Thursday, September 29
Im still very amused that wing called me earlier today and DEMANDED to know what I was going to batam for. Hahaha
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/29/2011 05:01:00 PM
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Off to Batam with no social network and 1 BBE, I'm excited but I hope we dont get lost lest she starts crying.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/29/2011 03:25:00 PM
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I think you're the biggest unicorn.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/29/2011 02:16:00 AM
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Mollywolly puts it perfectly when she said the 4 perfect 'words' for now is 心灰意冷.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/29/2011 01:24:00 AM
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Wednesday, September 28
Tonight, I'm dwelling once again in the 一个人太少，两个人太多 feeling that is absolutely annoying. I could hope for a random phonecall that will probably never come. I miss the days we call each other just for fun, as part of our nightly ritual.
(I'm sinking so low that I'm actually grateful for having a prolonged conversation with my ex-coach whom I usually find is full of rubbish.)
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/28/2011 11:17:00 PM
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"We never made it there, but that’s okay. We made it to other places."
- Thought Catalogue
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/28/2011 09:18:00 PM
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It is of my personal belief that when theres nothing to fight for, the fighting will stop.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/28/2011 08:50:00 PM
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"I made a lot of mistakes before I got to you (each one honest and none that I regret). The same way a tree bends in the wind and twists and turns, before it can touch the sky."
- I wrote this for you.
Welcome home Por (:
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/28/2011 01:52:00 AM
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Tuesday, September 27
I once forced myself to stop being emotionally attached to someone I once thought was incapable of any true emotions but hunger and sickness. Tonight, I have never been happier to eat my words (:
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/27/2011 10:41:00 PM
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Honestly, do we really care?
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/27/2011 04:45:00 AM
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Monday, September 26
There exists no good explanation as to why I feel so incredibly lost right now and no it's not really just the whole unfamiliar experience of being awake at 7am. If only someone I actually liked would text me good morning just because and act as a distraction. Can I just say I am still perplexed as to why some people are completely delusional in the self awareness department. However as a potential 'sociologist' I believe in the social mirror theory in which people tend to view themselves the way other people view and treat them. So maybe it's not their fault that they are so hopelessly clueless but ours instead for playing and pretending to keep each other happy. I hate being so 别扭 about such things that no one else seem to give half a damn about (which perplexes me too- how can they not?)
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/26/2011 07:56:00 AM
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Saturday, September 24
We dance to the song of heartbreak and hope.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/24/2011 02:16:00 AM
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Wednesday, September 21
I love how our lengthy talks on the C317 floor consists of so much grouse, aggression, pessimism, optimism, bitchiness, empathy, happiness, hopes, hopelessness, expectations, resignation, sianness, dolor, mirth and everything else in between. 'Sian' will never be enough. (:
Its actually ironic how I have the appearance of being the world's second biggest social butterfly when I make the conscious effort to not get to know most new people. I also struggle with the problem of having a history of burning bridges but I'll have it be known that most bridges are actually drowned in my tears and the loss of most close friends are more upsetting to me than you think.
I never meant to let this pass, I just didn't think that this happiness will last.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/21/2011 04:52:00 AM
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Tuesday, September 20
Ya la ya la I'm the 犯贱 kind la
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/20/2011 01:02:00 PM
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LIVING IN A POWDERED KEG AND GIVING OFF SPARKS. Mamihlapinatapei : 9/20/2011 01:26:00 AM
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Multiple bruises on my head- serves me right for diving in.
I think every room needs a window- the bigger the better.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/20/2011 01:13:00 AM
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Monday, September 19
I cannot think of a single reason why things would improve on its own. Fortunately I also sincerely believe that there's a boiling point for everything and just waiting it out for the straw that will break my back.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/19/2011 02:20:00 AM
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I have many angels in my life it it's ridiculous (: there are so many things I love about so many people I wonder how I can contain so much love (it's fair I guess, balances out the amount of dissatisfaction I contain as well).
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/19/2011 02:14:00 AM
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Saturday, September 17
My mind is almost as messy as my room and I feel like I need to clean my room in order to get a good nights sleep and a clear mind. But that might take hours and mean no sleep at all. Xuerong is the best person I spoke to about my rugby fear and she hit the nail when she asked what does my concerns matter in the face of the team. Its so simple, and I can't believe I never heard this before.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/17/2011 02:14:00 AM
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Friday, September 16
I'm so glad you came back (:
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/16/2011 02:06:00 AM
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Thursday, September 15
Wanting the cup of hot Ribena with lemon that I had at a random cha can ting in Hongkong when I was coughing one lung out. Also wanting whoever it is (I assume it has to be a boy to be this inconsiderate) to stop showing off his playlist to the entire lower kent ridge drive.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/15/2011 04:14:00 AM
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Wednesday, September 14
The theme of this week could be insecurity. And on that note, one night in Laos, a slightly high phin decided to make it open to the table about how I'm very insecure and the conversation across the entire table at the Dragon Lodge went something like this:
P: You don't know meh, shes very insecure
Me: WHATT???
Wing : Insecure about what!
P: Her height, her weight, her ball handling abilities (I'm actually freakked that Phin really knows because I dont think we've ever actually talked about it. I must be a lot less discreet then I think I am.)
W: For what! Whos insecure about their height? -round of hands go up across the table- Whos insecure about her thighs? -bigger round of hands go up across the table- See, you're not alone!
And even when I'm out of my slightly BearLao intoxicated state, I feel the same warm and fuzzy feeling inside thinking about this episode. (:
Labels: blessed.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/14/2011 03:04:00 PM
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没有关系你的世界就让你拥有
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/14/2011 05:22:00 AM
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Tuesday, September 13
If I could turn back time, I would choose to graduate at the end of Yr3.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/13/2011 02:34:00 PM
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It feels like I'm living the worst day, it feels like you're gone.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/13/2011 01:02:00 AM
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Monday, September 12
Some things I'll never get: how the law of attraction works, why the 'truth' is ever elusive, how many times am I going to 重蹈覆辙, why is letv free and why no one gets me like Phin does.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/12/2011 02:16:00 AM
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而我知道放开手但不知道怎么忘掉
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/12/2011 02:08:00 AM
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Saturday, September 10
Its nice, to have random messages with nothing more than "Morning" or better yet "I'm coming to get you"; to have someone ask you out to the toilet for that 2
mins of alone time to share something so dear which I never would have guessed; to have someone secretly just driving you home even though you said not to; to have people to you only know by referral talk to you like old friends; to feel happy drinking cider even though I hate alcohol; to have someone tell you she loves smoking and yet love the person no less; to buy both the breakfast and supper cappuccino for someone; to have someone unexpected notice that "you've not been the same lately"; to feel like it would be the same soon.
Its nice to be in Blacks. (:
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/10/2011 11:52:00 PM
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Friday, September 9
The ultimate discourse on the art of whining.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/09/2011 03:24:00 AM
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On drama punctuated nights, I miss my peaceful neighbour Minli and I miss exploding into her room with my wails and whines and letting her peace and serenity fill my heart.
Do I look for drama, create drama, find drama when there is none or does drama come to me? What wrong with the honest comment of "I really have better things to do"? Am I trying to be heartless, am I as heartless as I seem or am I heartless in delusion?
(Hows that for making everything a tragicomic for you?)
Anyway I got recommended this app called Letv (Now dont you accuse me of only caring for myself when I am sharing the best thing that happened to me in 2011 with you) and you can watch so much drama on it both streamed and downloaded. A while ago (and the problem seems to be intensifying) I confessed my friends' problem with my addiction to my iphone (this sentence is actually quite funny read it again) but now, I am really never looking up (or leaving my bed) even though someone said my real life drama has more to offer than TVB.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/09/2011 01:14:00 AM
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Tuesday, September 6
This remains THE FREAKING BEST PORK BURGER I've ever had (although it did contain Haggis, I only found out later to much disgust and guilty indifference). I would like one right now, like NOW.
Am seriously considering a solo venture out in search for dimsum and instead of Sociology of Family tomorrow. But I have a strong suspicion that as usual, sleep will triumph all.
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/06/2011 03:33:00 AM
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Sunday, September 4
Dear people of the world (especially to those who gets annoyed when I
wassapp when I'm with you (yes you
HJE and
BBH) )),
You are officially allowed to glare at me and remove my phone from me (using brute force if necessary) when I look at my phone excessively when I'm out with you. * This is because I recognize I need some intervention to prevent myself from developing the terrible bad habit of being glued to my perfect phone, a habit which I personally abhor because it is terribly rude and akin to saying "whatever I have going on with someone else is more important than whatever I could be doing with you". Wassapping is the least of the evil because at least it is a live conversation going on with someone out there. But gaming, tweeting, internet exploring and FACEBOOKING is terribly unforgivable because those things can actually wait. And if the person on the other end interests you so much, you should be there with him/her and not out with boring me.
(yes I know I changed my position from perpetrator to victim in a span of one paragraph)
*Unless I can offer up a good enough reason or if I'm talking to WL (which is in itself a perfect reason)
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/04/2011 02:32:00 AM
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Saturday, September 3
天真如我,
张开双手以为撑得住未来
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/03/2011 04:03:00 AM
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Thursday, September 1
I know that God must love me cause He sent you to constantly ask me where I am, who I'm with, what I'm doing :D
Labels: KAIHUI, love you
Mamihlapinatapei : 9/01/2011 04:28:00 AM
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I know that God must love me cause He sent you to constantly ask me where I am, who I'm with, what I'm doing :D