Tuesday, September 28
eat the beavers, save the trees.
still feel like dying.
i am someone who is not easily satisfied and very grumble-able, therefore, i am not a happy person.
it doesnt feel like the end of prelims. in fact, it feels like the nightmare has just begun.
my insecurities are tearing me apart. i have never felt so bad ever. even when i got a 2/50 for my amaths test. i wonder what chenyongming will say. i hate letting nice teachers down. )):
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/28/2004 07:41:00 PM
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Monday, September 27
i feel like dying. theres no other way to put it.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/27/2004 08:02:00 PM
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i did the worst chem prac in my entire life today. :((
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/27/2004 07:14:00 PM
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Saturday, September 25
purple silk suit on a pink motobike!
my favourite favourite word of now! ((: kudos, cheers and applause to PAMM for helping me gain in intelligence. ((: hah. and her new-phone-day today! cant wait to see what its like! hopefully its armed with bluetooth so i can bluetooth sylvester sim to her!
sIllY rUyUz wUn stOP caLLinG mOi aH liaNzzzz. ~^.^*~~
happy belated junior jennifer (alliteration!)
!
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/25/2004 10:03:00 PM
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Thursday, September 23
a populous country
i am seriously driven to say this - thank god for the immense load of sisterly love in school.
such to the extent it is not restricted by mere prelims and by the fact that your 'sisters' are sloging it out with maths, trying to fight every second, needing all the concentration they can get. no! the joy just have to be shared regardless of place, time and occassion. plus, they were considerate to increase the volume day after day just in case we should be hard of hearing and require a louder volume to hear them clearly. well! so thank you all my 'sisters' who screamed, sang, laughed (loudly without restrain i might add) and let me know what a beautiful and fine day it is to have fun. i'm sure me and my classmates apperciated it finely and i'm sure it was a joy have the train of thoughts alight at stop after stop.
if there was any justice at all, i feel that a reward is in order. and make it big since all you all were so into things. if you ask me, it should definately be nothing short of a 24 hour maraton of mrs cheong or ms choo. how about both? :)
oh and dear sisters, you dont have to be jealous, because you know what? your turn will come when your sisters share their joy with you when you most need it and you too will experience the love in the air that will totally force you to put of pen down and tug at every ounce of patience you have. :))
and yes, when that day comes, you can be sure that somewhere out there, i'm oh-so-happy for you that your great deeds did not go unrewarded. :D
i would rather not be blogging this entry because it didnt borther me at all, or be magnanimous enough to think that "well, they are young". i admit i'm not in the bestest of the moods now. seriously irritating people should be taught how to not scream when the occasion deems fit. i would hardly call 13 young anyway.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/23/2004 02:15:00 PM
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Monday, September 20
think happy thoughts.
so i did my sums and i realize to secure myself a place in jc, i averagely need a b3 for 6 subjs. and to get a b3, i would need to be about the top 40-50% of the nation. also, stnicks usually have like 98% of her students packing to jcs. and say worst case 95, that means 5%, about 20 students out of my level will not be eligible for jc.
therefore, it is saddening to note that i am of the bottom 50% of the nation and the phathatic bottom of the school.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/20/2004 10:12:00 PM
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The worst of all was Warings with the dark rooms and the old furniture and the cases of moths, he would always have to come back to it.
lit was crap. the ultimate of crap.
ey. bloggers conking out.
happy birthday ritzley and daddy! ((: Mamihlapinatapei : 9/20/2004 07:28:00 PM
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Sunday, September 19
how could i have been so completly wrong?
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/19/2004 04:07:00 PM
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Saturday, September 18
AHHH. so cute! with the tiny eyes and all. hes in this chinese rock band called l'ze.fier. and he sounds darn good in chinese! ((: eeep! hah. i'm not slacking. this is a break. too much lit is poisonous. ((:
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/18/2004 09:53:00 PM
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Friday, September 17
i never said i was brave
slacking is the last thing i should be doing now. akk. ok. last time before the prelims blow. ):
amaths was a pleasent surprise in terms of amaths world. as in, terrible as usual, but not AS terrible as the stnicks fashion has always seemed to be. (: i fought every sin and cos. the old man would be proud. ((:
so anyway, i just realized that sylvester has the best charisma in the finalist of si. ahha. what a nice surprise! as alicia put it, hes as endearing and supportable as it gets. ahah. i apologize for this constant hanging on syl, but his MY newest cute guy and there is 0 other exciting thing beside this. unless you count that i can shear?
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/17/2004 10:17:00 PM
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Thursday, September 16
SYLVESTER SIM!!! ((:
he got in! he got in! HE GOT IN! -screams and jumps around the room! ah ha you evil and terrible sylvester-is-not-gonna-make-it-and-he-is so-not-gonna-get-in people.
AH HA!
the best time of the week so far with the crap of the compo, the terrible mao chem and physics prac and not to forgeting of course, amaths. amaths paper2 tomorrow the killer paper to an extreamly killer week. hah. first 3 mths, well, its innova for me man. or maybe super raffles. or maybe thailand. the pays pretty good. (:
i am an extreamly happy girl now! hah. but i do wish the funny alkane and alkene people will leave their names. so anyway! sylvester is the way to go ok! ((:
I see forever when I look in your eyes
You're all I've ever wanted
I always want you to be mine
Let's make a promise to the end of time
We'll always be together
And our love will never die
So here we are face to face and heart to heart
I want you to know we will never be apart
Now I believe that wishes can come true
'Cause when I see my whole world
I see only you
When I look into your eyes
I can see how much I love you
And it makes me realize
When I look into your eyes
I see all my dreams come true
When I look into your eyes
i realise his passion for corny songs. ahah. firehouse ok? thats pretty cool still. ((:
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/16/2004 11:03:00 PM
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Sunday, September 12
i'll sleep at 10 tonight. last minute cramming for amaths just dont work. ): it'll be the longest and worst sleep i'll have in a long time.
AMATHS HOW AMATHS HOW!? haiyo.
but! i saw my slyvester and i'm a happy girl. for now.
green batch people! the prelims wont kick us ok? cheong together! ((:
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/12/2004 09:40:00 PM
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Saturday, September 11
retard must be your middle name.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/11/2004 11:31:00 PM
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here we go again
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/11/2004 10:29:00 PM
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zinc, lead and aluminium are amphoteric. so their bases will react with acids and alkalis to give a salt and water.
my blog is locked for the sake of it.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/11/2004 01:15:00 AM
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Thursday, September 9
This Romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up.
It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up.
Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well
I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby that's just me.
And I will love you baby always
And I'll be there
forever and a day always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme
And I know when I die you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you always.
haha. a morden corny old song. but i like it cause sylvester sang it! aha. ok lah. hmm. i dont think he'll get in through wildcard though. aiyo. )): wait. shdnt jinx him so fast. ahah.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/09/2004 11:26:00 PM
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sticks and stones
lifes really been a vertigo* for me recently.
on a brighter note, SYLVESTER and nelson got in for the wildcards! (: i dont care if qiu says i always like the toottoot one or not, or if pam thinks i have a knack for 'ugly' guys. i believe in my tastes, so they are MY cute guys. ((: ekks. so cute lah today. that would give me a reason to watch the PSC and next thurs SI which issnt a very sensible thing to do. :/
* 1) a disordered state in which the individual or the individual's surroundings seem to whirl dizzily
2) a dizzy confused state of mind
(a word i picked up from pam)
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/09/2004 10:49:00 PM
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tell all my friends i'm dead.
thats the way i want to be.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/09/2004 11:19:00 AM
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Tuesday, September 7
you dont know me, the way you really should
you sure misunderstood
5 things i think
you should know about me :
1) i am extremely short tempered. dont be taken in by my apparently friendly hamburger face. i am actually bad tempered and highly inpatient
2) i am stupid, i am selfish, i am wrong. i dont swear i'm right, i do swear i knew it all along. and guess what? i dont care.
3) i am inferior in many ways. i realize. i do not need reminders. AT ALL.
4) i hate the way i am now. but i hate the way you want me to be even more.
5) i
hate chicken rice. note the word hate. it spoils my day. i dont have to explain to you - i am wierd, remember?
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/07/2004 09:04:00 PM
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Monday, September 6
My gift is my song and this one's for you
And you can tell everybody that this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world
I sat on the roof and I kicked off the moss
Well some of these verses, well they, they got me quite cross
But the sun's been kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you and I that keep it turned on
So excuse me forgetting, but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is, what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen
And you can tell everybody that this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world
I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world
Ewan Mcgregor - your song. ((: its a song for her that he writes which totally descibes how he wrote the song. i still think its completely random but its coolly lit-ish in a sense! ((: wotever. i like it anyhows!
me and pamm had fun today. which is terrible. first was seahs maths. then old mans maths. then a little escape from reality in the form of chad michael murrey (who would be extreamly cute if he had better hair) and the pink converse hitops. so the theather at j8 made everyone seem abit fatter (exp for chad mm who was still skinny as a stick, just the way pamm likes it). and the show was the kind of so-over-romantic-un-realistic-but-still-nice-to-fantisize kind.go figure, its definately a HUGE anti-eiz of course.(: but i had fun with my new pens and cioppino fam and pamm's SUM41 hotdog-seller mesh cap(and blew quite alot of cash.) ((: which brings me to the topic. what a terrible happy day.
but i did 2 hrs of physics after that! ok. still not convincing, i know.
theres this funniest japanese algae think which is meant to be kept as a pet? its mascot is this green plush toy which is not very cute? so anyway, its a ball of grass growing in a jam jar with water. if you have a chance to pop by minitoons in j8, look at the sign that is talking about it cause its really so darn funny with its bad and terrible english and all. and especially the part where it goes " it will grow up to 5 mm in diameter, but it will not grow into a green plush toy with eyes"
hah. i wonder who reads my blog. in the busy busy and extreamly trying period, we're all panting to keep up the sprinting paces of our lives. who has time for others? actually, i do. haha. i'm blogging more then ever. but i like it. (: i'm talking to myself. and i like it. i havent heard the voice in me speak for the longest longest time. and blogging makes me feel as though i'm communicated with me. ahaha. ok. i realized how isolated and nutcase i am. but dont you feel that way? hah. thats the point of blogging aint it? but wait. a diary would be so much better. if only there wasnt the probbing mother around of course. hurh?oh yes, dont mind me again.
i hate the way things are now. the uncertainty. the not knowing if we'll be happily ever after. the bouts of insercurity. the wondering if you're gradually pushing me further and further towards memory bank. the missing you a little too often. the wanting to talk to you but the lacking of something i cant pinpoint. i cant wait for the Os to be over. but i know. especially so when its over, it'll never be the same again.
ok. i shallnt think about my sad part of my life anymore. it'll only enlarge my sad life further by failing my prelims and Os. ((:
anyway, as pamm said, somewhere out there, someones thinking of me and loving me tonight! (: thats quite a nice thought.
this is quite an insanely long entry.
happy belated icekachang! i cant believe i forgot. wot a terirble attapchee i must be. ):
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/06/2004 08:06:00 PM
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Sunday, September 5
i didnt thought it was possible. but i am missing agi. hah. include the standing and sleeping, the carrying of breads and the fa dutys and ponnings.
then again, everything is missable when you're caught in the rate of flow of electric charge.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/05/2004 11:07:00 PM
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orange skies, carnivals and cotton candy
i like my nick! its all happy and nice! see, its smiling! ((:
nice productive day today.
you can't hurry love
no, you'll just have to wait
she said love don't come easy
it's a game of give and take
You Can't Hurry Love by the
Dixie Chicks
its such a happy happy song! i'm sure you heard it somewhere and may have forgotten abt it. go listen! download or ask me nicely to send it to you, because its a happy happy song which got me grinning throughout physics! i think the one that daph khoo sang wos abit better though. anyway, go listen fellow stressed-ups! HOWEVER, if you happen to be like eiz who repel such brainless and corny stuff, please steer clear. haha.
speaking of eiz, i recieved sucha a nice msg from her and wanted to send something back. unfor, i do not have a storage of nice msgs in my fone. haha. so i'm here to say, i love my bestie! alot alot! hear that bestie?
I LOVE YOU!
baobei! -SQUEALS! i'll be missing you too! haha. yes, even if you're halfway round the world! hes SO dead cute! haha.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/05/2004 06:45:00 PM
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Saturday, September 4
I'M JUST A KID AND LIFE IS A NIGHTMARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-SCREAMS!!!!!!!!!
i know i fully deserve this. shoot me.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/04/2004 03:48:00 AM
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Thursday, September 2
what a joke. you think you are all so mature and everything. well, i think you sound like a kid.
i must stop typing wot. in case i grow to regret. just like those bEnGstErZxx language i used not too long ago. ):
happy belated teachers day!
happy belated sixteen bern!
happy belated forteen chengjinan!
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/02/2004 02:37:00 PM
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