I EAT YOU

Saturday, December 31

Yikes, tomorrows really hetic with the different groups of people and the unconfirmed times and people turning up. Freak, I hate feeling like I'm hanging around and simply waiting for people (even though in this case it is not very applicable) as though they're the center of my life. If you freaking want to go out, then make up your freaking mind. What see first and maybe and dont know? So what I'm expected to just sit by and count the pimples on my face while waiting for you to decide at about 6 min before our meeting time if you're really coming or our meeting destination? Really, if I'm that unimportant to you, dont even agree to come out and save the hassel. But no, its okay, Van will wait for you cause she has nothing better to do. WRONG. I'm waiting for you because, I am nice, much against my will.

So theres Wenxun's house and ODAC and the best friend and the class. I should just pick one and stick to it. Maybe I'll just stay at home, its just a freaking new year.

I'm getting spoiled, I can sense it.

Maybe it's because I just lost $6.60 at marjong after playing for 4 hours.

Mamihlapinatapei : 12/31/2005 03:00:00 AM
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Friday, December 30

Are you proud to be plastic?

I'm too weak to face myself, but strong enough for everything else.

So Harry and Daryl tracked to my house in the noble name of our econs project. Yup, and we're at least 60% done (85% after I finish blogging and get round to my part) So see, another assignment bites the dust. Nothing to worry about, really. (:

So Harry being the retard that he is pulled by bunny along of a round of dance to his singing (I want it that way, BSB) Pity we were too slow to catch him on video, but heres a quite funny one of him flashing my bunny, which is a he by the way. (:

Yesterday, Makka outing to the settlers was super fun with the tenant theives and into the dragon. (: The turn out was sad and sorry but we blame it on the OGL stuff and hey we had fun anyway. haha, two more days and its our 1 year anniversary, we can hardly wait. :D

My absolute favourite place of this year and next!

Dragon deltas should be hailed!

MAKKA! haha, I guess OGs are really important, and to the majority of you who lost yours, ha, too bad, you can be jealous of mine.

And finally, I've managed to squeeze the marathon photos out of that stingy Taiyong. ((:

ODACs been the most amazing ever, I cant wait for one more year with them. :D

Does anyone remember magnetic flux linkages? The old loves of my life.

Mamihlapinatapei : 12/30/2005 05:51:00 PM
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Paper Aeroplanes are best made from A4 sized papers. Any larger it'll be too heavy, and smaller and there wont be enough draft. (:

And 5 dollar jeans last better when burnt and bitten.

The kind of things we learn in an econs project meeting. (:

Mamihlapinatapei : 12/30/2005 12:12:00 PM
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Thursday, December 29

In no particular order, list down:

3 people you talk to online
4 people you see at school
2 teachers
3 people you love going out with
3 people in your sms inbox

1) Mrs Seah
2) Daryl
3) Alan
4) Pam Bestfriend
5) Raine
6) Harry
7) Chen Yong Ming
8) Cleavon
9) Alex
10) Hazel
11) Enen
12) Mark Lam
13) Qiu
14) Shenglong
15) Wans

- So what do you think of number 4? -
SHES THE MOST AWSOME GIRL I SWEAR! :D

- How would you feel if number 4 slapped your face? -
I would cry for about 67 days then scar myself and smash through walls and smoke weed and tell my history teacher I love him. Yes, if you cant tell how I would feel even now, get away from me.

- On a scale of 1 to 10, how good-looking do you think number 5 is? -
On an ah lian scale, maybe 9.2.

- How nice is number 6? -
Wheres the scale? About as nice as I am tall.

- Honestly, if number 8 met an accident, what would you do? -
I wouldnt know. Depends on the accident. Choy.

- Would i ever fall for 11? -
Sure, anyday. (: Too bad she prefers vegetation to me

- What if number 1 got a boyfriend? -
Shes married, so I guess that wont be too good.

- What sport would i play with number 12? -
haha, Basketball ! Cause I BEAT HIM.

- How much do you like number 12? -
How do you define much? Wheres the scale? But yes, I like Mark Lam just enough.

- Would 13 and 7 make a good couple? -
Haha, definately not, 7 would be pulp and 13 drowning.

- Do you hate number 9? -
Please, who bothers to blog about people the hate?

- Would 14 kill me one day? -
Aint really sure. Maybe in one of our lian vs beng showdown. (:

- Who do you like more, 3 or 10? -
I hate sowing discard.

Thanks Chen enen. So that kept me away from fiscal policies for aboy 7 minutes.

And I cheated. :/

Mamihlapinatapei : 12/29/2005 11:43:00 PM
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If I fell in love with your smile
How do I hide it, or call it my own?
And if you're happy when its not because of me
The ability to let go deems if you're truely mine.

Mamihlapinatapei : 12/29/2005 10:51:00 PM
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Nothing and no one can actually make you weaker, they just show you how strong you actually are. :)

Mamihlapinatapei : 12/29/2005 10:54:00 AM
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Wednesday, December 28

Grab a piece of the sky

I'm happy wearing thin.

I'm happy singing the sad songs of yesterday.

I'm happy bowling gutterballs.

I'm happy with my ah lian buddy.

I'm happy learning qing tian on the guitar even if I'm 2 years slow.

I'm happy trodding from Clarke quay to Malinia Walk in my 59 baht sandals.

I'm happy peering into semi-closed shops and fighting for a pathetic glimpse of the N70.

And tomorrow, the cycle begins all over again. ((:

Mamihlapinatapei : 12/28/2005 11:48:00 PM
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You should stop wearing me out.

I'm different and beautiful. (:

And hey, the holiday homework arent so much after all. (:

Mamihlapinatapei : 12/28/2005 09:36:00 AM
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Tuesday, December 27

~~The only thing that means everything to me.~~

If you think I cannot look any worse, you're wrong, and I've got a picture to prove it.

This was then, (actually it was only not too far away- last year and its too awful to put a big picture of me alone. haha)

And this is now.

So quit complaining already.

Looked through those old photos of yesterdays and I realized looks dont matter, I was happier then. So I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor, and finally, I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for. But photographs only capture the happy memories that we chose to capture. Would you take a picture when you're downright upset or angry? So in a sense, they're the memories we chose to keep, and thats enough, cause memories are designed to fade (yes, I've realized), thats when photographs serve to bring them back.

Haha, okay did that fit in? yes anway, today was the outing with the special people whom didnt get washed away with time. Set lunches at Cartel on Tuesdays are the bestest, remember that when you want to ask me out from lunch, and I found Narnia quite thought provoking in the oddest fashion. A childs voice, however honest and true, is useless to those who've forgotten how to listen. I took this for somewhere I forgot and may have mentioned it before, but no matter, we can always use a reminder. And Peter, the magnificent, was quite good looking, keep an eye out for him (hes not hard to spot, dont worry) haha.

Dota is a social activity for me, and I dont last well for more than a game or two. But its always fun when you win in the end, though I'm probably feeding off my partner's glory. haha. :))

And just for you Alex.

Oh well, we cant always have good hair days can we?

My charbors and the meow, I like!!

I’ve landed on my knees too often, I’ll dust myself off one more time and I watch you retrogress with a pinch of pain and pleasure. Your illusionary power doesn't threaten me anymore. So why am I afraid to look you in the eye?

~~Maybe~~ warm hands are better than cold ones. :))

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your life to rescue me

Lock the doors
leave the world outside
All I´ve got to give to you
Are these five words tonight

Thank you for loving me, Por

Mamihlapinatapei : 12/27/2005 10:01:00 PM
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Sunday, December 25

Foiled and Glittered

We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we’d know
We said someday we’d find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel

When things are madly rushing and you want to talk all about them, it simple piles and usually, I'll say I'll blog about them later and dont, but not today, cause today is well, christmas, so lets join hands and dance round the plastic tree with the fake presents under it.

Doesnt that sound all cynical? haha, well nope, Happy christmas everybody, may you have the most meaningful christmas ever (whatever it may mean to you). Me, I do comercialized christmas celebration, I dont exactly go for mass and pray for His rebirth. I meet up with people and have fun with them like I can always do any other time. But its usually during this period I actually think about how the end of the year is here, how many people am I grateful for and how many do I actually miss.

So, I meant to sent chirstmas cards to all, but unless you're meeting me, I'm afraid you wont get one cause. I'm sorry, its christmas already. I'll message, personalized!

And thank you, for coming into my life and thank you for walking out. I guess if i impacted your life, you probably did mine too. And if I didnt make a difference to yours, you may still have made a difference to mine anyway. (: So yes, I honestly am thankful and happy for most of you that have so delightfully decided to enter my little world. JCs been unbelievable with the many new people whom I got to know, and the some I've come to lose. No matter, I dont think I regret anything too much. :D

So 2006, here we go again. (: If you think I'm early, refresh the page and you'll see I'm right on time. Haha.

(Its gonna be a long long entry, so you'd better press back now before it gets even more exciting :))

I'm starting from before Thailand, where I had my St Johns NCO camp. My Zone One, My pride. I'm not exactly for or against it. Okay, more towards against. But I learnt hell alot, at the expense quite a few tugs on my temper and being seriously freaked out and knowing the fear of having someone being overly, abnormally reliant on you. But it was no where near to the best of our abilities. I didnt even take a photo with anyone there cause I didnt quite see any happy moments that needed to be captured till the end of time. But Drake was impressive, it truely was. :D But I wouldnt exactly account that to my leadership abilities, it was more like luck.

Instructor Training Camp was the perfect excuse for breaking camp early. ((: and ODAC was as usual a tubful of fun. The day stated all low cause we were late but when I left, it was one of the best camps I've ever attended. (:

Land trek preparation, dont we look all happy? (:

An almighty 9 men tent carry-er.

The store's collection of mass tins never fail to amaze me.

I wish the destination was unknown and we could have gone on forever.

This phathatic little tree wins tree of the year award for saving our stoves from the wind.

Cooking partners kicked ass and saved the world!

I insist that flashes makes faces look big and oily.

And we look so nice! ((:

Happy Happy seventeen Myra! :D

Then I jetted of the Bangkok where I couldnt resist all the good and cheap everything and pigged out and bought endless pairs of shoes. But you know, foreign currencies are like not real. What bad attitude I posess. Luckily, Bangkok is cheap. (: Met Raine and Jesline halfway and we had an awesome time on toot-toots and night markets! Laughing at fallen motobikes and waving to the many friendly unknowns and attracting all those ah-peks. :D Pictures revolves around the three of us. And lucky you, its my blog so they're going up. (: I took quite alot of marine life photos cause I paid $20 entry into this huge aqurium and I decided that I might as well take a few more shots. But I wont bore you with all 47 of them.

Look here Harry, I am right, as I always am. Its a Red sea star.

And they are actually really pretty. (:

Did I ever tell you I wished I was a sea otter?
Cause I do. (:

And we scream for Dunkin' Donuts!

Christmas joys.

They dont check ages over there, so yes, that is a drink.

I'm beyond glad I'm the photographer, that aside, I do admire their guts. (:

Braids - they seemed okay back then. haha

Packing up for home always makes you feel just a tad guilty.

Hairband and specs, hey, I dont think I look all that bad. (:

The people of long ago, of different aims, maybe we've let them pass one time too many.

So welcome-back dinner wasnt exactly very much welcoming back-ish , but it was nice and warm enough. Jalan Kayu and the friends you'd thought would have been left behind by now. ((:

Check out the front of this shirt.

The love-hate relation with this so called friend of mine. (:

I'm just glad they didnt leave me behind. ((:

Then there was Daniel's christmas party where the booze was left out and the food was delightfully home-ly. We were quite a small group but as with all thirtyeight outings, it was a happy group free of pretense and even annoyance with chee ko pei was a funny affair. ((: haha, and secret santas should be done just about everyday! ((: I'm sorry I had to give yin hars a miss though, meeting that baybeh would have been awesome, but time factor aside, I guess maybe some part of me just wasnt strong enough. Please dont ask me why. (: Back again, Thirtyeight was one of the best I've ever had and I'll always be glad I got to call it mine.

Rocking around the christmas tree with the secret santa's gifts right under. ((:

Think of me, think of me fondly,
When we say goodbye

Too-cool-for-you shirt!

Twinnies should be for life and beyond. :D

Nope, we havent given up on the SFC.

Nothing beats keeping it real. :D I love,

And then and then , if you've noticed, I was away from the 21-24th Dec for my 3 star kayaking course when I hid out under 18kg kayaks by the salty sea and singing shan hu hai on permanant repeat. Trying and failing and trying those rolls and refining thoses strokes and eyeing that contact lense and shoving elbows into too-heavy-to-be-true kayaks in my faily struggle to get them to the beachfront and back and enjoying Changi Village and having ah beng-ah lian showdowns. In short, it was awesome. :D If only it didnt have to end. And I feel so much more an ODACian.

I'm so glad I decided to go for this, it benifitted me in ways I didnt predict. (:

I laughed at this for 4 days, and I felt that I have to show you. ((:

Girl power, those babes I love. ((:

Are you cheering for us yet?

I know I look terrible, but this shot was taken when we were on top of the world. :D

He can do 3 continuous rolls, and that put me stright into this mushroom head , kayaking partner's fanclub. (:

Sengkang gang at the start.

And at the end. haha, laugh at my flat flat hair if thats what you want to do.

For you I'll steal the sun and halt the rain, just for you :)

bei ke li ying chang she me qi dai?

Mess with the ChaO aH LiAN and Si AH BenGZ at your very own risk. haha, okay, role playing was fun while it lasted. :D

Its been so quick, too quick, and we've been darlings for far too short a time.

Dont worry, I'll catch you.

Counting down till christmas in town was my first, but I'm not too sure if I take to bangalas and that foamy mess and the uncalled for hit ons and the tao poks in skirts and the homeless sleeping. But it was fun, even if we didnt get to see the so called fireworks that never was (see clems, dont blame us for not believing in you. :))