Thursday, March 31

ALEX! ((: Happy happy belated seventeen!! Thanks for being such a delightful member of the char bor club! Though I've known you for around 2 mths, you're still up there among my ranking of favourite char bor of all times. (: Thanks for always making me feel so honey fuzzy and making me believe for 1/2 a second that my laughter is really nice. I'm sorry for poking at your palms and dor sometimes forgetting to lie to you about how cute you are. I promise to stop being fasinated with your kah mor and start to TRY really hard to think of you as a cute guy (But ahem ahem is really as cute as it gets!). I totally miss stalking you-know-who with you and hearing you and aaron go on about your you-know-whos. :D I cant wait to meet up on sat. I love you char bor!
Way away, away from here I'll be


Things aint the same anymore. I've been this gray cloud floating around school and it feels like I'm always alone. I think its the new class and everything. I think the class is pretty cool but most of them have their 'partner' or whatever you call it. Its hard to just barge in. Making 'friends' is easy peasy, but to just automatically becoming attached to someone is just wierd. I dont think I do well alone. Since sec1, I've got my buddies right from the first day of school. And in aj at least there was chrystal and jac (man I miss you two hell loads!) so I havent really gone through the stage of not having someone to go home and to the toilet and to hang out with. The 38 people are alright. Normas with the tk girls and Dars got his Gary and Harrys just never around. I'm alone and hating it and I wonder if anyone noticed.


I went for the ODAC talk again yesterday and it was a total clone of the first, only longer. I wonder how Mr Lim manages it. And I realized so many of the first 3mths j1 odacians are gone. Theres Keng, kwancwan, angie, yuhua and chuanfa to name a few. Its just not complete going for ODAC stuff without a mean comment from meow meow. And I hate to miss him. :( I really hope ODAC wants me. Seemingly, more people are giving up the ODACian dream so possibly, hopefully, there wont be selections. In the sad event that there is, I might just miraculousy manage to pitch a tent so quick they'll totally want me. :))


I am barely making through lectures. I'm not hopelessly lost, but I aint keeping up either. I hate all the rubbish talks on PE and SOP and SA and whatever whatever. I just sit in there and either sleep of think about everyone and everything else and feel cold, sad and sorry for myself.


Its been a week, and I'm still finding it hard to accept that everyones moved on. Thirtyeight has split even though it doesnt seem like it. Jac and Chrystal no longer gossiping with me, Siews singing her heart out in N, Rongs getting her degree, Gaos back home. My morning partner left me morning-partnerless and no one to msg/call/yell at/stalk with. Cherie hasnt come by at 7.17am every morning just to say hi. AJ didnt keep the char bor club together. Aarons no longer stalking in AJ, Alexs not around to tell me how much he likes my laughter. I haven heard a meow meow insult in so long. Yuhua hasnt told me "hey darling, do you miss me?" in ages. I havent had soccer practise and endured trevor's winner one side, loser one side policy. Kasim hasnt trashed my ass in forever. The soccer team hasnt complained about doing warm ups and stamina training and spastic looking socks. Zhihui hasnt told me how loser I am. I miss them all.


I started crying while typing abt the Chrytal and Jac part. I so want them to be back, back back.


You know what they like to say about only treasuring something when its gone? They only say that so much cause its true.


No one likes to read a sad blog, but no one likes to type a sad entry either.

Tuesday, March 29

Everyone everyone! Come to the soccer booth to sign up tomorrow! Espcially if you're a female. ((:
Zone One, Number One.


It was raining on Sun, but being a conscientious OCT (i.e Officer cadet in training), I went down to view the once in 50 years Colours Parade anyway. I saw the President 20m away AND learnt so much! (: Woohoo! I cannot think of a better way to spend that day. hah. Ok it really wasnt THAT bad.

Monday, March 28

And I don't wanna be, don't wanna be wrong


((: Got so much to say, but I am pretty glad orientation is over. More later as aways. :D

Saturday, March 26

Wouldn't wanna wake the eyes that make me melt inside


This week has been life changing, with me deciding finally that Arts will be what I am for the next two years and most prob forever unless I decide to do engineering at NTU. So bye micrometer screw gauges and electrolytes! Hah. You could take it that I have no guts to take up the challenge and you're probably correct. But I cant see myself building stuff or working with testtubes anyway, so I guess its alright. :D At least I was a sciencer for an approximately 2 days?


I'm dead sorry cause I left Por behind in the sci fac (Someone save her from the F maths geeks!) but we can study maths and econs together dear! And I'll tell you a little about lit and you'll speak greek to me abt physics! Now doesnt that sound great. I love you dearie. Much much beyond the walls of faculty!


Then there was Orientation two, a far FAR cry from O1. I bet my dwelling secretly hates me. Some clown trying to up the spirits, cheering like some goon, and forcing enthusiasm down their throats. Oh, and disturbing them when they're trying to go through some chim and lifethreatening f-maths prob. Ok, maybe I'm stretching it a little. There are some pretty nice and enthu people around. Thank God for em. ((: But I still cant wait till O2s over even if it means lessons. I cant wait for my new funky class!


And Cecs, me and eileen FINALLY got time and went out today! Oh I miss cecs wierd temper and eileens futile attempt at resisting her dictatorship. They're such funny people and its cool the way it seems as though nothings changed since the last time we hit town, which was 2 year back for Bruce Almighty. (: Actually something has! Eileens taller and cooler now (even if she still doesnt know where HMV is. ((:


And finally, I LOVE THIRTYEIGHT! I'll bet we're the coolest class AJs ever seen!

I super super love this photo! Me, siew, rong and ka ho!

Friday, March 25

I miss you, miss you!

Thursday, March 24

Stuck on Repeat


I'm back in AJ ARTS! ((: Ultimately, I'm an artsy at heart.


I'll update soon. Enjoy good friday! (:

Wednesday, March 23

so as your blood's running thin your time's running out;
no one will be listening, not even when you shout


And if you care, I'm in AJC Science. But I'm very afraid of what is to come. It suddenly hit me in the face that the subjects are threatening, I dont actually need the science subject for my U course and then theres the 'geeks' to add on. Hah, it seems that my earlier determination to prove everyone that Van CAN do science is dwindling. I'm childish and immature and I have no clue what I want in life - this I am fully aware. Therefore, I am undecided on if I should get my ass back in arts. And then again, my english has proven to be not as capable as I imagine it to be, so possibly I mightnt do all that well in arts either. So think think think. Apparently, mumsie decided to make the desision of wanting a sciencer in the house, so I'm stuck I guess. I might regret - come on, as much as I would like to believe in myself, Science is something that doesnt come naturally to me. But I'll work my ass off, be a nerd and I'll live happily ever after.


I DONT CARE who I'm kidding I can do it if I try hard enough. (:


I would also like to pretend orientation was a blast and happy and how I met 50 other fabulous people. Thats how an OGF is supposed to feel cause you know how much we love AJ and would kiss every single dustbin that has A J C printed on it. Hah. I wished they kicked me out together with Mark. But Kengsiong is a terrific partner. No, REALLY. ((:

Saturday, March 19

A new life to start , I may be leaving but you're always in my heart


It kills to talk, so enjoy the silence while it lasts, hopefully, not for long. Damn. And I'm the Group IC for tomorrow, wheee- what fun.


Bestie! We're both caught up in our new mugger lives and its hard to talk everyday. I miss you too, and yes, we'll catch up. Then, we'll seem as though we're never apart and I love you all the same. :))

Friday, March 18

Back, back, back to where we lasted


Firstly, on the 12 Mar 2005, the AJ female soccer team played on 'unplayable conditions' and through God's grace, won SECOND RUNNER UP! ((: come on, you've gotta be prouda me. Though second slipped through our fingers, I think we're really fortunate and we truely lost like champions. No, I'm not saying this just because we were the 'losers'. Debbie, Sarah, Zhi, Michelle, Derre, Esther, Van, Angela, KaSim, Wans ! Do we rock or what? ((:


Sun was the first day of OTC, and I screwed up so bad I felt like slapping myself. I kindda regreat joing this officer training course cause its REALLY boring and especially now that I dont need the cca points. But dinner with my darling made up for the whole boring and wasted day. ((: Xuan is really the best, we're so different and so far apart, but even though we've been apart for more than 1 year, it seems as though we've never stopped speaking. Whatever it is, I LOVE MY DARL! :D


And I'm kindda secretly glad that my OGF course has ended. (: Altjira doesnt make me feel belonged, and I dont know why. I miss Makka, Wawa, my OGLs and OG mates. Haha, I know its kindda retarted, but the dejavu of this whole corse is getting to me and I feel like some little lost kid. Haiya, I know I'm not making sense again.


Then there was the class chalet, which sufficient bonded us. ((: I really wanna give the class a hug to THIRTYEIGHT cause you all have been such fabulous people. To :
Dar, For taking me ard on the twinning bike even if your ass hurts and for being the best big bro there ever was - You totally make up for the other 6. And I really really hope it stops raining for you soon enough.(: -hug!
Xav, for the bleat bleat cup, which was tons better than the flower one Shan got
Shan, For teaching me to ride in front for the twinny bike and for the PPG drawing block even though, just like me, you got conned into buying it cause you got cheated by the cutesy cover. (: And also for organizing the whole thing.
Chengyao , for the utterly lame and lousy lyrical nevermind.
Siew, for maintaining the overall high sprits - you have no idea how that made me feel so much happier and for saving me from having contacts stuck to my eyeballs! You're the best grandkid ever dear!
Ka Ho, for giving me the scariest, but fun-nest twinnie ride of my life!
Daniel, for not having anything bad to say abt me for the first time ever!
Basically, thirtyeight, for showing the class sprit and bearing with my lousy bridging and bad morning skills and sleeping while they led a frantic search for Harrys wallet. :D And as usual, because it was at East Coast, someone had to lose something. In this case, Harrys wallet and the chalet key.


And I've impressed myself by dancing Slam Dunk the Funk today despite running a 38.4 degree fever. The lethargy and lack of energy is sluggish and irritating, but I'm kindda glad cause it put me out and left me with no choice but to slack ard ard at home for the whole of today and I feel so much better after thinking alot and feeling so much. ((:


Yayy, Christopher Lee is really quite cute.

Monday, March 14

What's my age again?


I've got so much so much to say and I will blog them down when I'm less disturbed, confused, happy, miserable and when I have found enough clothes to bring along for my class chalet tomorrow.

AJ AJ AJ AJ AJ AJ AJ ! -jumps

WE LOVE THE TEAM!

We love ten and three!

I love Zhi!

Boot picture!

Not very manly for soccer girls, but heck.

I love the most aggressive defender of AJ !

Our not very professional looking barang

The STAR PLAYER and the Captain.

So what if they laugh at us? (:

SECOND RUNNER UPS! :D

THE TEAM with TREVOR and MANAGER ! ((:

AN CHU NU ZI ZHU QIU DUI !

An chu nu zi zhu qiu dui! ((:

Ka Sim, Por, Sarah !

Friday, March 11

Fate fell short this time,
Your Smile fades in the summer.


I aint going blind so too bad Harry. (: The first 2 months is over just like that and THIRTYEIGHT will soon cease to exist. Oh well, I love em hell loads!


Alex was being a total sweetheart today, helping me with all my barang (which was really alot thanks to trevor) . We had no choice by J8 and I met Stnicks people every 2 meters! ZOE and YINGTUNG! Dont I miss them! It was so nice seeing them after what seems years. (:


My first (and possibly last) soccer tournament tomorrow! I'm so scared I think I'll hyperventilate and die.
We will slide, takle, clear, strike and be the best wall there ever was! (: --quoted from van; the best capt ever- said:
i love my capt!!
But I love the team. (:
Its wierd going to something as 'Big' as this tomorrow without well wishes from my bestie, pam and qiu.

Thursday, March 10

I'm gonna make it, even if i gotta fake it


I cant quite remember all that happened, so the following will be fragmented, random and trashy. (:


Firstly I must must say this. At 8.02pm today, KWANCHUAN said I look good in a photo! It is extremely significant seeing that its him, meow meow! hah. ((:


Then, only yesterday did I realized that cannot be your memory is not a phrase from memory! ): Which is quite loser of me seeing how much I love memory and have listened to it for 218763921 times. Oh well.


THIRTYEIGHT was really good at games carnival today and I'm really proud of all of us cause we had fun without throwing too much face despite the bad planning and all. :D I wasnt too bad in caps ball, but WE were good! and Soccer was saved by zhong and boon whom I really like seeing in action. (: And really Xav, I thought you were a rad goalkeeper (not as good as ours though. :) ) !


I know we all know by now that trevor is a freaking retard. But I must say it again because he wronged and insulted and made me very angry and upset again today. Not a pleasent story to tell, but I swear he is an asshole. He usually aint that bad, but today he was being such a pain I really felt like throwing the ball in his face. FR^!*FY#WBJOI@U)(U!IJKH_(JHJHVDFU damn him.


Oh my eye bled today ( to which trevors response was why are you so troublesome?) and everyone was so animated and 60 times more anxious than me. Lirong saved it with her army of contact-care equipment. ((:


I cant really remember what I did the past few days. We had class outing on monday which I really think I didnt drip any cheese on smelly Harry and I was a very loyal history rep on Tuesday ( For what, I do not know) and ODAC on wed was really fun even though we didnt even come close to winning. The Char Bor Club enjoyed running around holding hands and acting like fools and climbing on our ladder! yes, we made a fully functionable and stylish ladder! ((: ODAC is the best cause it always makes me feel good and theres someone whom we all know who. And Alex and Aaron and YuHua and Hazel and everyone else. (: I love them plents. And Alex said he like my laugh and made my yesterday! ((: Oh and today was spoiled by Trevor and I sincerely hope he feels bad for it.


I love going to school nowadays! Its like some huge movie marathon and all we do is slack and bridge and eat and bridge. I really believe my bridge is getting better and I'm gonna graduate from noobness in due course. (:


I really think its quite hard and confusing to be with someone who you KNOW is two faced. Its like being a hypocrite yourself. ):


Oh yes, did I mention I'm still quite angry with Trevor? Yes I am.

Saturday, March 5

Sometimes I want to take my toaster in the bath


Even though I'm currently dying from a very serious fiber glass attack in the skin, a freaking lobster type sunburn and two aching fat arms, I'm still so happy happy happy HAPPY!! (:


Well, anyway, on the forth of March, we had our third class outing which again, of course, we started really late and had close to nothing to do. Well, not really, we pooled and I taught daph how to pool so I'm feeling really proud of myself. Then I got trashed er.. quite badly. But watch me alright! I'll definitely get better. :)) We rounded the outing with the discovery of Xaviers inborn auntie-ness, Ka Ho's good bargain at Queensway and meatballs at IKEA. So I was quite happy until I found I was late for ODAC, which isnt very good seeing they love to poke and push at you if you're late. Well, at least theres no pumps incurred (But I really do miss those days). Once again , say it with me! THIRTYEIGHT! :D


ODAC sea ex was pretty darn good! Yes, the major overload of eyecandy treat was a major factor to a certain extent. :D We were kept awake by gossip - I had the full detailed colour version of Wanhui's happy lovelife , together with our MANY goodfriends, the mosquitoes. And I really do mean many. We were scratching and scratching and counting and counting. I hope they suffer from indigestion, faint and die will totally serve them right for being greedy.


And we conquered the seven seas today! Or at least, Serangoon sea. And emerged victorious with the ugliest tanline imaginable. The waves were TALL and HUGE! the tallest and hugest I've ever been through at least. Cheeyong and me had FANTASTIC teamwork (if I do say so myself) even if he did cause me a few inconveniece by having a serious stomachache smack in the middle of our expedition and by stupidly fighting with Angela with his paddle, losing and getting us both capsized. haha. It was fun, nevertheless. :D


I love Aaron and Alex as though I've know them for years and years, when in fact I've barely know their full names (ok, I dont know their full names at all). (: The connection is just wierd! Its so er.. sisterly! haha.. I love the Cha Bor club!


The three and the seven are huge brusies to my ego. I have accepted it and I WILL get better - watch and see. But rub it in my face and you'll earn a nice ugly look from me.


Finally, I've decided on my future, two long and exciting years of it. I'm hoping for AJ science or AC science. I have no idea why AngloChinese still remains as one of my choice despite all the many horror stories. I absolutely refuse to believe that such a cold and unfeeling place exists. How can there be a place where I dont fit in? Its ME! haha. no lah. I really do think AC sounds like a not bad place to go. Or maybe I cant get in, then I'll end up doing marintine studies or creative design or MASS COM! (:


I still feel like I'm bobbing in the sea and my face is so pain if you slap me now, I'll just sit on my butt and cry. ):


But I still feel like cartwheeling! ((: Wheee-

Thursday, March 3

My thoughts send me on a Carousel


So 5 people on Hitch was pretty ok. :) And Pam rocks! I havent been to her house in ages and kope her cds and have moosh jumping at my feet. I so love pam! :))


I dont see why my mum cant understand that being in one of the top neighbourhood schools that is 10 mins away isnt the most important thing in my entire life.


Some things that should be making me feel like candyfloss are poking me in a seriously irritating manner. Like the ineffectiveness of my class to decide the itinary for tomorrow. I dont know lah. I love thirtyeight and all. But our many little idiosyncrasies are touching a few nerves and yada. I think I need more people skills. And the JIS. I STILL havent decided. And of course, the way my mum keeps trying to dictate my life. I think I'll end up being manupilated by her once again. Last and the most deserving to have his belly jumped on is Trevor. This is the 2790 time hes made me call the team and I really dont know what on earth hes trying to do yu3qwt78edsuygf78o1 30idrchnfq2sesg128xdcfsgyi. GRRRRRRRR.


Yay. Thanks for reading about all my little retarded loser problems.


Well play and pretend to keep me here

Wednesday, March 2

flotsom and jetsom


Thirty eight had our second class outing, in the traditional thirtyeight fashion with barely half the class present. We had nothing to no and no where to go. And so it was really back to the simple, costless fun of walking around. I think the Toy shop people were probably shaking their fists at this whole bunch of bad childhood teens. (: And pool at Mambo was pretty ok. Hah, I totally miss pooling with pam! But I still managed to beat Shan and GAO! haha. Ok, that was such a scam, Gao was totally giving way, all the way, to me. ((: And the way Mark pools reminds me of clovis!:D


And OTC finally got round to sending the letters. Mine has SGT Vanessa Chang Yuning printed on it. ((:

Tuesday, March 1

And I'm gonna miss you so much, together with the many times I felt like stabbing you.


If I'm gonna be a mugger anytime soon, I really need to understand econs and maths. And history and a little bit of lit. But I dont even know if I want to do the same combi. Econs I'm quite sure. History? Reading up on Stalin and Molotov and everyone? The notes are already bad. And lit. Despite the grades, I dont think I'm cut out for lit. I hardly read. And when I do, its brainless teenage fiction. Oh and maths. The bane of my existance.


Science is my passion (or at least more than what I have in arts). Science is also my downfall.


Hmm. To move on or not? I'm hoping for a shift, for those I like to stay with me and those I dont to move. haha. I wish.

roses are red

阳光总在风雨后
请相信有彩虹

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