Tuesday, October 31
To paint a Water Lily
Oh yes, how could I forget?
Trick or Treat everybody!And,
Happy Birthday Mummy!
Its amazing how time flies - I have even got round to properly worrying abt the As. (:
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/31/2006 11:13:00 PM
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Nothings gonna stop us now,
I'll find a way somehow
Those were such happy days, not too long ago :D
Do you know! One thousand million makes up a billion! And it takes only 0.333% of the richest country's annual GNP to cancel the debts of 52 poorest countries in the world who desperately needs it (to save the lives of 8 million children a year). But nope, 0.333% seems too much for them to give.
And America spend as much on pornography as they spend on foreigh aid.
GP forces us to know so many injustices of the world- but how many can actually look beyond the sheer grades and see that the world desperately needs saving?
Keep your balance - its sound advice this is. ((:
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/31/2006 10:32:00 PM
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Saturday, October 28
And So I will, promise. (:
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/28/2006 10:53:00 PM
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Holding your head up is hard
When you just want to stay on the ground
Yesterday was two truckloads of fun! ((:
DOA was great! (Although dont watch it on my account). Wading through water, feeling the breeze on our feet, air hockey for the first time in years and playground brought thrills all round! :D
I think my sense of humour and entertainment is well on its spiral down. Good good. This just means I get to enjoy more things. (: If you're jealous, you can also claim I have bad taste.
I started looking out for myself today
but then I stopped cause I don't care
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/28/2006 11:11:00 AM
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Thursday, October 26
Old Fashioned Candies
I really get very impressed with people who are very much nicer than myself. Maybe its just me rocketing to sky high on the mean scale. But some people are really really very nice. And this some person I really really cannot stand. Three guesses who.
My abstract ideals dont hold in the real world, I assure you this i know. However, for some unexplainable reason, it doesnt crash down upon me and I believe in these ideals anyway.
Okay some part of me really want all those guys to get into the army, to break away from some girls I'm begining to feel very tired pretending to like, to cease this mindless paper chase. Okay its actually a very big part of me. But the world out there somehow doesnt hold promises enough to catch me should I fall. I could stubbornly cling on to all these people here now, I could, couldnt I?
I know I relinquish my own right to become the physically close friend of many. But sometimes, it really affects me when you decide just not to us. Yes, I'm such a greedy person. And perhaps whats worst is that I will refuse to include myself once I feel excluded. Which I actually do you know.
This entry is peppered with snippests of the many train of thoughts wizzing through my mind. And one of them is actually the Indies Social democratic association.
By the way, spectacle frames and mobile phones are getting horrendously ugly. As are belts and pencil cases. And bags. And human nature.
The fakeness of it all. I hope you savour it with grace.
This week is the suay-est week in forever. So my N80 has come and gone and the n70 still has its honourable mention on my blog.
Enjoy eighteen Jem!
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/26/2006 08:21:00 PM
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Monday, October 23
The only way you're loving baybeh is if you pay a lovely fee
Hurray, my mums okay! (: Thank you alot alot Shenglong for being there. :D
Boyfriends/ Girlfriends are fine by me. But I draw the line at letting your friend down for no good reason. (eg running off on a planned outing just to meet your other half)
From the many many Beloved readings I tried my utter best to grasp, I conclude that facing up to your worst memories enable yourself to gain knowledge from them and hence, move on to a glorious future. I'm no braniac but I don't think that some things are just as simple as this.
You're the second person who fills me up with this much regret.
Sometimes I'm so green with envy. ):
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/23/2006 11:03:00 PM
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Sunday, October 22
Lets kick racism out of football.
My mother's staying in the hospital for an operation tomorrow. And already I'm starting to feel alone :( May God bless her. :)
I had this dream that I was getting married this morning, and the odd thing was that it was clear as a pie, I could remember everyones faces so bright. And I completely was aware it was a dream. Because I remember not wanting to get married because I didnt actually like the guy (I know who he is for sure, but lets not go there) but then thinking "Its just a dream, what the heck." But ultimately the whole thing feel through cause on the ceremony itself, I refused to walk down the aisle because we forgot to buy the wedding dress.
Okay, it was pretty impactful on me at least. (:
Hooray for Man United! (: The semi-conclusion that the team doesn't like Gary Neville was pretty funny though.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/22/2006 10:19:00 PM
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Get High!
Well, this is definately worth a mention - 10 days before the A levels and I find the time to go out and come home at a delightful time of 4am. Gosh, today will be greatly treasured nonetheless. :D
Although of course, I'll pay dearly for this time I missed. (That will be later. And even today, Man U is a must watch)
I swear after the As, I'll walk everywhere - to Ang Mo Kio, to Sengkang, to Bishan, to the East, to the West, everywhere!
But I spent a minute wondering today if I'm the bottom 30% of AJC.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/22/2006 04:23:00 AM
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Saturday, October 21
Baybeh you're so beautiful
and when I'm near you I cant breathe.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/21/2006 01:19:00 PM
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Friday, October 20
I lay my love on you, thats all I want to do
Everytime I breathe I feel brand new! (:
Okay, I love Westlife! Everyone does, dont you pretend. (:
Sorry la I have uneven lips. (:
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/20/2006 09:31:00 PM
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Thursday, October 19
I must be strong to carry on
Cause I know I dont belong here in heaven
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/19/2006 12:02:00 PM
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Wednesday, October 18
Someday, someday
"The capacity for hope is the most significant fact of life. It provides human beings with a sense of destination and the energy to get started."-
Norman Cousins
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/18/2006 10:15:00 PM
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Tuesday, October 17
I know just when to dream
I hate feeling lost.
Like now at this very moment I wonder what am I doing with my life, wasting it away on completely nothing at all.
I really derserve to get the D for History - the supposedly impossible task.
I used to think that I had the answers to everything. Even if I dont, someone who has it would give it to me anyway.
Because I liked the view
I thought you felt it too
When there was me and you Mamihlapinatapei : 10/17/2006 07:02:00 PM
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Monday, October 16
Why did I let myself believe miracles could happen?
I'm sorry to disappoint my RSSP, but I do quite like High School Musical! Okay maybe not exactly the dancing about the canteen or basketball part. (Okay actally I even liked that a little in a comic-relief kind of way :/ ) So call me a 5 year old sucker! (I know she wont (: ) But Zac Efron is nice to look at and the songs are nice what :D
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star that's coming true Mamihlapinatapei : 10/16/2006 08:55:00 PM
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Saturday, October 14
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
I must say I was extremely touched today - the first time in a long time since Shenglong came to school early for me/ Hazel lent me her shoes - whichever was last.
I know I have mean thoughts about you, complain at lengths about you, hold grudges against you and sometimes throw tantrums at you. But after it all, I still mean so much to you. And I guess I should just assure you this feeling is mutual. Laugh at me all you want, but friends accept - and deep down, I know your flaws dont mean a thing compared to our relationship. :D
Today has been an awesome day I must say. My fringe is growing nice and well and hence, gave rise to good hair day (:
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/14/2006 11:19:00 PM
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You showed me the world when I was all locked up inside
You reached out your hand and took me on
A magic carpet ride
One look at your smile
And I could see the light shining ev'rywhere
People like you don't come out of thin air
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/14/2006 12:33:00 PM
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I woke up with a headache today. This whole daily headache business is starting to scare me.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/14/2006 10:34:00 AM
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Friday, October 13
Non mihi solum, the sweet light of charity
I must be fair. Glad as I am to leave AJC, I'm also glad that I entered it - not for anything but the lessons learnt. These 2 years taught me more than whatever I've learnt in my past 16. Both positive and negative- but mostly negative. But seeing its the last day of school already, I'll just leave it as farewell and goodbye. :D
I've met and lost more people than I could keep track. Some whom I've once felt so attached too and then poof, in about 2 seconds, they're off my MSN list and I never talk much to them anymore. I'm guessing this is fate - the spark better different people that enable them to stay attached even if physically far far apart. And the lack of fate is aptly demonstrated when 2 completely different people brought together by force (think CCA and class and workshop and your friends' friends) and then move on later, completely forgetting the times shared.
You really act so damn matured and laugh and point at those 'childish' people. Well, superficial childish behavior may be hanging out with JC1s or trying to get attention in history class like a bunch of pure himbos. But on a deeper level, childishness is your refusal to face up to a problem, its the talking big talk and falling so short and then making a ton of excuses on your part, its your micro view and tinted image of things, its your superficiality and labeling of people. And that I'm sorry to say, is childish. And when you are that childish and yet are completely disillusioned and believe yourself to be completely justified, it just shows a bitter irony I don't know to laugh at or to cry for you. (If you're wondering again Harry, this is not about you)
DO NOT BUY NOKIA N SERIES. Dont say you havent been warned.
I can pretty confidently say I wont forget too many of the people i've met in AJ- both sadly and not. I have sufficient faith in my little memory. (Especially if theres a picture of you somewhere somehow). And and, Pictures of the last day at school soon. :)
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/13/2006 10:40:00 PM
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Monday, October 9
He promised that the rain will past,
The day will soon be fair.
And I never was afraid because
Hes always there.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/09/2006 08:06:00 PM
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When the nights are long
We'll be better off together!
According to my current favourite show , Qian jin nan mai yi hui tou (i.e A thousand kg of gold cant buy a step into the past). And how very very true indeed. :/
So if you, like me 30 minutes ago, still cant kick start the panic engine for the oncoming A levels,I would highly suggest making an exact timetable of what are you gonna do for the next 46 days (or less). Although its almost certain that you'll not use the timetable after all, you'd be surprised how it seems like hardly any time left at all. And you, like me, will decide that its about time to stop willing you time away. (At arcades, no less!)
I cant believe one of the very days I've been waiting for for the longest time is on the 13 Oct, a mere 5 days away. Farewell AJC, thank you for all the good memories, and thank you for the many many many worse ones (now I learn not to take things forgranted and so much more). I guess these 2 years was not necessarily a bad thing, but I cant say I'm
too sorry to watch it go.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/09/2006 01:30:00 AM
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Saturday, October 7
The dreams we left behind
Yuck yuck. I've left my computer on for many many day and just when it hits 97.8%, its somehow just stops moving completely. I also tried to stick my sisters memory card into my printer card reader and it went in all the way and got stuck. :/ Further proof of the lack of fate between technology and I.
I tried to make do with instant teh tarik as a poor substitute for Uncle Mobin and it was a horrible failure.
No no no no! Please do not believe a world of Harry's! Its definately untrue! I wont pinch, promise! I'll hug it and kiss it and let it pull my earings and carry it and ....
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/07/2006 10:27:00 PM
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Friday, October 6
You're getting good at lying
But I'm better at believing
Oh yes,
Zhong qiu jie kuai le! (: Its time the days of lantern carrying and mooncake eating (be warned - one mooncake is 800-1000 calories) and bonfire starting and candle arts came back in fashion. The younger generation has no idea what they're missing out.
Unlike my RSSP, I'm not getting all fussed up over the haze, but it really irritates me when the moon is not bright and round on its very own festival.
Today, thirtyfive played our first 'real' class games. And although its probably our last as well, I guess we really must acknowledge the distance we've come. ((:
In two days, I've had to send my Ipod and my N80 to the repair shop. Technology irks me almost as bad as the hot weather. And oh my I just have to grumble about Ipod service. Tell me please, who doesnt drop their mp3 players at least once? And I've only droped my ipod twice and now the warentee doesnt cover it and I may have to pay $500 to fix it. And I paid $700 for something that spoils upon a drop, completely ridiculous if you ask me.
I'm completely and totally in love with my baby self. DAMN super cute. And I must admit, so was my sister. (: haha, I wanna play with babies, anyone willing to introduce me to their baby cousin/siblings/friends. Yes please!
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/06/2006 11:38:00 PM
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I dislike triangles.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/06/2006 10:17:00 PM
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Tuesday, October 3
Animal Sex
In sports, should we always play to the best of our abilities, claiming that is the only way to respect our opponent?
Personally, I would think not. Whats the use of 'respecting your opponent ' if she never ever gets to touch the ball anyway (Pardon the girls-are-lousier-at-sports hint)? I think we play to have fun and everyone should be included, butter fingers and 2 left-footers included. Besides, respecting your opponent is not critising or running them down. Its about being encouraging and allowing them to have the fun they are seeking on court. Its not about stealing all their balls and not giving them a chance to shoot just because your 'bestest abilities' will not allow so. Also, maybe sometimes people should respect their teammates first before all talking about their oppenents.
That said, I remember the first(or was it second) time the Odac guys brought Hazel (or was it Myra) and I to play DOTA. And they had this secret pact not to kill us until we reach level 16. (They only today us about this pact at the end of the session) And it really was a very sweet move on their part to try and include us although it must have been dead tempting to kick us off the team or kill us off like ants. :D
I'm really a person who gets easily irritated, but amazingly, never for long.
Happy eighteen unglam photo partner! :D Mamihlapinatapei : 10/03/2006 09:34:00 PM
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Monday, October 2
If you smile when no one else is around, you really mean it.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/02/2006 10:01:00 PM
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Sunday, October 1
HAPPY CHILDRENS DAY EVERYONE!!!
Today is a very weird day indeed. :/ Not weird in a bad way - weird in an odd way. :/
It started with dreaming of Keith's 'girlfriend' and the day just got increasingly odd (think: S11 in town and meeting D Seng there.)
Oh yes, I think the notion of having seperate prom themes for the guys and girls is ridiculous. So we're gonna look like people off different eras/places/timeframe? As is the fact that no teachers are going to be at prom. And that if girls go into Cube (our after prom place) before 12 we have to pay $12, but if we enter as part of the public after 12, its free. :/ Completely do not make sense.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/01/2006 08:58:00 PM
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Theres so much in my heart I cant describe to you.
Even when I tried, you didnt understand.
Mamihlapinatapei : 10/01/2006 12:36:00 AM
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