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Friday, April 30

I know the worlds a broken bone;
but melt your headaches, call it home

Whats it with the labels? Sure its nice to refer to someone's (relative) master identity, but that really isnt what everyone is all about. She's not just the lesbian and hes not just the tall geeky one in school- we're so different in so many circumstance and to so many people. No one should forget that.

Labeling places so much restrictions on what you should do, who you should love and what you should do. Just go out, have adventures and stop trying to fall in line with the rest of the world because "If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is becaise he hears the beat of a different drummer" (Henry David Thorean).

With all that said, my world is somewhat a contained mess.

Labels: stargazing

Mamihlapinatapei : 4/30/2010 03:19:00 AM
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Thursday, April 29

You can never really know someone completely. That’s why it’s the most terrifying thing in the world, really- taking someone on faith, hoping they’ll take you on faith too. It’s such a precarious balance, it’s a wonder we do it at all.

-A Great and Terrible Beauty

The most painful thing about rugby is watching people get injured or hearing about their injury. And it knowing there's nothing you can do about it. Today I watched wing get injured again, this time breaking her nose into serveral pieces, and the same stab of helplessness just presents itself. But it is also for this very same reason I just want to keep playing and keep becoming better even if I'm not exceptionally talented- to be there for people and to run for those who can't.

I know this is really an emo post gone bad, but I hope hope her op goes well.

Labels: rugby

Mamihlapinatapei : 4/29/2010 01:21:00 AM
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Wednesday, April 28

If my kitchen looked like this I think I would be in heaven. I miss baking- I miss the oven and the disgusting baking tray and the cake mix and the cookies that wouldnt harden and the molten lava chocolate cake that wouldnt stay molten.

Went for handball today and I had fun and it further goes to show I worry too much.

Labels: (:, handball

Mamihlapinatapei : 4/28/2010 01:39:00 AM
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Tuesday, April 27

You've got a smile that could light up this whole town

Why oh why am I actually hooked on a Taylor Swift song?

Home has been everything I ever wanted- its been two weeks and I'm finally getting round to the idea that my credit cards are confiscated and I sweat even in 24degrees air conditioned room. But its weird this transition- I look at everyone with more or less the same eyes that looked upon them 8 months ago, but I dont think it works the other way. Things happened for them that I wasn't a part of after all. I guess I can't demand for the world to wait.

But I'll say for sure, I've been loved. (:

Its the when the hopeful bubble in you that pops that makes you wonder why did you hope in the first place and you only stop wondering when the next bubble rises. haha

Labels: holiday, stargazing

Mamihlapinatapei : 4/27/2010 12:31:00 AM
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Saturday, April 10

Its been 3 weeks of the most unwinterish winter break and 2 more pairs of Havaianas which I really do not need. I'm really to see the boys in a couple of hours and I'm somewhat thinking of LA as 'home' because it will be there when I see all those people I know deserve a part of my heart as I leave for home 2 days later.

But the musing can wait because my mac has about 15 more mins and I need to board my plane (FINALLY- I got kicked out of yet another United flight a few hours ago)

You're like my tears controller or something. (:

Labels: holiday

Mamihlapinatapei : 4/10/2010 05:21:00 AM
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Tuesday, April 6

I've got sunshine, in my life, and it shines so bright!

Zhenglong just asked me if I'll be back next Thursday, and, I WILL! Then I saw Hazel's email asking everyone to come out for XLB with me! Then I see homecoming greetings on my wall! OMG OMG OMG! am super super excited!

Its so surreal that I'm at South beach today, gonna be in the Bahamas tomorrow and home in a week-ish). I'm praying for my luggages everyday!

Qiu and Por (my loyalites) : I'm good, I chacha-ed in Mexico, surfed at Wakiki and got ink-ed in Miami (no just kidding). (: