Sunday, January 23
The world is waiting with breath that is bated.
And I couldn't cry just because we couldn't win, not like that.
Labels: handball
Mamihlapinatapei : 1/23/2011 12:15:00 AM
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Saturday, January 22
5 months of (dismal) preparations over in 5 mins with 5 different emotions running through me even now. No more whining about dance and no more thinking I can't dance. You know how cliched it is when people say its tough but it'll be worth it? I say its wasn't as tough on hindsight and it was more than worth it. (:
But where do the costumes go now that the curtains have gone down? I've unpackaged the flowers and put them in my 'vase', but where do they go on from here?
Nothing pensive, 5 hours to prepare (highly inadequate, I need about 17 hrs of sleep at least) for the handball finals and maybe I'll shelf my dance identity properly tomorrow. (:
Labels: dance, Eusoff, handball
Mamihlapinatapei : 1/22/2011 02:46:00 AM
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Thursday, January 20
Will have to have one of this to curl up in at some point of time in my future.
And another dreadful match, or is it because the distance seems further when you're heading to the ground? Nah, it could really just be us. Or whatever. I never have time to do any proper life reflection anymore because I never have time to do anything properly anymore. So maybe being stuck at the UCC in preparation for my first and last DP for the next two days might come as a relief. Or whatever really, because as Plato says “Opinion is the medium between knowledge and ignorance”. No, this paragraph is disjointed and random, just the way life is. Yes, too much theatre of the Absurdist for me.
Noteworthy moments of the day include:
1) The AYS bet that was over so fast before we even begun.
2) In response to ameen's fast service today, Aileen said: "Wah today every lousy thing on fire"
3) Gracie's facebook hb msg
4) All my friends and their problem maids
Labels: handball, random
Mamihlapinatapei : 1/20/2011 01:41:00 AM
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Tuesday, January 18
Come to think of it, its never, never enough.
Labels: handball
Mamihlapinatapei : 1/18/2011 01:51:00 AM
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Sunday, January 16
Sonic bloom.
5 days to
DP and the end of someone telling me to "run more gracefully" with my hands stuck to my sides and my fingers poised painfully in an 'effortlessly' elegant manner. I think the only reason why I'm not sacked is because I can't be at this point (or so I think).
The past week was stuffed full with so much high and lows it seems so extended I feel like it been month since I've touched a real rugby ball. And 5 more days to one times good sigh of relief and 1 week to a semblance of a proper life again.
That said, I love the handball girls so very much and that, no matter how politically incorrect it might be, is the biggest impetus for my enjoyment of the sport.
Labels: dance, Eusoff, handball, rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 1/16/2011 11:22:00 PM
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Saturday, January 15
I probably can't claim all the credit for the dismal 12 mins we played, but I definitely deserve full shame for letting myself get stepped so grotesquely for the first time ever I believe. And to think we intended to call her "random girl".
And the day seems to get progressively dismal when I just want to crawl into bed, pretend it never happened and have myself sung to sleep.
Labels: :(, Eusoff, handball
Mamihlapinatapei : 1/15/2011 06:14:00 PM
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Friday, January 14
Opponents, not enemies.
It was like we won it all. Luck was possibly spilling from our pockets but why else would people say the ball is round? I'm just glad to be on court with girls who want it because for the longest time, there have been too many who just go through the motion and that just annoys all of me. I'm hoping this is really just an awesome start (that feels better than the end of any
ihg campaign.)
I went through the whole of my last ihg handball season feeling like I wasnt good enough for Aileen Tan, and even though its still not enough, the best part was really Aileen Tan coming up to me and telling me shes proud of me because I know shes one person who
doesn't validate based on friendship points.
And I've not been this tired since a long time ago, I think dancing at AS7 till 2am kills me more than any hours of training.
Labels: (:, dance, Eusoff, handball
Mamihlapinatapei : 1/14/2011 02:33:00 AM
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Saturday, December 11
Oh and during a very recent handball training, someone I didnt use to like (If you know me you should know that I consider don't like and dislike to be very different attitudes) surprised me not only as a player but as a person and that was really nice (:
Labels: Eusoff, handball
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/11/2010 01:30:00 AM
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Thursday, December 9
I felt so bad about the handball team I decided to train yesterday even though handball is basically wrist suicide so I sort of deserve this semi ache. And seeing as we have a flat 7 for friendly tomorrow, I am all prepared to 'suck it up'. Even though I do acknowledge that its quite stupid because 'sucking it up' would bring me back to square one so I'll see how it goes anyway.
I was telling Qianfu about my 'injuries' and suddenly I feel so unaccomplished like there he is with his job woes and on to his new job and new life challenges with a new set of experiences and basically I've been at this stage in life for a seemingly prolonged period with no insights and no contribution whatsoever. But maybe I'm just feeling strange because recently I seem so have so many friends in the workforce and I must wait for them to "get out of the office" or "come and pick me up" and I'm not used to that.
And Ps back and she texts exactly the way I remember her to just that I don't remember forming up such awkward replies haha.
Labels: Eusoff, handball, random
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/09/2010 02:17:00 AM
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Saturday, September 18
NUS lost to NTU but I guess theres much to be learnt anyway and Shin is such an awesome pressense. Oh well, I'm not really a fan of crying over something someone else deserves more than you.
I'm suddenly scared because I was actually bored by all the handball talk today.
有时候我在想: 陪在你身旁是爱你, 还是爱上陪伴
Labels: handball
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/18/2010 02:06:00 AM
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Tuesday, September 14
若现实它总教人更加悲伤 就让我在回忆里继续梦幻
I am one small step away from goodbye. (really?)
Today, I led the life of a normal everyday hardworking student who didnt eat supper. haha (: I wish I have it in me to do this all the time. It was good with the old people, but the handball woes are coming back. Don't quite know what to make of it so lets not go there.
I feel like a tittle, is that okay?
Labels: handball, NUS, stargazing
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/14/2010 01:35:00 AM
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Sunday, August 22
I guess trying to be nice and being hypocritical isn't too far apart.
The Korean Handball team was such a pretty sight to watch. Singapore's number 9, Vinoth, killed me though.
Labels: handball, stargazing
Mamihlapinatapei : 8/22/2010 01:45:00 AM
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Saturday, July 10
Always wanted a pretty shot of the Alice in Wonderland Tea Party ride and I finally got one at my nth try (: Theres even a multiexposure of me at the bottom ride corner in some pretty looking top. I love the moving effect of those teacups and the overlay of the rabbits hut in the top left corner and the blury foreground against the clear shot of the people behind. To top it off, the colours are so pretty I could eat them for breakfast. (:
Yesterday (ITS 4.27am NOW AND I WILL BARELY GET ANY SLEEP ): ), I spent the entire day in and packing my table and cupboard and stuff. My room looks no neater than before but I feel extremely accomplished cause I have magically seemed to have created more space in my cupboard. But I dont
THINK I'll get myself more clothes because the last I counted, I have 31 outing shorts and 55 skirts. And I dont even dare count the number of tops I own. Or tshirts. -shudders- I think they would go by the hundreds.
But I did enjoy the peace and aloneness very much and the whole idea that I can waste my whole day away ((: But thats kind of not true because I do have General Biology work waiting for me. :/
Oh, I seem to have a kind of sibylline ability to predict the outcome of every soccer game thus far. I have a perfect record to jinxing which ever team I support. From the big wigs to the underdogs. There isnt a game that the team I support wins, unless I fall asleep. I am keeping all my limbs crossed that the finals would be the exception to this rule because I want a spain cup!
Handball AGM at 11 am tomorrow and I'm exicted cause Grace is back!! :D But more than just that I hope things will really get ironed out and the team will start playing even more beautiful, and less emotional handball. Because I really do like this avenue to play (love the girls and its so near home!) even though my position is somewhat nugatory (but we all start somewhere, I know).
Labels: everyday nonsense, handball, photography, Soccer
Mamihlapinatapei : 7/10/2010 07:20:00 PM
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Wednesday, April 28
If my kitchen looked like this I think I would be in heaven. I miss baking- I miss the oven and the disgusting baking tray and the cake mix and the cookies that wouldnt harden and the molten lava chocolate cake that wouldnt stay molten.
Went for handball today and I had fun and it further goes to show I worry too much.
Labels: (:, handball
Mamihlapinatapei : 4/28/2010 01:39:00 AM
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Friday, March 19
Too cute, I'm definitely buying this shirt cause my old one got too tight and short (boobs getting bigger? ): ) and I donated it to Haiti. Can't wait to get back on court even though I'm prolly relegated to the bench now, maybe I should navigate my way through recce first. Can't wait to be bouncing the ball and not be the ball soon!
Labels: handball
Mamihlapinatapei : 3/19/2010 02:23:00 AM
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Monday, July 13
My Abba, My Father,
You'll love me forever,My futures secure in Your hands.I guess if we go by faith, there really isn't much that can unsettle Christians. Not when God has so much love for us. What can go wrong really? :D I need to stop trying to understand everything and just bask in His love manifested through so much around me.
Hip hip hooray, I almost didn't think of you today! :)
I mean to blog about more but time is of the essense here when I need to wake at 6ish tmr if I dont want to be late for Oweek precamp followed by Soci Camp. This means that Van will very possibly be sleep deprived for the next few days as well as housingless for exchange.
I do miss the handball passion and friends very much. ):
Labels: everyday nonsense, handball, stargazing, YOU (:
Mamihlapinatapei : 7/13/2009 01:20:00 AM
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If my kitchen looked like this I think I would be in heaven. I miss baking- I miss the oven and the disgusting baking tray and the cake mix and the cookies that wouldnt harden and the molten lava chocolate cake that wouldnt stay molten. 
Too cute, I'm definitely buying this shirt cause my old one got too tight and short (boobs getting bigger? ): ) and I donated it to Haiti. Can't wait to get back on court even though I'm prolly relegated to the bench now, maybe I should navigate my way through recce first. Can't wait to be bouncing the ball and not be the ball soon!