Friday, April 30

i'll just hang around and find some things to do
to take my mind off missing you.

mixed emotions.
wotever happened,
its o v e r.
i should learn to let go.
and i have to let go.
preferbly asap.

4hrs of chem today.
died.

my back neck stomach thighs ached like shit.
i'm so gettin old.

Thursday, April 29

did you know...
5cents from every Happy Meal sold goes to Ronald McDonald's Children's Charity?

napfa wos fine.
exp standing broad
yucks
pulled my grade down..
crap it.
at least i aint alone?
pro/na/ruyu: lets form the Cannot jump club :))

and i'm liking my teachers more and more.

i love my por.
the founding member of greeds.
we were joggin all da way down the hill.
with our final destination - macs.
a smile

It costs nothing but creates much.

It enriches those who receive it, without
improverishing those who give it.

It happens in a flash and the memory sometimes
lasts forever.

It creates happiness in the home, fosters Good
Will in business, and is the countersign of friends.

It is rest to the weary, daylight to the discouraged,
sunshine to the sad, and Nature's best antidote
for trouble.

It cannot be bought, begged, borrowed or stolen,
for it is something that is no earthly good to any
one till it is given away.

And if, you meet someone who is too weary to
give you a smile--leave one of yours.

For no one needs a smile quite so much as he
who has none left to give.

Wednesday, April 28

this is it.
its f i n a l l y here.
:))
after the [worth-it] long wait

minicom03pics.

at least its here.
better late den never.
gossip: food for the mouth.

so prodda my 2.4!
nikemaxair rocks!
haha.. think it wos my shoes
5items tomorrow.
and thats it!
wheee-

met tym, clement tan and sotong ball as i wos walkin out from sch
tym is l a m e
he wos like pullin my bag as i walked past den suddenly let go?
if i fell, he might have lost his job.
SO lame lol.
-.-"

Tuesday, April 27

by learning to fly
i shall soar.

happy belated becks!
know you prob wont read this.
(so i'll print this out fer ya:))
thanks fer being sucha great hope-r, english leader and ex-partner and friend.
we haven exactly been close since 3j,
but these 3years with ya really has been something.
:))
i love ya girl!
rock on!

i will do well fer 2.4 tomorrow!
or at least, i will complete 2.4 tomorrows.
hahas..
and i'll bring my sportshoes,
even though its prolly not gonna help
and i'll end up malu-ing myself tryin to act pro.
hahas. so wot?

old mans wos successful :))
i'm gettin slightly better at this.

Monday, April 26

it would do us all good to look at wot we have instead of wot we dont.

suddenly.
i just feel so incredibly lucky
i have loving family, friends, teachers.
my parents give me almost everything sensible i ask for
my sis's a pain in the neck, but thats wot god placed her there for isnt it? to be a pain in the neck. :)
my friends love me so much i cant believe they actually do.
and my teachers. -grinns.
wot more can i ask for?
so wot if not everyones happy with me?
at least some people are.
:))

we really should count wot we have and not wot we dont.
look man.
we have our parent alive, our friends alive, food to eat, schs to attend, friends who are there.
so wots a lil troubles?
so wot if you are missing out on a few marks?
so wot if someones irritating the crap outta you?
big fat hairy deal.
:))

my lit improved! :)
guess jacob will be off my back psycho-ing me to drop lit fer awhile.

eiz! you to-ta-lly ROCKED! i cant believe you came back fer me! -big hugggee faattt huggg- take care and get well! so we can make the friday date! :)) i love ya SOSOSOSOSO much!
qius! you also ar! take care and get well. and quit the letargic club! how can qiu qiu be energy-less! :)) comeon dear!

Sunday, April 25

the more you'll tell me i'm not gonna make it,
the harder i'll show you i can.

jie da huan xi end alr.
wot wld my sunday nights be w/o it?
:((

oh yes.
i never knew.
whos the sec1s in vesi?

Saturday, April 24

a knife under the smile

2 hr talk with the squadd
thats gotta be a record.
i got it larrr.
comeon guys.
wot can you not acheive with 17 of you workin together?
18, if you care to include me ... hahas.
pro fide man!
for the faith.
believe in yourself, if not, in ur squad.

hq's effiency is unbeatable.
we got there at 1.
and got interviewed at 6?
cldnt they like tell us to come at 4 or something
waitin is fine lar
but not so li pu also wot
ssgt mike wos darn nice? hahsa.
he had to waited till we all finished and left?
and he when he wos us take the pic and ended up teachin me so some technical terms on the camera?
which, sadly, i cant remember?

the interview itself wosnt that bad?
hahsa. zcommissioner so funny
i wos fighting every urge to laugh?
and charles wos scrutinizing me with his beady eyes?
den the zc when on and on and on for like 1/2 hr?
and we only had to ans like 1 question?
freaked for nothing

and seriously, i nv saw the importance of the secetary and sec3nco til today
:))

Friday, April 23

*_p a p e r c l o u d s_ says:
youre going for sergeant interview tmr?
*_p a p e r c l o u d s_ says:
whee
*_p a p e r c l o u d s_ says:
thats funn
such a feelings coming over me ; there is wonder in most everything i see ((: says:
not its not
such a feelings coming over me ; there is wonder in most everything i see ((: says:
its freaky!
*_p a p e r c l o u d s_ says:
why still must interview
*_p a p e r c l o u d s_ says:
not abit act high class lah
such a feelings coming over me ; there is wonder in most everything i see ((: says:
so scary!
such a feelings coming over me ; there is wonder in most everything i see ((: says:
shd i tie my hair ornot?
such a feelings coming over me ; there is wonder in most everything i see ((: says:
shd i smile or not
such a feelings coming over me ; there is wonder in most everything i see ((: says:
and the questions all sound very challenging!
*_p a p e r c l o u d s_ says:
just smile and show your changi airport power
*_p a p e r c l o u d s_ says:
or u write on a piece of vanguard sheet
*_p a p e r c l o u d s_ says:
i want to be a little little little sergeant
*_p a p e r c l o u d s_ says:
can u help me to achieve this dream?
*_p a p e r c l o u d s_ says:
hah not jingjing
my memories are mine.
so leave them alone.
they are M I N E.

sgt promotion tomorrow
i'm like Freaked?
with a capital F
checkin and re-checked my u fer like 5 times?
hahas. and crash sessoning of my beret now.
finally got new hairnets
and they cost like 2.50 for 2?
do anyother ppl buy hairnets? why issit so ex?
wot a ripoff.
wot if i dont pass
i wonder wot kidda brainles-hypocritical ans i'm come up with tomorrow.

todays like so slack?
5 free periods.. and a super funn cme?
i still think my charades are quite good.. hahas.
skating on thin ice! wellls..
seems like ages since its been this way.

self deluded.
and happy that way.
:))
thanks for the effort of tryin to make me feel better.

feng feng! takecare! dont eat so many durians next time..
lao qiuqiu! happy happy 16th!

Thursday, April 22

To the girl who turns 16 today:

my squadmate of 3 years 3months and 23 days
my hope-er of 1year 3 mths and 23 days
my fd/cpbs nco for 8mths 18days
my zie member of < 1 year 3 mths and 23 days
my QV bang chairman of <3mths and 23 days
my bestest best buddy since forever.



shes always there for me. rain or shine.
whether it maybe one of my stupid lil probs or my moodie times,
she wos never too tired to put me down.
never too dishearten to believe in me,
never too annoyed to not listen to me.
she lifted me up when I cldnt reach (not technically, cause she’ll get squashed)
she gave me faith when I didn’t believe
she helped up up whenever I go down
she’ll never hesitate to prod me down when I’m floating to high off.
I've found a companion who knows what I mean
When I try to describe what I feel.
She understands almost everything as if she were me;
She knows wot I feel and thinks my thoughts.



We been through so much so much so much:
we helped the sec4squad04 rock
we passed anco/bnco
we made it through all the various sj camps
we cried our way through pop (rather, shes the one crying)
we bitched gossiped abt dunno how many snrs/jnrs/squadmates
we got yelled at by huiwen and liching and a host of others for yakking too much
we whispered and fidgeted in squad
we learnt nursing
we practised commands and timings
we complain and complain and moan and moan abt our posts
we trained for so many competitions
we discussed her many lovelifes revolving round SKs.
we act are spas
we are lame pokks
we rocked one, three, four hopes.
we entertained mrstan and mr tan
we gossiped and laughed at clement tan
we bright up mr gans and mrs seahs and mrs ongs life
we flunk our amaths and phy and chem. and emaths and dunno wot else
we puff and pant when ever we walk up the 5 flights of stairs
we refuse to walk exposed to the elements
we are kiasu pokks
we drool at food (but sometimes, she’ll “weep with joy”)
we town.
we hang out at j8
we go yckmrt where she takes her 13 and I take my 70
we laugh at our eiz pokk
we pokk at porpor
we gossip with pamms
we pia for our 2.4
we work hard
we cried
we laughed.
((of cause she also did bring abt quarrels/ hurt/ upset/ fights into my life
but I wonder wot my world would be without it.
it wldnt be ½ 1/2 as colourful as wot it is now.))
we fought and we made up.
we always got back in action stronger than before.
we learn more abt each other everytime
we complain and complain and moan and moan abt each other, but deep down, she’ll always be my qiu qiu to me
we trouble our oic.
we argue abt beckhams “shuai-ness”
we disagree abt the better show to catch : wan jia deng huo or feng shen bang
we fight over gens 8days to catch the first glimpse of the synopsis.
we did all those. and more.
together.



she loved me even though she knows me
I cannot thank her enough for that.
but Thanksanyway..
y o u rock my world.
and I love you.

I love my qiu qiu! have a smashing 16!

[asume the time now is 12am of the 23april :))]
wot you think dont matter to me anymore.
simply because you no longer matter to me.

something clique :
if you love someone, let them go.
seriously, every time you think this way, you know, its not like you have any other alternative.
this is just a nice way of putting it,
of making yourself feel better.
it puts you in a good light.
it makes you feel great that you're noble enough to let go.
wotever the case
it works.
at least, i think it does.

eiz is NOT makin it as a lian
just as i'm not making it as maths bio student of the year.
give it up woman.
hahas kekes.
i'm like a dragon
you're like the centipede.

ss wos fine.
glad i didnt study.
hahas.. so fake-able.
yeas. i love source based!
:))
drills were fine.
homad wos darn funny.
hahas. esp ms sers-
lunch wos fine.
hormons inbalanced again?
wos being spas?
:/

8 more sjs to go.
i miss it alr. hahas
so attached to sj.
passing out wld be like taking a part of me away from me.
sgt promotions this sat?
interview?
wells very can make it lar.
why do i deserve to be sgt?
hmmms.
i think i'll just stone at the interviewer.
unless its leekoon or someone
haha. den maybe i'll smile.
either ways,
i dont think i can make it.

Wednesday, April 21

i want someone
to hear the things i hear,
to see the things i see,
to feel the things i feel
to c o m p l e t e l y understand me.
and this crap i'm going through
i want a clone.
badly.
you broke my world, made me strong
thank you
messed up my dreams, made me strong
thank you

my por and pamms rocks my world
lunchin is a whole new experiance with them.
every single time.
((:
we are going to the night safari after the big Os!
wheee-

i wanna go for camps!
the kind you sleep in tents and have make-ur-own-rafts competitions!
(:
so utterly funn!

lessons were pretty fine.
school is gettin better
ey, favourite sitting partner?
-grinns.
all i want now is to do well in tests?
hahas. how possible is that?
but oh wells, thats a goal!
better den nothing.

take cares : xiao Q!

Tuesday, April 20

pet peeves

i'm tired.
-of dragging myself to the old mans
-of him not letting me go off until like 5 hrs later
-of both his grandsons making me so dead jealous cause they're always napping when i get there
-of tryin to communicate with him about maths in chinese !^%^#^
-of falling asleep on my book in the mid of the lesson
-of going to the toilet, sitting on the toliet bowl and trying to catch a snooze. (one word : phatathic.)
-of him ALWAYS taking away my almost-completed work and telling me to look at his better ones.
-of me spacing toward the end of the lesson and going : ya, orh, un-huh when acctually he couild jolly well have been talkin in finnish and i wont even know the difference.
-of walking back to the mrt station ard 10 kms away. ok. so thats not exactly true

and most of all.
of his horrible (and i mean TERRIBLE and downright atrocious, even worst then me and vince combined) writing!
when you're fighting to stay awake, handwriting like this :

its not helping one bit. at all!
if you can figure out wots hes writing,
you are the king and i hail you.
but acct i can lar. sorta.
i'm sure pamms can too! hahas
diciples of the old man..
but when its 4 in the afternoon after a grulling day,
your brain simply do not have enough energy to work out these codes.
Does your name begin with: V?
You are individualistic & you need freedom, space & excitement. You wait till you know someone well before committing yourself. Knowing someone means psyching her/him out. You feel a need to get into his/her head to see what makes him tick. You are attracted to eccentric types :)) . You believe that age is no barrier (!!!). You are good at responding to danger, fear & suspense.

:)) i especially like the age is no barrier thinggy! hahsa.
r i g h t s.

august babys.
Loves to joke
Attractive
Suave and caring
Brave and fearless
Firm and has leadership qualities
Knows how to console others
Too generous and egoistic
Takes high pride of oneself
Thirsty for praises
Extraordinary spirit
Easily angered
Angry when provoked
Easily jealous
Observant
Careful and cautious
Thinks quickly
Independent thoughts
Loves to lead and to be led
Loves to dream
Talented in the arts, music and defence
Sensitive but not petty
Poor resistance against illnesses
Learns to relax
Hasty and rushy
Romantic
Loving and caring
Loves to make friends

wot inaccuracy.

Monday, April 19

sometimes i need to remember just to breathe
sometimes i need you to stay away from me
sometimes i'm in disbelief i dont know
somehow i need you to go.

when i'm alone
i'm frowning most of the times theses day
this is no good.
i wonder why toos.

my bestie rocks my world
no resons needed
no strings attached.
i love my bestie! :))

my diet is failuretic.
blahhhs

Sunday, April 18

we r still weaslers or dunno how u spell it no matter how u spell the word!

i love my qiuqiu
my eiziepok
my shijie
my oic.

if only i can master enough corouge to love me.
that would be great
i'm doubting my sainity for y o u

tay ping hui rocks
lying on that bed of 7000 nail like that
i wish i could like on it too.
lie on it and never sit up.

you aint the only one who wish i didnt exist
i do too.
i wish i didnt exist.
i wish i wosnt me
ok. i'll settle for something less
just let me forget abt some things.
if i must, everything then.
permernant concussion.
yea. that'll do nicely.
i hate the lie i'm living

5566 is like so xun beside everybody else?
ppl are like hinging on the jaws of death and they're like. singing?

jie da huan xi is endin next week. :(
must all good things come to a closure sometime?
i suppose so.

ru guo shuo fen shou shi ku tong de qi dian
na zai zong dian zhi qian wo yuan yi zai ai yi bian
tune in to god.

i'll give it up for just one more day.
i'll give it all up for just one more day
with you.

is there anything i can do to forget you ever existed?
if there is i would do it,
wotever it takes.

Saturday, April 17

here we go again
on the battlefield again
we'll beat others through and through
give it up for mighty blue !

-skipps ard
blue won!
we are the c h a m p s
no d o u b t s !
:):):):):):):):)
-bbbeeeaagggg grin. -

i'm like so prodda
- shuwei da blu CAPTAIN! :))
- pamms da red cheerleader!
- feng the yellow mummy-last leg-runner
- zoie the green v-cap.
- susu the sports leader. although ocp did all da work? ahhas.
- blue for rockin sn !
- red hse fer redeaming themselves :))
- yellow for forcing me to put on my sunglasses
- clement tan for cheerleading
- ms lee siew feng for running even though honestly, she cant run. :))
- porpor the red level co. fer cheerin so hard even though she has nil voice left.
- yellow's lovely yellow stripe across the leg which is so darn cool! and the bandana thinggy which is like so cute? :))
- greens "qing" chessy thinggy. which wos so amusing.
- band for standing in the hot scorching sun in their blazer and for daring to stand there in their barreas, which they seriously, seriously, cannot pull off. :))

:))
today wos fun
pd wos slack and funn
the sorchin sun wos no hinderence at all. hhas
poor band though... ahhas.
wore my blue shirt twice even though it wos ard 10 sizes too small for me?
hahas. being enthu wot :))
v i v a o b l u e!

saw loads of ppl.
jiaxi came back! :))
hhaas.
and huazhong guys were like being super extra

oh. er... yea,
happy international friendship day.

sn- brought the house down!

Friday, April 16

4321 give it to me baby
aha aha
blue is gonna win it
aha aha
check the colour see da light.
we've got victory on our side
we are one the one to roar
together blue team's gonna score
ohh... psyche out!
ohh.. blue house!
take it to the limit
take it to the top
strong and mighty blue house
we just cant be stopped!
so get this now and get this stright
blue will dominate.

do you really want it?
yeah!
do you really want it?
yeah!
go go go allez allez allez
go blue go allez allez allez
tonights da night - we're gonna celebrate
cup of life..
allez allez allez

we are the c h a m p s
no d o u b t s
blue is the very best
it shows in our fight and zest

oh yea?
oh yea!
oh yea?
oh yea!
ohohohoh yea
stamp the ground hard
stamp stamp
shake the ground mad
shake shake
whos the best here?
blue house!
make it louder!
blue house!!
wots the colour?
blue house!!!
g o a l !!!
i hope
blue will win this year.
i supposed we all do.
hope that our hses win lar.
:)

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain,
Telling me just what a fool I've been.
I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain,
And let me be alone again.

Now the only girl I've ever loved has gone away.
Looking for a brand new start!
But little does she know that when she left that day.
Along with her she took my heart.

Rain, please tell me, now does that seem fair
For her to steal my heart away when she don't care
I can't love another, when my heart's somewhere far away.

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain,
Telling me just what a fool I've been.
I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain,
And let me be alone again.

Rain, won't you tell her that I love her so
Please ask the sun to set her heart aglow
Rain in her heart and let the love we know start to grow.

i am
just like mrs kingshaw
i refuse to believe the truth that is staring in my face.

you are no longer here
ikan bili : a thing of the past

crapped my phy test.
den had phy remedial
me and qiu and mrs ong
learnt so much!
and mrs ongs really cute!
she looks like doreen!
:))

i know it aint your fault.
i should have been there for you

Thursday, April 15

left out.
again

ignored.
as usual

and i though i wos used to it already

rahhhs.
this i suck
wots new?
i want the spoon (not the fork but the spoon)

my agumentative essay is a big joke
in the negative sense.
:(
my english is down in the dumps man.

uh oh.
i'm starting to get lost in transformation?
thats bad.
wot da hell is inverse M?

phy tomorrow.
y u c k s.
lucky eizie pokk.
guess she'll be sleepin during the test toms while i try hard and squeeze all my brain juice and rack my brains and pull out my hair tryin to figure wot the hell is it abt.
:/

studied in taohua shop with por
i love my porrr! ( more than the -ahem ahems :))
den shuyu/cheryl/yuping so cute?
walk in and out?
hahas. :))
my nice jnrs.

assembly wos b o r i ng
or at least the few parts that i heard wos?
wos sleepin in that oven of the hall?
and i'm never gonna sit beside/near/anywhere within reach of pamms during assembly anymore
she wos like proddin me awake ard 20 times?
and i fell asleep like 21 times.

rahhs.
my lifes a big joke.
wish i didnt exist.

too much is expected of me

Wednesday, April 14

[*]

grrr!
cant believed i sleep in phy!
-freakin irritated with me-
and i wos like drooling?
den mrs ong said i wos sweating?
like... :/

i never have to touch that blue poster again!
:))
whheees!
how worth celebrating
that and i did well fer hist.
i got a well done sticker?
hahas. think mrs tan bought new stickers.
cause almost everyone had one. :)
she claims its motivation for our hist.
shes so cute! :))

all houses had cheer prac today
trying to redeem themselves..
but why issit there were like 3/4 of the sch ard?
so now we all know who pons.

qiu wosnt on speaking terms with the chem lab today. she
-broke a boiling tube
-made 2 holes in 2 filter paper and had to redo the experiment thrice, until finnally, on her 3rd try,
-split copper carbonate (or wotever it is. some black powder+ hcl anyway) on herself
how well done. :))
lets face it, she cant filter.
hahas.

sok. is funny.
:))
hilarious.
i hope the both of you are fine.
i'm so impressed at the speed they patch things up.

conflicts both in and out.
i wonder how you can stand it.
e u r o p e

Home to the EPL
The queen and the beautiful French alps
Lush green pastures where cows gaze
And the Normandy beach where I laze
Auschwitz with the concentration camps
Clarence horse with its chandelier lamps
Fashion runaways of paris
Belgium with its chocolates-bliss

by eileen lee.

Tuesday, April 13

do you really want it?

6 rds tomorrow
n o t g o n n a m ak e i t m a n

blue poster sucks.
again.
as usual
you're it
you're the Ultimate
it's automatic
im sure of it.
no lie
so dont even try
to tell me that you're not the guy
cause i've been waiting all my life for someone just like you
cause you're it
you're the Ultimate you.


i love the blu and yellow cheer song!

sports day rehersal today
i wanted to be in the contigent!
hahas. miss the fam dance and all the crap
but on the other hand,...
wells.
i cant have the best of both worlds.
and i'm happy with pd!
grp2-a.
didnt catch whos in it as well.
exp feng and nana.
hahas. thats enough lar.
yeas. we can spend sports da laughin at people and being mean
:))
shuwei wos damn enthu!
hahsa. my captain.
and blue rocked sn today!
the cheer wos kindda pokk though.
think red cheer wos the best
:)
go pamm! hahas.
but its kindda earlie to say larr

my phy prac rocks!
hahas. r i g h t s
but i'm pretty good with the magnet
i know which is north and which is south pole
:)

yellowcards is gettin nicer by the min. :))
thanks

Monday, April 12

red house, as you all know, we are LAST in the secondary section

I DID WELL FER LOCUS!
-shirks!
even better than feng ! whahsa
-zhuai look-
for the first and last time
:))
so prodda me!
whahsa.. must be some luck ehs?
but i screwed chinese today.
wot the hell?
someone shd just band wu xiu er from setting papers?
she sets like budda scriptures for us to die?
flucked it anyway.
b a d l y.
and i studied can?
rahhhs. nvm. at least i did well fer maths! :))
yea! managed to weasel outta not doin f and n hmwk. :)
thought i wos dead or something.

everyone!
go watch glass slippers. - korean show by jin xian zhu
VERY NICE!
i wos like watchin till i cried?
hahsa
and not many shows have that power.
go watch it man!
its damn nice i swear!

i know you wos damn upset.
i dont know wot i can do.
but you mean the world to me.
i just want you to know.
i love ya dear.
thanks fer being so strong.
bu kui shi QV bang de co-chairman!

blue house all da way!
i think living is the most impressive thing
you just left us
but the people left behind
are all starting to move on, to talk abt the future and they will get married too
the empty space you left behind
to me it still seems just as big
but people seemed to have forgotten the empty space you left behind.
after a period of time,
will i let someone replace the emptiness you left behind?
and in this world, will there be someone who loves me more than you?

Sunday, April 11

howdy partner

went to my dads friends birthday party
bored the socks outta me
they had this cowboy theme.
but nobody adhered to it.
exp for the hosts and the waiters and the band there?
kaos. think they are so freakin loaded?
catered from hilton?
but it wos damn nice!
:))
and the soviener wos like royce chocs?
rich people. hahas

the nkf thinggy wos qt nice..
sharon aw like so pro?
steppin on knifes?
budden how come no blood one ar?
its like theoriatically impossible? :/
and e n e r g y!
it wos at phathatic, just shot a few hoops
make that 2 hoops
and fouled up like loads of time?
but at least they were eyecandies!
and niunai seriously need a haircut.

drummers rock man!
the mayday drummer is wayyyy cool!

i am d e a d for f and n.
dad, why do I have to grow up?

It is your philosophical set of the sails that determines the course of
your life. To change your current direction, you have to change your
philosophy not your circumstances.

Instead of saying, "I sure hope things will change". Learn that the only
way things are going to change is when you change.

Disgust and resolve are two of the great emotions that lead to change.
You will generally change yourself for one of two reasons: Inspiration
or Desperation

Saturday, April 10

blazing down the highay to rockstar land

i decided.
i love my oic!
i love my squad!
i love my feng!
i love my sec3squad!
i love my pamms

cca wos great as usual.
:)
triage and fd.
wells.
and the bottle.
wos qt happy just now.
somehow, i dont feel as good abt cca as i did just know.
possibly with some enlightenment?
but still, sec3s,
your nco loves the whole lot of yas. :)

i know things arent as perfect as they seem to be
hopefully, they arent as ugly as i think it is.

training camp doesnt seem exciting as i thought it'll be
oic and gang. really did like so much?
i feel like a useless thing hangin abt makin noise
wotever.
melocolonic now ehs?

Tuesday, April 6

deja vu

oreas rocks.
twist dip and lick. ( or issit dunk?)
:) yums!
and its really cheap too.
$2 for 12packs!
hahsa
know i shdnt be eatin em now..
the crumbs are all over my cathodes and anodes and electric cells.
and i'm gonna grow f a t.
or rather, fatter.

enens friendster/quiz on the guy thinggy is SO darn lame and funny..
the kindda enen thing.
> haha. i think mingjie wun even reach half of
this ahaha. but most impt is character.. :)) n
clerical skills. :))
hahas...
so itchin to forward it to mingjie..

i dont like hate like the scratch on my phone batt.

i wanna take a power nap.

powernap - a nap consisting of not more than 25 mins. will make one feel rejuvinated and re-energized and ready to go again.
or so says geraint wong. but i highly doubt a powernap is enough for me. more like 50 power naps.
my voice is smiling
my tears are falling
do you know this over the other side of the phone?

rahhs.

saw wyn is sch today.
and she went : "your dad like to drive car issit?"
:/
and the connection is?

my hair is at the sucky stage

how do i hide
my misery
the place i lost you at
the fragrance of your hair spreads hurriedly
i already cant keep up
i close my eyes
i still can see the traces of your leaving
under the moonlight
i keep serching
for the shadow i missed

if breaking up is the starting point of pain
then before the end point
i'm willing to love again
the love that i wanna tell you but dont dare
will anyone understand?

i will space out
then forget you
and then close my eyes tightly
thinking of the day when someone will replace
lets me miss you no more
i will space out
then smile
and then close my eyes tightly
thinking of that year
your gentle face
before i forget them.

the tears in my heart
blinds my vision
the broken melody
no matter how i fix it
you cant hear my feelings anymore
the change in you
is like a broken melody
no matter how i fix it
it just not right
your change in you i can differenciate

i keep silent
your words arnt much too
wots unsaid between the two of us?
after the smile our expession finally turns upset
(holding your hands)
asked if you have decided to leave
i suddenly smile
like the shimmering tears
floating and shaking in the breeze
till i can revolve around you
your tears fall silently
you say you'll remember the good of me
i turn up the corner of my mouth to smile

who did you give the best of you too?
i cant catch back it no matter how much i chase
i understand that the leaves that leave the tree
belongs to the world of the ground, wiltered.

the broken melody
play it again
you're not inside my world
i play till theres blisters on my fingers
but i still cant keep you by my side.
the broken melody
no matter how i fix it
you cant hear my feelings anymore
the change in you
is like a broken melody
no matter how i fix it
it just not right
your change in you i can differenciate
ru+xin = shu.

somethings are irritating the crap outta me
and i'm irritating the crap outta the whole word.
urghs
i am disguested with my attitude.
must be pms.

sch wos ok.
pretty good.
i think my school life has been on an uphil since sitting in front.
i am acctually studying.

did 12 rds today!
susu did 11..
:)
but i'm still dreading 5 tomorrow.
...ironic?
she darn funny lol.
like asked me play badminton with her friends?
and i wosnt on form cause i didnt have my own racket
and had to make do with the lousy-strings-falling-off gym ones.
i still dont understand how she can jog with her hands on her hipps.
issnt that obstructing?
:/


i can tell that you dont know me anymore.
why cant i just give it up?
seeing that theres no point.
no point at all.

Monday, April 5

oceans avenue

just remembered
i had this really nice dream..
cldnt remember wot
something abt huggs and chem?
with my bestie (who wos wearing a highly reflective silver gown)
cant remember how they all fall into place..
but i woke up with a smile on my face.

i wished i could have stayed in my dreams
f o r e v e r.

you took my feeling and ripped it as though i have none.
i'm trying to hate you.
trying and failing
but i'll try again.

prefect porlie wans
oh mans. did you have to be so nice and sweet?
:/
i dont deserve it mans..
but thanks dear.
thanks loads
i love you so so so much.
just for being you.
view from heaven

the band yellowcard are nice!
i want the cd with the view from heaven and miles away!
its darn nice lol!
but i'm like dead broke. fer at least 3-4 more weeks?
anyone wants to get me a pres?
yellowcards cd please!

yea! the pizza i made in f&n wos nice!
-grinns
but i had to pay fer it by burning my hand twice?
and the blister is like small and black and i feel like poping it.. :)
i got away with not studyin for the test and not handing in hmwk
eiz had to be my dai zui gao yang
gurong though she didnt hand in instead of me.
either that or she still cant remember my name.

bestie and me were pointin at the pmb and discussing abt their photos
den i spotted susu one and went : SUSU!
wos gonna go into further discussion with eiz when i heard a wotever
den i spotted susu like standing 20cm away?
luckily i caught myself in the nick of time.
:/

have 3001 things to do.
i desperately need 8 days a week!

Sunday, April 4

binary compound

i cant imagine me not waking up in the mornin and wearing something other then the sn pinafore
i cant imaging myself breaking this routine.
doing wot i do now,
day after day after day.
but yet.
somepart of me really wants to move on.
to the next part of my life
to start anew.
to get away.
to not have to face this anymore.
to get a new life.
there are so many things worth staying for.
but there are equally as many thing i wanna runnaway from.

i'm no good with things i dont like - studying
i'm no good with things i like - sj
i'm no good with people.
i'm no good with seah
i wish i cld just dissappear.
i wish i didnt exist.
i shall pretend i dont.
i'm not angry. wots the point?
just resigned.
i should have known all along.
i will never tell you anything again
you threw the faith i gave you into the dumps.

i miss the you
you wos before
the you that i used to know
the you thatdied.

or maybe, its just me.

yes. i quite think its me.

maybe i shd just give it up.
yes. that wot i will try to do.

living the lie

s i a n d e d.
studied the whole day
and finally,
i think i know something abt electrolysis.

Saturday, April 3

948

lit saminar wos totally sianed.
hot. sticky. bored.
and i wos like sleepin and sweatin like a pig.
had to take out my jacket and shoes
haha. so nan de..

late fer cca again
think i'm takin over qius position as latecomer of sj.. :/
how flatterin

i can make a nice ring pad. :)
and i miss change paradeeee....

sec1s for fd is funn.
hahas. realized their not as dead and unfun as they seem to be..
wos enjoyable lar.
they have the attitude
they just need time.

i love ppmtx.
and the cards there.
:)

Friday, April 2

the show ends
i see the whole place full of empty seats
the light turns on

phychem wos qt ok.
the uncle mr seah wos qt ok.
he looked like my pri sch friend though.

lit samina tomorrow.
sure darn crap one.
how to take notes for 3+hrs in the drama studio?
back sure pain.
i can feel it alr.

i thought you were different from the rest of them
how very wrong i wos.
you're exactly like them.
maybe worst.
and i hate myself for refusing to anowledging that.

dead tired.
haven had much sleep these days thanks to the maths/hist/lit test this week
i made it anyway.
as in made it through, but flunked da test.
shall go to bed.
:)
nights world

i will get down to my owed stuff tomorrow yes?
or at the very least,i will try.
too hot to handle

eeps.
so i survived today!
thought i cldn make it
maths it in the afternoon is baddddd
its like.. attending lessons in greece.
just copied notes fer da sake of coping and so seah wouldnt go on
she wos being so scandeously lame..

got phy tuition later
:/
and i like no nothing?
wotever. shall worry abt it. when the the time comes
blahhs.
wos so tempted to go ikea with yt and dunno who.
but...i'm guai.
r i g h t s
more like my mum wld totally commit murder.

the libaray is sucha good place to sleep.
except for the no-nonsense stick in da mud librarian.

lit wos
so screwed.
y u c k s
not enough time at all?
i really need to train my left hand to write as well.

realized i'm getin more vulgar.
:/
shit

cca toms!
the usual wot else?
hahas.. wonder if i can make the 4 rds?
think i'll be laggin like hell.
but da 3 rds wos good today..
:) i shd think we made it well under 7?
thanks to eiz lar of cause.
i dont have such heng xin.
hahas. or the stamina

and qiu qiu f i n a l l y got caught for being late.
hahas.. shes like the unbeatable-being-late-and-not-get-caught-queen
and the prefect wos tailing along her all the way to the hockey pitch. funny thing.
nevermind lar dear..
shang de shan duop zhong yu hu...
at least you were earlier den xiaolin?

Thursday, April 1

i try and i try and i try and i try
and i try
to convince, to persuade, to lie to myself that
i mean something to you.

somehow, it aint working.
warings > reflects and affects its occupants

i feel like hooper
too much kingof the castle.
i'm no where near completion
still stuck in the red room.

dreadin tom.
lit test.
1 and a 1/2 hr of seah.
phy tution.
maths tution

i wanna pon.

i hate the facade i hide behind
give it time, you'll learn to fly.

i swear i tried.

chem remedial wos the ultimate bore
mrs ang cldnt make it, so we had to have evelyn tan, who is totally seah's bestie.
i dont think i learnt anything
or maybe its cause i wos snoozin away?

didnt go fer old man.
laggin like hell in lit.
i will try to do well decently this time.

you're stepping on my head you know?
its not exactly the best feelin in the world.

roses are red

阳光总在风雨后
请相信有彩虹

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