Saturday, September 30

YAY YAY YAY! The bestest news in eons!!! (: Much much needed after not-so-ideal prelim grades. :D :D :D

I think that self-indulgence is a prominent characteristic of an Arts student. Who else will go all my grades are "chewing it up slowly and painfully"and start a paragraph on how people "may think that (his arm) is photoshopped because they find his arm well-muscled".

Friday, September 29

A Perfect Day,
A Perfect Lie.

Thursday, September 28

I forgot your telephone number today.
But you never did know mine.

The days of playing and sniffing UHU glue and bobbing to Toybox and kicking a little tennis ball around the basketball court and eating those colourful tasteless round styrofoam like things have only given way to lies and deciet if you've let it.

I felt so much like a kid today, and boy was it a happy affair.

But really, I should be feeling like this everyday. :D

When you're next to me, I can see the greatest story love has ever told says:
ppl call me dancing queen one okay!

'king' of wishful thinking says:
i saw u on ddr machine lor

Wednesday, September 27

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but

I love love Air Supply, how can you not? (:

Tuesday, September 26

Today's chat was well needed. :)

If I tried hard enough, I do believe that I'll be able to maintain my state of delusion. But I shallnt. And the difference was that today I dont feel like my heart was breaking again. To this, I'm not too sure to be glad or not. I guess yes.

Clems said that understanding is the first step to recovery. And I fully agree. Unfortunately, there are so much we'll never come to know.

Telepath at the Minds Cafe has proven that Shenglong and I are top bullshitters and have vastly different ideas. But it was a good day out nonetheless. :D

Have an awesome eighteen and beyond my AJ idol!:D

You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the one your heart is missing

That's why you go away.

I know

Monday, September 25

I dream,
I can run,
Like the wind,
And be strong!
When my heart just wants to give in.

Yay, Hady!!! ((:

The Banquet was just a little too artistic even for me. Haha, it was nice in a low, sad undertone kind of way. Yup, it was pretty worth the $7.00. Not something to catch if you haven had enough sleep though. Or if you dont like Zhang Ziyi's butt.

Sunday, September 24

I love the St Nicks baybehs, even more than words can say! We didnt bare our hearts under the pale moonlight, but marjong and cards and a nice heartwarming and ant-y luch was what I've sorely missed since forever. (: (: (:

Although generally, the previous Singapore idol was much much better than this one (even though I've watched like 3 episodes), I think the final two are of a way better idol material. I never did like Taufik, and even if I did favour (to put it mildly) Sylvester, he comes no where close to Jonathan. So I would admit that it was a good 2 hours spent in front of the TV screen. Better than the once again dismal Man United match yesterday anyway. (But no matter, Man U Man U fight fight fight!)

Oh, and I truely hope neither would be reduced to wearing a pink Ralph Lauren shirt pushing a BIG GLUP to your face.

Dont get me wrong, I love BIG GLUPs especially when they play those music that all ah bengs dance to! No I'm completely not serious. I just thought that THE Singapore Idol should be doing more great things than just BIG GLUP advertisment.

Through the fire, to the limit, to the wall
For a chance to be with you
I'd gladly risk it all

It no longer what I want or dont want to do. You never did give me a choice, remember?

Saturday, September 23

Origami is getting so hard its making me all fustrated. GRRRR!
hello mark is here.

Friday, September 22

I thought it would be fun, but it was not exactly so. :/


EVERYONE HAS THEIR FIRSTS:

FIRST REAL BEST FRIEND: Real is pretty vague - I shall take it to be my Pri 1 best friend whom I've recently found on friendster. Jin Lee Si Jie.

FIRST SCHOOL: Good Hand Nursery

FIRST CELL PHONE: Nokia 3XXX. The big and heavy brick-light one. But hey, its was too cool then.

FIRST FUNERAl: My uncle's.

FIRST PET: This cannary that LiYing gave me in Sec 2. I hated it when my dad had to cut of part of its feathers (to prevent it from flying away) and when cleaning its poop.

FIRST BIG TRIP: Whats big? Haha, Australia, Gold Coast, I would think I was really truely happy there as a kid.

FIRST FIGHT: Hongkong, when I was a baby.

FIRST CELEBRITY CRUSH: Zhou Chu Ming!

FIRST TIME OUT OF THE COUNTRY?: Ey! sounds like the big trip question

FIRST JOB: Stamford Tyres, as some filer person.

FIRST MYSPACE FRIEND: I think all friendster wanna-bes are gross.

EVERYONE HAS THEIR LASTS:

LAST PERSON YOU HUGGED: Like really? Pam.

LAST CAR RIDE: when mummy picked me up from YCK mrt

LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: Cant remember actually. Not too recently.

LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED: Lovewreked- just for Jonathan Bennett!! :D

LAST FOOD YOU ATE: 1/2 a beef lasagne and 1/2 a chicken set at the Minds Cafe

LAST ITEM BOUGHT: Food as stated above.

LAST SHIRT WORN: The all elusive AJC Odac shirt.

LAST PHONE CALL: 20 mins ago which is still going on.

LAST TEXT MESSAGE: 5 mins ago.

LAST THING YOU TOUCHED: Origami paper and the origami book

LAST TIME AT THE MALL: Yesterday at Harbour Front Mall?

LAST TIME YOU WERE EXCITED FOR SOMETHING: Right now for the coming few days! (results are treated as non-existant)

LAST PERSON YOU SAW: My cousins, terrorizing and colonizing the entire house

LAST THING YOU DRANK: Ai xin tang (home made soup)

LAST TIME YOU WERE REALLY HONESTLYHAPPY? : This time last year.

NOW

Is your hair up? Nope, its wayyy short right now.

Is your phone right beside you? yes but its battery is flat as always

Do you wish you were somewhere else?: yes

Do you have plans for tonight? I dont go out after 8s.

Are you wearing makeup? nope.

Are you wearing chapstick? nope

Are you cold? not physically

Are you tired? not physically either

Are you excited? My excitements been dwindling since the start of this quiz/survey/brainless thing

Are you watching t.v.? nope. DVD? (the hotel show of course)

Are you wearing pajamas? Yup, I AM aj arts fac+ FBTs

Who's the last person you MSN? Shenglong

Who's the last person that called you? Shenglong

PAST

Anything you regret? Naturally

Ever lied? Nope, especially not now

Ever stuck gum under a desk? What a Harry thing to do

Ever spit at someone? Accidentally?

Ever kick something living? Some people deserve getting their ass kicked.

Ever had your nails done? Was pretty much a waste of money.

Ever thrown up because you cried so hard? nope, and I've never known throwing up logically follows a good cry.

REVEAL A LITTLE ABOUT YOURSELF:

TODAY

Have you cursed? I've my fair share.

Have you yelled at someone? At Clems, wasnt a mean yell though. (: It was a friendly Clems rock kindda yell)

Have you gotten mad at someone? Not mad- mildly fustrated? haha

Have you cried? Nope, today was AWESOME! (:

Have you called more than 3 people? Yup, 5 for the exact number.

Have you eaten anything gross? Usually I find cheese prata pretty good. Today, it tasted gross.

SPILL YOUR GUTS! (As if, you wish)

What's something you look forward to most in the next 6 weeks? Big secret. Nothing I want the world to know.

What's annoying you right now? I cant seem to fold a butterfly damn it.

Do you believe in long distance relationships? I do.

Where is the last place you went? The Minds Cafe at Boat Quay.

Been cheated on? By my darling/ RSSP? A daily affair.

Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now? I hope so.

Choose one to have (love, beauty, creativity): love.

Do you wish on stars? I do! and I dont care what my GP passage says.

Does it work? It did.

Are you a friendly person? It differs, it depends on the people I'm with.

Are you keeping a secret from the world? Whp isnt?

Who's bed did you sleep in last night? Mine.

What color shirt are you wearing? Black - I AM.

Do you have any pets? Nope! not since my canary and his girlfriend died on me.

What is the color of your bedsheets? Green now.

What were you doing at 9 last night?: Folding Origami while on the phone.

When is the last time you saw your dad? On his birthday before class outing.

Look to your left: I never remember such things. Please, I dont even remember what is the pivotal point of a lever called.

Ever cried yourself to sleep? unfortunately.

Ever cried on your friends shoulder? unfortunately, for the both of us.

Song that makes you cry? Not telling - and usually I avoid them whole.

Are you a normally happy person? On the surface, I'll give myself 9/10.

Is your self-esteem low? On the surface I'll say 7.5/10.

What color are your eyes? When I look into your eyes- I see all my dreams come true, when I look into your eyes.

Long or Short Hair: Short. With a (quote ra) london bridge at the back.

Thursday, September 21

ROCKSTEADY! (with big round faces, very much like guineas)

THIS is how tough it was for our superhero Jem to give up flight for skates. But we made it anyhow! Now enough to take class photo with them, but enough smell Bedok jetty and to feel satisfied. ((:

Another Baldie's creation!

My favourite picture of the lot. (Its taken by Gary, the oh-so-pround (ex)photographic society member.

For more pictures, check out Ci's (Super small times three!) blog - I know its his ploy to draw people to his blog with my photos, but lets not expose him aye? (:

So that about concludes class outing, one of the more significant things that was significantly different in the past few days. :D

Oh, I've also re-learnt (Yes, I re-learn it everytime I touch the cue) that I am brilliantly pathatic at pool. I always mean to play it more often, but it never quite holds my interest for too long. For that I've come up with 2 infallable excuse. 1) I've a short attention span and 2) Angles were never quite my thing. Oh on an aside note, why is it that guys are so much better than pool than girls are? I'm speaking on general terms. (Dont nitpick - we all know thats pretty much as undeniable as how guys are also usually better than girls at soccer)

(ENEN!) Channel 55 is playing feng shen bang again! And yup, its absoultely captivating! (: And this time, not because of the cute guy(s) alone! Because in my tv-less life, TV programmes are not a common occurance for me (unlike all of you time wasters), so when I am actually watching a new show (usually a hk serial), its big news for me and you'll hear about it. ((:

I love repeats, more than I love new shows. I think I've said it before. (:

Other than that, today was great fun as was yesterday and so will tomorrow. :D

I dont care very much what you think. Rather, I've lost the strength to disregard.

Corniness at its peak, but here it goes! (:
You hurt me
And you make me cry
But if you leave me
I will surely die

Tuesday, September 19

Am bouncing with excitement due to tomorrow and the many many tomorrows to come! Makes the whole affair of the prelims worth it. But but but! Of course studying are in the cards, say sometime next Tuesday?

I've been having an average of about 4 hours sleep for the past many many nights (So it was just 1 week and 2 days, but its feels like forever okay!). I've been having so many deja vu I'm no longer impressed. More than once I've felt the impending doom, the spinning of the world (vertigo!) and a faint coming. Oh, and worse of all is the having of gastic pains during the papers and wanting to drink water to ease the pain but not being able to because I already needed the washroom badly. You can barely imagine the trama!

Monday, September 18

After frantically punching the calculator for a good 45min on my way to Sengkang today, I found that I may just get 56% for econs! Yes pleaseee?

The impending post-prelim activities are making me restless!

If poetic justice truely exists, at the very least, I deserve to fall into the longgang outside AJC.

My mum bought me sticks of Bubble Yums from JB. I didnt have the heart to tell her I stopped enjoying Bubble Yums a long long time ago.

I guess we still wanna believe that I'm her little girl (:
In my opinion, Chelsea deserved to win (10 men heroes!) while Man U deserved to lose. The latter played the worst match I've seen in a long long while, but 3 cheers for the sub goalie. Arsenal did comparatively well, but if they were just a bit better, it would have meant an onslaught of goals.

Anyhows, I deserve to get my head banged on the wall for being so insensible.

Sunday, September 17

Because you're everywhere to me,
When I close my eyes its you I see.

Poetic justice doesnt happen in this world. People die from hunger days after they're born and Aids due to unclean needles - All the proof you need.

So why? Oh why do I even bother exclaiming This world is so unfair?

It was designed to be such.

Doesnt stop me from wasting my energy being anrgy with the way things are. :/

From my sky you pulled me down tonight,

I'm sorry I took it out on you today. :/

I think some anger management course is in order from me. I'm returning to my hotheaded primary school days.

Silly enough, for the dumbest reasons.

I need to run away.
Run away and never return.

Saturday, September 16

Its amazing how a song can evoke so much emotions in you, dont you agress? In three different places today, I've heard one of my all time favourite song :

No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way the story goes
You always smile but in your eyes your sorrow shows

No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there but then I let you go
And now it's only fair that I should let you know
What you should know

Put it on your playlist, you really should. :)

Harry and MarK - Now we get carried away with personal attacks shall we? At the very least, what I wear is cool because I think its cool (: And if you're gonna talk about 'boxers' harry, at least I like them, and thats more than I can say abt you and your baby milo.

Friday, September 15

I didn't mean to blow my top at my sister. :/ I know that nosy thing is probably reading this about now so yup, you have my promise that I will stop telling mummy about you and your boyfriend for one week.

Why on planet Earth can someone ever be proud of being a bitch and calling all her good friends bitches. And why, oh why, on planet Earth can her friends let her go on with it. So now being term a bitch is total glory on Ah-lian planet? Whys wrong with the youngsters nowadays?

Mark - Whats the use of a good figure if you have that horrible a dress sense / lousy image consultant and (it may be hard) the brains that will beat anybody's in aj hands down - in the negative sense.

Alicia and Pee-pee-axe - Finally people with discerning sense!

Enen - Remember that, I do. :D Haha, its doesnt seem so far away! :(

But I'm not the one your heart is missing,
Thats why you go away,
I know.

Thursday, September 14

The combination of a decent paper (Finally!) and class games and dancing in the rain made my entire day. :D

To make up for my last senseless post, (which Harry and Limin completely failed to get the essence of it) let me tell you some very extremely serious stuff :
Economics - 9079

• MCQ -20%
• DRQ-15%
• Case study -20%
• Essay-45%

I figured no one really knows the breakdown so here you go. Guess my tutor was wrong about Paper2 being able to save my ass.

Its the first time in a long time I've felt this way so strongly.

I'm sick of these lies and pretence, tired of this facade which makes no sense.

Plainly conceived, I love you.

I promise after this highly-bimbotic-and-insignificant-in-light-of-my-prelims-paper-coming-on-in-about-six-hours post, I will delve back into the mysteries of Shakespeare.

But for the next 4 minutes of so, I cannot emphasize my complete abhorrence and repulsion for Paris Hilton or rather, the lack of a discerning ability of people who find her oh-so-cute and hot.

Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love, baby
I'll show you mine

The Gods being crazy and the stars being blind are supposed to indicate that if you show real love no one will show you yours back. Please realize how dumb it actually sounds (even without her voice) and stop singing and humming even if you want to express your retardacy- I really haven done anything to deserve this. This examplifies the downward spiral of the music industry- at least And I'm never gonna treat you bad, Cause I never want to see you sad made a hell lot more sense, sounds good enough and even has a decent dance to accompany it.

And if you say visual impacts the male sense more than any others :

Grow some eyes please.

So refrain from proclaiming your love for this peacork killing, sexual-explioting woman in front of me.

Wednesday, September 13

I suddenly remembered this disturbing dream I had a few nights back. And it was.. nice in a very very disturbing way.

On a completely unrelated note, I'm officially glad that I wasnt weak enough to hold your hand.

Yesterday I did my worst Literature paper in my entire life. :(

For the first time ever, I felt that a history paper made not just more, but a hell lot more sense than the lit one did.

Beloved as an intergeneration and intercontinental female ghost will serve to be the downfall of my Lit this prelims. Which would indicate that I'm be treading on quicksand from now till the As. I shall take comfort in that that nightmare of a paper aren't the actual As.

I must tell you how impressed I am with my history. (Or at least till before the papers are returned). I read through the notes once and bravely took on Southeast Asia (I say it like I had a choice) and actually managed to have enough to last beyond that 3 hours. And the average length was 3-4 pages. Juxtaposed against my horrendously short lit answers, I must say that history was relatively much less of a rude shock.

But I think its high time I find out what the PKI, PNI GAPI and Sukano are about. :/

I never imagined that there will come a day when I would never image that all this is good news.

Monday, September 11

My discipline is, nicely put, non-existant. I know I will have to pay for it sorely with more baby eyebags but somehow, I cringe at the though but its not really an effective deterence. I need the power of Keith/ Teckhao. Haha, or anyone else really, sure to beat mine anyway.

Seems like no one realized its September 11 today.

Mummy : Ey, you better be careful, my house now got alot of ants, wait you sit on the carpet they'll come and bite your backside.
That made my last five minutes. :D

I saw something and I felt really very sad today. Then I thought of what I have to study today and I felt even sadder.

No lah, I really shouldnt bother anymore- not now, not forever. If only.

Sunday, September 10

Nothing will replace those SN days.

Just felt like my blog needs those dazzling smiles before the bleakness sets in and as we "grip our hearts" and "cannot entertain book, thought,/or each other" as we embark on one short sprint nessarsary in the course of our paper chase.

I think my Dad poses a very strong comparison for any guy who might decide to try and please me. (Darn, suddenly I feel so lousy because I think I didnt get him a fathers day present this year. :/ and apparently my prelims arent gonna be any compensation at all)

I hate the world when I see/hear/watch some good people getting hurt and thereafter setting up defensive barriers around themselves. I know its inevidible, but I hate, hate, hate it nonetheless. I heard this canto song and theres this line : I put my all heart into acting my life out and it made me sad for the entire day. :(

Therefore, I spent my whole day lamanting the plight of the human race with our "idolent procrastinations", "yawning stares", "sighs" and "head-scratchings"

The best studying day of my entire life might just have been yesterday. (:

Illusions, beautiful as they are, must inevidably shatter when confronted with the harsh reality.

Friday, September 8

Are you scared yet?

At the start we told each other secrets,
At the end we told each other lies.

Thursday, September 7

Ted Hughes really is an amazing poet, no sarcasm intended :D

She just might get you lost,
And she just might leave you torn,
But she just might save your soul.

Wednesday, September 6

A sprained ankle is just about the last thing I need now. (And even that I got. What a lucky girl I am) I'm slightly annoyed at my carelessness while playing basketball (not playing per se, more like picking the ball- but that sounds completely doufoos and unglam).

I like the feeling of being sunburnt - warm, glowing and happy. :D just that the dehydration really tires me out like crap and I cant quite afford that right now.

I care that you care. :D

Promise is my new found favourite song. Listen to it on Harry's blog, but if you ask me, its not worth the loading time, just ask me to send you the song. (:

You cant take this broken heart and make it right.

Tuesday, September 5

With all due respect, I find it quite distrubing how Steve Irwin's death seems to be such a big issue and the death of a child per 3 sec is something we joke about. I wont lie about how much I think its a great pity for the death of someone so noble because very frankly, I have no idea/care for who he is and what he does. Before yesterday, I didnt know who he was anyway. But I do wish him, and his fans (all of you out there with the tortise by your nick) well.

(This paragraph has no relation whatsoever with teh previous one) If, lets just say if, while having a tussle (because of something that is purely his fault) by the road, the person who is shoving you about deliberately meant to do you in and pushes you infront of an oncoming truck. You barely manage to scramble out of its way but unfortunately, while trying to avoid you, the truck swerves and hits the person who gave you that near-fatal push. What will be your first reaction?

Glad at the devine retribution? Or sorrow at the could-be loss of life?

Very Hong Kong serial I know (actually it is la okay). But it made me wonder if I'm really a nice person.

If you didnt know me and you're reading my blog, I guess you never can tell that my prelims are in about er, 5 days?

Either that or you'll think I'm completely prepared. Which is untrue.

Or that I'm a Gary, 97.2% intelligence and 2.8% hardwork. Which is also untrue cause, if you cant already tell from what i blog about, I'm no where near intelligence.

Monday, September 4

Sometimes I look back and I marvel my stupidity. Then again, things we so much simpler and happier then.

No wonder they said that expectations are dangerous things.

Instead of going out to study today, I spent the whole of today watching this Hongkong serial. (Now that I'm seeing it in words, I sound like the dumbest ever) I apologize to everyone whose message I ignore and on messager too. Sorry, the appeal of the show is way too much. (:

I really must say that B is the best guy I've ever known. Hes the kind I think all girls should fall madly in love with (no regrets) and I doubt I'll ever meet someone comaparable to him. :D

Being idealistic is thinking that love is forever, thinking that nature is essentially good, believing that hard work equates to good results, thinking that everyone will fall in love and that chastity is absolute and above all. These are general ideals. Not superficial materialistic crap like owning some branded item or another (unless of course you're only into superfluous, shallow items)

Nothings wrong with being idealistic - although I do recognize the fine line between being idealistic and being plain dumb.

I am idealistic but not blinded. Three cheers to AJ for that.

If you think you're cool, you're cool. I don't care much for cliches. Cool isn't having the latest 'hot chick' hang off your arm; cool isn't not doing your homework; cool isn't speaking a certain language, listening to certain songs or dressing a certain way. No one judges 'coolness', its subjective and anyone can be cool if they honestly think they are. If you think the ugly stuff you wear is cool, it is. (of course others may not so agree) But at least you believe that you are truly a cool person. On the flipside, if you dress 'cool' in accordance with what another thinks is cool, do you really think its cool? And are you?

It boils down to who defines you as cool- yourself, or another.

Saturday, September 2

Its so easy to shoot your mouth off, and so hard to see the many things that you should be thankful for. Starting today, I will open my blog entires with something that made me really grateful that day. (:

You know the feeling of seeing something you really really want online and its out of stock and all you can do is view it on the webpage and feel immensely sad that you didnt manage to buy it? Yup, thats the feeling magnified by about three thousand and fifty times. ):

roses are red

阳光总在风雨后
请相信有彩虹

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