializing.

Thursday, July 15

I AM TREMBLING WITH ANGER.

Wednesday, July 14

against the iron gate

i want a break. one day to myself. or one hour. or something. that would be nice. very nice.

i would seriously pon tomorrow if i didnt actually study for amaths already.

maybe i shdnt have laughed so much at zoes roundie appleish head cause guess wot? as fate would have it, i have a rounddish hair all to myself now. but it doesnt make my face look appleish. my face still looks hamburgerish. is that a consolation? i like my hair now anyway.

boo you. no way are you gonna take me down.

Tuesday, July 13

hey you!
(i know this is she2jiayus opening line. but i dont care.:))

i never though i would say this, but hey! i'm getting the hang of quadratic funtions.

tyms the coolest. just watlzed into class and say xia ke le. and we got an extra 1/2 hour early. :) and jacob suddenly, finally, decided to let us watch the twelfth night show. we're laggin, but wotever! i say this house as dark and ignorance, though ignorance as dark as hell. and i say there wos never a man thus abused. i'm no more mad than you are!

thank you for watching me while i fall.
oh, and laughing too.

Sunday, July 11

10 good reasons why i should not cry on pop:

1) i will look terrible
2) i wont be able to take the many photos that i want to and look good in them
3) i will give my jnrs a horrible last un-mam-ly impression of me
4) i have a pact with my bestie that we wont cry together and i fully intend to keep to that
5) its a tradition for juniors to cry and sec4 seniors not to
6) its not the end of the world, we are still gonna be seeing each other
7) i will lose my bet of 5 icecream cones
8) xiaofeng and susu will totally mock at me
9) i have not cried for any of the previous pop, and i dont want this to be my first and last.
10) cryings not gonna stop the rain from falling, or in this case, us from poping.
the song the green badge sang for the white batch pop in 2002.
(to the tune of the day you went away)

now i wonder could it be
that all the pumpings that you gave up were all necessary
call us slackers or guniangs
to still be complaining is stupid after all of this time

did we lose our choice to something better?
is s j a b suitable for us?
that time we really didnt know

well hey,
so much we wanna say
just cant forget the day
the day we joined sj
so sad but true
we couldnt change cca
cause ms oh wldnt allow
so now we're all stuck here
(stuck here forever)

i remember
stupid squadmates
we were shouting screaming yelling at the top of our voices
hated seniors,
thought they sucked
but as we got closer to you we kindda changed all of our minds

as we got closer to all of you guys
and we realized you werent so bad
in fact
we think you guys are just the best

from then,
our opinions start to change
we feel we belong here,
in this small family
not uup to it,
we promise to jiayou
we'll naver quit stjohns,
even if you paid us to
(we're here to stay for good)

at this time
we understand
we no longer are the xiaomeimei of sjab
we have juniors, we're shaping up
no longer shouting at each other we are now united

and now we're holding on to something special
begining to really like you guys
sec4s, we will really xiang nian ni (miss you)

although
we gave you much troubles
turned all your black hair white
and hai ni men bei ma (and caused you to get scoldings)
bu guo wo men (but we,)
shi zhen de hen ai ni (really love you )
zhen de zhen de ai ni (really really love you)
hui shi fen xiang nian ni! (we'll miss you loads)
(hen she bu de ni men) (we cant bear with you all)

remember squadmates?
it wos so five minutes ago.
dreams are my reality

my sister has officailly quit np.
cover up : skin problems
real reason : its boring and she hates marching
and you know wot she wants to join now?
stjohns.
i'm so sure sj is fantastically interesting (actually it is lar! but thats cause of the people in it. not cause of the things we do. haha) and we dont march.
the irony of life.
i think i'm a good promoter of sj.

Saturday, July 10

i hope today wont be the last day that i
wake up at 7.30, put on my sj tee and dash out of the house.
i hope today wont be the last day that i
have my mum drive in to the street 13 gate, on the way up the hill, seeing wenxu, kaixin, and the rest of the sjtee wearers.
i hope today wont be the last day that i
walk to the new specs with enen, listening to her lameness and trying to keep up with her.
i hope today wont be the last day that i
get greated by 3 squads one by one. - twice.
i hope today wont be the last day that i
head into the sj room with my squadmates cheery "mornings!"
i hope today wont be the last day that i
pull my squadmate to go buy milk with me before the start of cca
i hope today wont be the last day that i
walk 4 of my squadmate into the sj room.
i hope today wont be the last day that i
fall in with the rest of my squadmates
i hope today wont be the last day that i
took attendance with aic
i hope today wont be the last day that i
carried my juniors valuables up to the room
i hope today wont be the last day that i
listen to felicia and kiat contemplate on wot to have for pt
i hope today wont be the last day that i
suggest to felicia and kiat that we play bball for pt
i hope today wont be the last day that i
run to the bball court to check if theres space or not
i hope today wont be the last day that i
do pt with the rest of sj
i hope today wont be the last day that i
play the spastically retarded but nevertheless fun (at least at the start when i could hear who wos calling who) husband and wife game.
i hope today wont be the last day that i
take my juniors for fd
i hope today wont be the last day that i
listen to gen preech to the sec3s
i hope today wont be the last day that i
preech to the sec3s
i hope today wont be the last day that i
stay in the cozyness of the sj room laming around with the rest on my squadmates
i hope today wont be the last day that i
help in triage/activation
i hope today wont be the last day that i
get molested by wenxu and zoe. :/ ok. maybe not this.
i hope today wont be the last day that i
bersuit right.
i hope today wont be the last day that i
say my hanta cheer
i hope today wont be the last day that i
do footdrill with my squad
i hope today wont be the last day that i
see EVERYONE in my squad together for once
i hope today wont be the last day that i
eat macs with my sqdmates after cca
i hope today wont be the last day that i
go towning with my squadmates after cca.
i hope today wont be the last day that i
attend cca as sec3nco.

maybe some hopes will pull through.
but none
in the capacity of me being the sec3nco, gen being my oic, and the green badge being in charge.

Thursday, July 8

i am constantly embarassed by myself

the insane school is dragging me into insanity as well. fandn, maths, amaths, chinese, chem and history. i wonder why isnt there physics? might as well wot. and i'm not gonna study for any of them and concentrate on purely amaaths, my favourite subj of all times. there chapter 2,3,5 AND 6. and thats more than enough to cover till.. forever? wotever. insanity i tell you. but then again, prelims are in 9weeks and 3 days. who can blame the school?

i spent the whole night studying ss and amaths yesterday and slogged till 3am. and it totally wos a huge waste of time. i might have fared better in dreamland.

i am an incredibily mean girl. i wonder why is it i have friends.

Wednesday, July 7

ni shi fou yi jing kan jian shang xuan yue?

i am totally looking forward to tomorrow. trigo, transformation, locus test all rolled into one! wot more can i ask for? hot on its heels is a social studies test- 3chapters on the growth of nation! just what i always wanted to know, singapore and japan industries, sg health and edu and switerlands edu. oh wait! thats not all! theres still the most exciting of the lot! briten welfare state! hmm. and to end the day with a great bang, i'll be heading to the most hip and happening place of 2004, while poor qiuhong goes home to sleepp,(awww. poor her) the old mans house.

there is so much to look forward to tomorrow. what an exhilarating, programme packed day. can there possibly be a better way to spend a thursday?

no, i think not.

if i were to die in the near future, please let it be now. let me chock on my salver in my dreams or something. please dont let me have to go through such misery before ending my life.

my sister is currently bathing, and so far, i have picked up 3 calls for her from 3 different people. and her handphone has vibrated 3 times. 2 message and 1 call. and i am not jealous. no, not at all, that i've not received a single msg, call, nor msn convo. oh, but thats cause i'm appearing offline.

oh, with some amazing, mysterious luck, i passed my e vectors!

Tuesday, July 6

i'm not telling cause i dont care or dont dare.
the only thing thats holding me back is the trust you gave me
i'm tryin my best to give you the respect you dont deserve.
i'm living this lie and will continue to do so.
but dont get overboard i'm telling you.
i'm not always nice
one day, when scientists discover the center of the universe, don't be disappointed that it's not you.

please get that in your head.
i still want to love you.
i'm a believer

this wos qt yesterday also. to think we're the only squad not having the traditional pop - the pop with the games and campfire on the first day, den the parade and then finally, the drama studio. thats quite saddening. oh wells. then again, we're lucky to be even getting a pop. i suppose.
we're passing out next sat,with one more cca to go, theres so much to look forward to, and even more to look back on.
everyones starting to worry about the presents that are supposedly "on their way". but i'm sure, behind the very superficial outlook, pop means more to us then just a time to show everyone our creative glands and compare whos giving out the best present,the biggest present or whos not gving any presents. behind the colourful wrapping paper and the goodbye letters, their underline meaning beats even a tiffany and co. gift. ok, i'm just sayin it for the sake of saying it.. i actually wouldnt say no to a tiffany&co. gift. haha. but well. you get the point. gifts arent ment to be given cause "i have to". they are ment to be from the heart. yar.. they arent that important. and no, i'm not saying this cause i've prepared really cheapo presents for everyone. ok. they are not exactly up there among the expensive gift lists. hahas. but thats not why i'm crapping on and on. wot i'm trying (quite unsuccessfully) to say is pop should mean more than that. and i'm sure it does, deep down in our hearts, but it would be nice if someones response to my "pop is on the 17th!" wos " huh? we've only got one more cca left?!" or " huh? so fast? thats sad" instead of "oh no! i haven got my presents yet!"

ya. ok. dont mind me if you dont understand. i'm in one of those very thinking mood now. thinking about loads of trash if you ask me.

and if i could, i would live my sj life all over again. ok, but nows not the time to reminisce the past. i wos supposed to be doing my f and n 10 minutes ago.
and you're the place my life begins ;
and you'll be where it ends.

i'm in a highly retarded mood today. wos being mean to so many people and being a total brat. thank god for good natured friends. hahas.

will i break the record? 0 fer RV test? nevermind. at the least the old man is back. yea! my angel in disguise - the old man! i just found out.

Monday, July 5

bear with a blue shirt

just realize how good portugal actually is. after the euros. great la. been watchin reruns on the euro website. darn cool. but its abit small so i cant actually see the shuai ges faces.

i am expecting a 0 for my RV test. anything higher than that would be pure luck.
bestie just shared this is me.
the ultimaely the joke of the month
singapore hunk
if hes really the author, hes darn freaking hilariously malvolio-ish
if hes a faker, well, good one!
ahahs. effective stress relieve for fellow levelmates whom i presume are all struggling in relative velocity now. which i have already drowned and died in.
on the sidelines

aiyo
why did portugal lose? ronaldo wos so aiyo. so sad lar. poor portugal, homeground somemore. first country to lose a homeground match. :/ must be qt terrible.
not that i mind greece winning.. but cant they both win? then no one will be sad. :/ i'm so full of crap. but greece also qt good la. ta men da cheng le bu ke neng de ren wu (they fulfilled the impossible mission)! hahas. sounds familiar? well.. yar. i suppose they did well.
anyway, i think portugal have more cute guys- ronaldo, the no.2 guy, deco, and the gollie, ricaldo, and erm, thats why i wos rooting for portuagal all the way! ermm.. not very rational, but wot do you expect of me? oh, man of the match, theodore zagorakis wos qt cute too. hahas. but i think ronaldo shd have been mom. ermm. i cant justify myself cause he really did miss qt alot? but so wot? I think he shd have got it anyway.

sad case. but he looks cute.

i cant wait fer the world cup! suddenly i miss the other ronaldo, the buckteeth one. and i wanna see oliverkhan again laee.. though the greece gollie wos good, he seriously lacks in style. forever looks like hes praying to the football god.

Sunday, July 4

hua xie le hua you kai;
ni que bu zai hui lai

i went bugis shopping today. and i lost my beautifil >lmth old quiksilver gold belt. sniff sniff.

he acts like a spider he looks like a bug,
we should all just give him one big hug hahs.. watching spider1 with my cousins now. or rather,i wos watching, and will be watching, once i finish bloggin. and i really think gaoxing is damn cute. ((: hahas. no connection lar. but aiyo. also dunno wot i'm talkin abt.

i dont understand relative velocity at all! -pulls hair out-

(: someone influnced me with the niceness bug. now i feel like being nice to everyone.
nian shao shi hou
shui mei you meng
wu yi zhi zhong ni jian g xin yuan tou lou
jiu zai ni sheng ri de shi hou
wo jiang xiao xiao kou qin song
zui nan wang ji ni de xiao rong

you qing de xi shui man man liu
liu jin le ni wo de xin zhong
cheng zai qiu chang bian wei ni huan hu
ni die shang wo bei fu
ye li liu xing fei du
xiang xiang zhe ta ri de lu tu
ye feng ting zhe wo men zhuang zhi wu shu

nian shao shu hou
shui mei you chou
man qiang fen kai wei you ni neng ting de dong
mei dang wo shi yi de shi hou
ni jiang na shou ge chui zou
qin sheng you you jie wo xin you

shui ye de xi shui man man liu
liu dao le bie li de shi hou
qing pai ni de jian ding wo shuo
peng you bu yao tai chou chang
ni hong zhou ran zai xiao zhang
wo men de bu lu you fang xiang
cheng bai bu lun qiu mo jiang xi yi wang

duo nian yi hou
you zai xiang feng
wo men dou you le pi juan de xiao rong
wen yi sheng wo de hao peng you
he shi zai wei wo chui zhou
shi fou yi jiu shi fou yi jiu

ren sheng de ji yu qian bai zhong
dan you zhi xin chang xiang shou
ren xuan chang jiu xiao yuan chang liu

nian shao shi hou

Saturday, July 3

i never did change
its just that you didnt know me at the start.

a great big discovery by sheens.
we have :
-20 chapts of em
-19 chapts of am
-25 chapts of physics
-21 chapts of chem
-14 chapts of ss
-18 chapts of hist
-TWO lit books
-8 shou ces to study
in a grand total of 79 days.
excluding revisions, english stuffs, lit unseen, chinese compos and yingyongwen and a whole book of fandn.
ok. i believe in me. i can so do it.























not.
i fit in with the shadows

why is it always about you and you're never wrong?
today, vans is suffering from a civil war within.
another sunny day beaneath the cloudless sky.

Friday, July 2

dancing queen!

retro rocks! alliteration to you man. hahas. some of them looked retro, some looked really really good, some looked dumb, some look lame, and some look like they should be slapped (those goons who dont borther abt anything and just turn up in school u. like hello? your classmates spent so much effor to look soo good, or try to look good, and all you care is that you dont wanna appear lame and so you just spoil everyone elses effort? hello?). but the point is, those who borthered, i'm sure we all had funn looking stupid. 4hope! we SO rock! this is one of the few times i've actually seen our class sprit blazing so brightly. its much more rewarding then anywot prize we can get. :)) point is, we made our last BU day something we can all look back and laugh at. :)

i love my little feenix! thank you for helpin me manns! sooo nice larr! i'm so jealous of your talent. get a load of this!

cool ehh! :)) guess who guess who! hahahs.. well. and i've realized feng looks qt alot like dongjiaolian for the back! hahas.. i love you loads anyway!

so pleased with myself. made a really good buy today. :))

roses are red

阳光总在风雨后
请相信有彩虹

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