Sunday, July 31

superhuman me


They say Eternal got saboed by some malay. But I think they looked every bit the superstar they are and they sounded great anyhows! :)) But I was cowering in fear under all the armpits and funny strangers pressing on my shoulder (geeze, do you really need that boost?) and Aaron, who didnt notice my existance till the end of the whole thing. It was great though, class support and my superstar friends.


Limin and Rain and me are the san duo hua (i.e. Three stalks of flowers). I insist. ((:


Daryl's my eviler twin, and peypeis my long lost twin. And this is what they have to say about me.


Daryl ; Van's the shyest, demurest girl in class. Needs to speak up more. lolx. And she's also so bloody adorable ALL OF THE TIME. ^^ so cute and huggable with thin veins that bruise like crazy when she donates blood but still insists on doing it anyway. XP braver than me.


Peypei ; Van is SO shy and demure, its completely unbelievable. -_- and everytime she demands for me to be super nice to her. there is even a "be nice to van day", haha.


budden she does nice things, la. Like run with me for my 2.4 and stuff.


And just because we share the same birthday, everytime i say a horrid thing, she'll go...WE ARE ALMOST TWINS! and shes the only one who calls me pei pei. ^^


:D Lets compare shall we? But I love peypei all the same. And Dar, Of course. ((:
Eternal Loop all the way!

Go Dar, Rara, Ci, Amos and Willian! ((:

Saturday, July 30

delusion of grandeur


Its one thing to be told, its another to stumble on someone else's secret thoughts by accident (either by some big mouth or tell tale documents). I feel like I've entered territory I shouldnt.


I went out after school on Friday. I didnt really need stationary shopping, or mindless walking around, or pigging out at Marches. But I went anyway, perhaps in some little hope to find a bit of that happy, aimless after-school-towning experience that I had excessively back in sec3 and 4. But it wont ever, ever be the same. It shouldnt. I should be clutching my Beast in View and examining every word instead of walking around, laughing at Cleavons ignorance about town. But its alright. I had fun, it wasnt the same, but I enjoyed laughing at the cheese hotdog and the GST which we should never had paid for. :D


I wore my Stnicks Pe attire for the whole of yesterday after school. But the facade of warmth didnt really last past an hour or two. At least it was comfortable.


It wierd - I have this impression that I'm more getting more sensible and less childish than you know it. Yet people do the most childish things than laugh at me for being the kid. I follow up by acting like it was totally fun and not the least bit lame in a bid to try and fit in. Its not that I'm losing my sense of fun. I guess I'm just growing up. And trust me, I hate it.


I want to be withdrawn and alone and I want to enjoy being withdrawn. It must be nice to be able to like being by yourself. You dont have to try in ingratiate youself into any situation, you sit by the sidelines fine.


But the wine and the song, like the seasons have all gone.

Tuesday, July 26

I wanna be a STNICKS girl forever and ever

and ever and ever.

Wednesday, July 20

There's a lot of things I understand
And there's a lot of things that I don't want to know
But you're the only face I recognize
It's so damn sweet of you to look me in the eyes


It's alright, I'm ok
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away
It's alright, I'm ok
I think God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed
I'll get over it, yeah


The scent of vaseline in the summertime
The feel of an ice cube melting over time
The world seems bigger than both of us
Yet it seems so small when I begin to cry


It's alright, I'm ok
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away
It's alright, I'm ok
I think God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed
I'll get over it, yeah


I'm so much better than you guessed
I'm so much bigger than you guessed
I'm so much brighter than you guessed


It's alright, I'm ok.
We're brave and we'll be strong, for each other if we must. (:


I'm not anti-AJ, I understand their fully legitimate concerns. We promised, but failed. We deserved it, you could say. Regardless for our reasons for failure, the fact remains. If we must, we can only blame ourselves for not pushing ourselves harder. Then again, I know many of us tried, its alright then. Perhaps it was never ment to be. The bottom line is, we failed to fulfill our promises. The closing down of AJ Female Soccer will therefore be our failure, my failure.


I've been down since the news hit. Thats an understatement. Its easy for you to say cheer up, dont be sad, etc etc. Well, lets just see you try. Training harder, longer, more often then most CCAs in school, fighting against our teachers and/or parents disapproval, bearing the mockings of our so called peers, ... Its not something you can forget in a flash. Holding the team (or at least trying to) together for 6 mths only to find its over in just one day. Nah, I think I have evey right to cry a little.


Ok, maybe not just a little. I think I totally broke down and lost it and all. But I'm real grateful to people who cared. But my friends who dont care/dont even know, well, I guess you've really been there for me when I'm hardest hit eh? (:


I guess thats really it. Pei pei, Isa, Joyce, Wans, Qiu, Jo, Shiyun, Siyun, Gail, Esther, Xinyu, Gwen, Koon, Wise capt and Me. TWEE FOR ALWAYS. Manager, Mrs Toh, Jiewei, Mr Mohan, Trevie, Boon, Guoxing, Laobeng, Zhong, etc etc, thanks - You may not have done much, but to us, it made a world of difference.


I'm extremely grateful towards Kokwee and d Seng for their care and concern and all the talk and nags. Really. Its not just some compulsary show of gratitute, but I really feel that as teachers, they've been amazing. Yes, even Kokwee, to a certain extent. I glad AJ allowed us to exist, even if it wasnt for very long. I learnt so much, made so many friends and had the time of my life. Thank you, Twee.


I cried because I felt its unfair, because I didnt want to give up and give in, because I thought I had let the team and everyone down, because I know I let myself down, because I missed everything about twee already, because theres this huge part of be robbed away, because I felt like everything I've been working for had been a facade. But I'll cry no more. :) I'm STRONG!


Its alright, I'm okay.

Sunday, July 17

Digger and me aint trying to play tough - We are tough


ODAC investiture photos are up, plus the usual randoms. (: They start from the last and I kindda ran out of lyrics after a while. ((:


We didnt get to play SA on sat due to a downpour. But I got to meet Liying and shes just as I remember her. :D We had a nice dirty training and jumped in mud puddles like they always do in story books. TWEE ROCKS. :D


[Dar, Ci , Rara, and the rest ; I'm sorry I couldnt rush down. All the way EL! ]


Then there was investiture, for which we prepared till late on Friday for. Amist the complaining, grumbling, disatisfaction and bitching, it was really quite hiliarious to think of it. ((: I guess an ODACian is for always. But it was kind of fun letting it all out. No matter, I hope that we do stay as seventeen.


Investiture itself went fine. And I'm glad they loved the booklet (Three cheers for us - Chinyi, Myra, Darling and me!) and the powerpoint! ((:


I'm not looking forward to ODAC without them. Really, they've been so steady and always there and reliable and dependable and all. Whos gonna save us should be forget something next time? Whos gonna remind us to bring lighters? Whos gonna help us carry this and that. I guess its up to us now. But I'll miss them, miss them.


Watched my first ever midnight move - The fantastic four after invest. Hah, it was kinda spooky and jubilie, but quite fun lah, with the freezing and surprisingly cold theater. Cabbed back with shenglong and meano who was being really nice and funny I forgot why.


But I woke up feeling really happy and satisfied. Must be because of harry potter. ((: Which i so unwisly spent all my time reading.


Yes, I like Say Goodbye by SClub7. Laugh all you want mark.


You flew here, there, everywhere and landed on me Ouch! says:
hey i found a word to describe myself..


You flew here, there, everywhere and landed on me Ouch! says:
i learnt it from the cotton book..


You flew here, there, everywhere and landed on me Ouch! says:
it's called a pansy..


You flew here, there, everywhere and landed on me Ouch! says:
an insulting word for a man who seems weak and like a girl


I always knew Cleavon was bright. :D

Because a true love never dies

Cause true love never dies

But dont you cry
You flew here, there, everywhere and landed on me Ouch! says:
yay you're the smartest.. haha


I kindda figured that out eons ago cleavon. :))

So say goodbye


I'll miss your love in every way
[ And her new true love ]

Though its the hardest thing to say
[ Mr and Mrs Lucy ]

Is the only way now for you and me


Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts [ The new Ba po club ]


Is the only way for destiny [ The Ba po club ]

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in you heart


If only I could stop the world, I'd make this last



Each and every end is always written in the stars


Standing on the same street corner, no regrets



Maybe we'll see each other


In a year from now


Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we never said


In a year from now


Cause true love never dies

But dont you cry

So say goodbye


I'll miss your love in every way


Though its the hardest thing to say

Is the only way now for you and me


Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts


Is the only way for destiny


The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you


Nothing lasts forever though we want it to [ Trying to imitate weilong! I just look better. :) ]

And how we lived each day with no regrets
[ :D ]

Are you gonna think it over

In the years to come

will you think about these moments that we shared

In the years to come

:):):)

:D:D:D

Shujuans trademark

Gosh, wont we miss them doing that?

The seniors, as usual, fighting for the camera space

:)

And the MCs

Buddy and the snr who messed up the drinks. :)

Da tou

See MEANO! (:

:)

The love of cheeyongs life

Our new leader. :)

:D

Complete with a pose

Hendric presidency speach

Our new ODAC teacher, Mr lim is still irreplacable of course. :)

As with the J2s

roses are red

阳光总在风雨后
请相信有彩虹

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