Thursday, May 19
Stay here, don't put out the glowI wanna shout out from the moutain top! Or if I get to the moutain top without dying first, maybe all I wanna do is to jump down.
Peoples just leaving. Like
Ms Wong, that was really a life changing news. And now, its
Trevor. Its ironic really, how we were saying last week when ms wong announced her resignment we were saying that if Trevor was the one, we'll be cheering instead of crying. And boom, now it really IS trevor. And even though I complain about him 45 times a day. I still think its sad that hes going. After all, he is my PD tutor/history tutor/soccer coach. Its sudden and its sad. No, I'm not being sarcastic. Then theres
Mr Ridz. We all knew he had to go so it didnt really come as a shock. But GP will never be 1/2 as fun again. I hope we dont get a old hag who will come in and demand I hand in all my 5 newspaper articles at one shot. Oh, theres also
Eileen who left ODAC. Kok wee didnt even say try to keep her. I think if it was me I'd be quite sad and all. But dear, if you're reading this, you've left with TEAMMATES so dont ever regret being an ODACian for 1 month ok? I'll never find a spotter as terrific as you. Unless its *. ((:
I love you !I want/need time to stand for awhile (dont we all?). Stuff I owe is ENDLESS. I swear I dont waste a single minute watching tv or playing retarded net games (blogging doesnt count cause its a 10 minutes timeout sorta thing). I dont even chat - its either away/busy/appearing offline. So why the hell am I lagging? Its like I do one essay and they assign another TWO. Its like a see which subject can let the students owe more homework kind of competiton. Its a close call between lit and maths.
Things I should get round to doing.- Lit essay (detective fic) - tomorrow latest cause I wanna let Ms Wong see my beautiful piece for one final last time :( But am seriously clueless and dead stuck cause one, the passage is rubbish and two, I havent read any of the texts yet! (Yes, including Rue Morgue!) Thank goodness I''m not alone. -Looks at Ci.
- Lit essay (King Lear) - I handed in some slipshot rubbish, but I kindda wanna redo, only that I prob wont have a single second to spare so I'll prob end up with 10/50 for that.
- Econs essay - I got a useless extension and shot past it anyway
- Gp essay - Its like 5 weeks overdue and I think I threw away the questions
- 5 newspaper articles
- Read Rue Morgue, Study in scarlet, the other Holmes (Damn, I dont even know its name), and the mirror crack'd from side to side
- Understand maths
- Catch up on about 10 or so maths tutorials
- Call my maths tutor, Richard who apparently have given up on me before he even met me
- History essay question 4
- History tutorial 1, 4-7 and 1-3
- Figure out the Cuba crisis
- Check the King Lear VCD that the librarian is supposed to get back to be about
- Turn production costs and Market structure into my forte - Need to maintain my TOP econs position in class you know. ((:
- GPP! Ah freak. More interation with j.
- Confirm holiday dates (as in outing dates, I think I have like 5 free days and thats about it)
- Get owed birthday presents - I feel quite damn bad lah.
- Pack my table. Messy doesnt even BEGIN to describe it
And the list goes on. I bet Cleavon the chao mugger doesnt even have like 1/2 of this.
Oh I wanted to blog about other stuff, but they'll have to wait. I needed to put those stuff down to have a very organized list. My handbook is overflowing and threatening to spill.
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/19/2005 08:07:00 PM
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Tuesday, May 17
I just cant wait to be kingMy group came up with these for class rules :
1) No whispering in class - offenders will be tau pok-ed
2) No sudden erruptions of breakdance
3) No plucking of leg hair - offenders will get their leg hair plucked by everyone in class
4) No bitting of fingernails - offenders will get their nails painted
5) No farting
and all except (1) got chosen. What a funky class. ((:
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/17/2005 09:46:00 PM
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Sunday, May 15
The Keys to Your Heart |
| You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. |
| In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. |
| You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. |
| You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. |
| Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. |
| Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
| You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
| In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
Dar's was quite accurate so I thought I'll try for fun. Its true to a large extent. ((: HAPPY DARYL DAY by the way! haha. Dont worry yah, things are gonna work out for you. You deserve them to. You're gonna be the hottest squasher of AJC in time. ((:
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/15/2005 11:44:00 PM
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TWEE!swing swing*dysfunk.diary-x.comi love van
swing swing*dysfunk.diary-x.comvan rox
swing swing*dysfunk.diary-x.comvan rox so much
swing swing*dysfunk.diary-x.com^^
:)) So do I man! When I heard that NS announcement I got really quite scared. I never wondered how it would be like without my eviler twin. When I did, it kind of scared me. But that was really quite a dumb worry. Like they would pull him out of JC to go for NS and cut botak. ((:
This weekends been crazy. I just saw the class blog and I SO wanted to have been there for Mother Courage! ): I cant wait till the next time
THIRTYEIGHT comes back and when we fit together again! ((:
Well, I'm sorry for those I've frightened on Friday. I cant quite point it out, but I suppose it was the various demands pouring in and my sudden realization of how I haven't had time even when I'm not working. hahh. It felt kind of good to be crying and blaming people for leaving me behind, for being unreasonable and all. It was so easy, admitting I'm weak and I cant take it . I know its easy- quit maths and drop a cca or two and I'll be free and easy and stressfree and have time for everyone once again. Then I know its actually quite dumb. I have the happy right to pick up and drop off whatever I want /don't want. Since I've chosen to hold on, I wont let anything get me down. I wont let the stress stop me and I'll learn to be strong. People around me care I know. They worry I cant take it, they're upset that I've barely minutes for them. But they just have to learn how to understand. How I'm built this way and how I love them. Anyway, I felt that people who cared really make me and its them who'll always tell me and help me believe I can go on. The usuals like Por and the surprisings like Hendric. And Mao did something I thought was really nice even though it was just a small action, I was really quite touched.
Ms Wong is leaving. The news hit me fast and hard and left me gaping at her for the whole period. I cried just a little which means quite abit. She affected in my decision to come back to the arts. I dont think I'll ever meet a teacher whom I'll come to respect, love and admire so much in a span of 4 months. For a moment I really felt like begging her to stay, not to go. I know I'm childish, and I know I'm wrong. She's leaving for the greener pastures and she's gonna be oh-so-happy. I should be happy for her too, I am. But its hard when I'm gonna miss her so.
ODAC camp was really nice. * was there and we had a nice easy sharing session on the first night. Kokwee asked us to share our proudest achievement and most embarrassing moment. I said I was proudest to have people around me (This is true. I'll never find out why people enjoy loving talentless freaks like me. But I'm glad they do.) and most embarrassing as not living up to my own standards.
Was MT (or whatever you spell it) i.e. in charge for the first night and I couldn't help but feel that Kokwee kept sending me vibes of unhappiness so that was kindda discouraging. We climbed Bukit Timah hill the next day and it was fun even though it killed me but I'm quite proud that I had proven my own mental strength in a very small way. Its a start I guess. Changtai helped me with that 42l pack and I really feel quite warm inside in a sense that.. Well you know, TEAMMATES! ((: I SAW AARON! AH! And he looked SO good and pro in his running kit! I miss miss MISS that jiemei of mine!!
We broke camp on a pretty low note cause Kokwee was telling us how much we've let him down and how we are no longer who he thought we was during selections. Morel was really quite low cause we all knew he is true. We just didnt want to admit the problem exists. I really hope something is done and we'll be together happy and strong again.
I will blog about today tomorrow.
Things haven't been going so smooth lately. I'm been so much weaker as of late and everything seems to be testing out my will. But I will be strong cause I if I want to be there for others, I cant very well crumple and disintegrate. And I hate being weak and needy, whining as though I'm
THAT fragile and
THAT in pain. Cause I know I am not. Its all in the mind.
I will be here for you Por, ANYTIME.thanks chengyao, cecs, mao, dar and everyone who cared, really. You have no idea how you helped.
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/15/2005 10:08:00 PM
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Saturday, May 14
You know I can't smile without youI can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sleep
I don't even talk to people I mean
And I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're gladBut you must know what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you
You came along just like a song
You brightened my daywho'd believe you were part of a dream
That only seems light years away
and you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
And you must know what I'm going through
I just can't smile without youSome people say that happy this way
That something it's hard to find
Into the new leaving the old behind meI just got back from ODAC today and I am breaking up from inside. More tomorrow. I'm semi sad and extremely tired.
Por! I love you, I really do! Mamihlapinatapei : 5/14/2005 09:23:00 PM
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Thursday, May 12
untitledI'm just a kid, and life is a nightmare. I'll keep doing the work but its endless and its terrible. I'm just wasting taxpayers and my parents money by going to school and fading away.
At least theres ODAC camp tomorrow. I hope its gonna be fun and Mr Lim wont be so hitler-ish and I find my whistle with a cord. I think I'm just gonna roll down bukit timah hill and drown in the 6l of water that is jaming up the most humongous backpack I've ever carried.
Rah I feel like sitting here and waiting for my homework to get done by itself and knowledge to seep into my brain and everything to sort out by itself and things to be the same again. but it never happens this way.
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/12/2005 09:33:00 PM
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Tuesday, May 10
My heart is yours, to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewellery
Whichever you prefer
Its just one big nightmare its crazy and all I wanna do is sip champagne and suck on soap.
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/10/2005 03:51:00 AM
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Monday, May 9
You are Heroin (aka: smack, dope, brown sugar...).
You are the most dangerous drug between all
other kinds. You are bold, deep, dark,
mysterious, have your own world. You are
classified as class (A) illegal drugs.
I hope I did okay for today. (: Every mondays getting pretty exciting dodging all the various teachers. And tomorrows just gonna be one huge cycle. The soccer people went down to J8 to eat kfc after getting fried by econs and maths and its wierd somehow. Por will understand. haha, not that I'm not enjoying their company lah, maybe its just me today with my lack of sleep. Which will be repeated again today. Rahh, I totally need some of Cleavons chao mugging sprit.
http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz_IM.php?quizname=050509083444-969440
take the quiz and make me happy. (:
(I tagged one answer wrongly. On my red squishy bottle, it says fate fell short this time. But I tagged the answer wrongly)
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/09/2005 08:11:00 PM
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Sunday, May 8
Every child's champion
Happy Mamas Day!
I was listening to Best I Ever Had by thirtyeightohfive (first 3 mths) and it brought back so much memories. I love this song. I seems like just yesterday we took our first maths test together in the audi when that balding lecturer called us birds in a bird park.
Well its not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
And it make take some time to patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I runaway and hide
And I may find in time that you were always right
You're always right
But no lah, thirtyfiveohfive is pretty fine as well. :) Even if we have been complained about by teachers, J1s and J2s. Its just a pharse I'm sure. Or they're jealous we're funkier than them. :) By the way, it sucks having to say 38 (first three months). It seems so unreal.
Dashing back to the books for useless fights and struggles with math.
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/08/2005 07:35:00 PM
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Saturday, May 7
Perfect competition
We went to catch the guys tonament thinggy (unsure what it is exactly) this morning and even when they lost, they were every bit the winners to us. Guoxing said they won a match for US, so that was kindda nice. ((: We just stood around and bought new slippers and laughed at the lao beng. :D
When we have nothing to do, we take pictures, and alot of them at that. I dont know why exactly, but it happy to look back sometimes to just see how things used to be. (e.g the retarded zies photo and the kanasai yearbook one)
Zies gathered to celebrate qius and por rather belated 17th. It was comforatble and happy and easy and no one actually cared that me and por were in tee and shorts. Just the way we like it. Eiz's hair has grown so long and sheena is so sexay now! Really, no one in AJ comes close to replacing these dears. (: I LOVE THE ZIES!!
Anyway, the photos below are of today, and some random shots here and there from my 700i.
Its mothers day tomorrow and I've decide to wake early and cook breakfast cause unlike sheena, I dont have $99 to buy her a beautiful diamond necklace. ):
Well, I'm still lagging in econs and hopelessly lost in maths. I will so get on it tomorrow. I promise to not step out of the house and to mug like the nerd in me. ((:
I took a pretty OK passport photo and that made me happy and wrapped up my sinfully enjoyable day. ((:
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 11:09:00 PM
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I love you too bestie!
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 11:06:00 PM
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I didnt quite need the reminder. :D
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 11:06:00 PM
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My favourite picture of the day. The facadeless happiness
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 11:05:00 PM
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Big head shots rock!
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 11:04:00 PM
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Taken by MYSELF, once again! :D
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 11:04:00 PM
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Busy busy HOLE-ly shees
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 11:03:00 PM
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We'll always do the dumbest things together!
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 11:03:00 PM
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BESTIE! Pretty as always!
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 11:03:00 PM
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I LOVE THE ZIES DARLINGS! PAM AND BOBS! We totally missed your presense!
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 11:03:00 PM
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Its good considering the camera was on a BUSH
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 11:02:00 PM
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I took this by MYSELF, with the camera on a bush. ((;
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 11:02:00 PM
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Some passerby took this for us. His skills are pretty bad
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 11:01:00 PM
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Qiu, feeling her moustarch
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:59:00 PM
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Shees! Getting preetier and preetier by the second!
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:59:00 PM
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Boon went "eh! same name, got discount ornot!"
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:59:00 PM
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I'm running out of stuff to say for our photos por!
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:58:00 PM
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- BEAGGG SMILE!
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:58:00 PM
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okay lah, we took abit TOO much pictures
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:58:00 PM
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candid
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:57:00 PM
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:D :D :D
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:56:00 PM
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ah my photography skills are PRO ok! I like this pic too! Guoxing claimed phototaking sapped all his energy away, that lousy sciencer
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:56:00 PM
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Much better! I quite like this pic!
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:55:00 PM
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HAHAH
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:54:00 PM
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I LOVE self portraits!
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:54:00 PM
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Eeee YUCK
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:53:00 PM
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Looking totally unnatural
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:53:00 PM
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See see! I love this Por Wan Ling!
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:51:00 PM
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We irritated MANAGER to know end with all our photo requests
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I have a mushroom head
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:50:00 PM
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Peipei, taking a break from being teah.
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:50:00 PM
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Guoxing (finally) with a decent smile
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:50:00 PM
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PORLIE! I think we took 87 pictures together in today alone!
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:49:00 PM
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MANAGER! :D
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:49:00 PM
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Ci with him GIRLY glasses ((;
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:49:00 PM
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The notice reads : (I mean, he is so the part)
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:48:00 PM
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Daryl trying to be cuties under the notice
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:48:00 PM
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yanan, rosy, rain, yiwen, the pillar and limin
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:47:00 PM
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But they were WORST. tsk tsk. electee you know...
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:47:00 PM
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Okay, I wasnt exactly paying full attention in maths
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:47:00 PM
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SUPER dao chengyao
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:46:00 PM
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Its Por's milk teeth holder! It attracts the tooth faries!
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:46:00 PM
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Me and Pors favourite tee of the moment!
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:45:00 PM
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I love this baybeh of mine!
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:45:00 PM
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With boon and his bian bian hair
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:45:00 PM
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Aww shucks! I miss shes hole-ly shirt already!
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:43:00 PM
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I'll be there when the world stops turning!
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:42:00 PM
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:D We took like 382972379821 photos in pizza hut.
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:42:00 PM
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After ODAC on friday. My favourite spotter of all! ((;
Mamihlapinatapei : 5/07/2005 10:41:00 PM
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I look FREAKING DUMB
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