Friday, December 31
Colour the coast with your smile
Is it that special occasions are no longer as meaningful or that every day can be so special (without the crowds) that special occasions are no longer special? I guess I'm celebrating the end of what will always be remembered as the year of the cyst by staying in with my bolster, a can of coke, season 2 of my all time favourite series (sex and the city) and sense of happy neutralism.
Gone are the days of double/triple booking places to be and people to meet on special occasions, and this has been the most social reclusive year of my life and I don't foresee any changes in the near future. Is it the lack of faith in people or the increasing sense of independence?
This time last year I was alone (ironically I was in the cheapest mixed room for room of 8) in Green
tortoise hostel, Seattle. This time this year I am still alone (still on a bed) and still feeling like the year that just passed left so much unanswered and the year that is to come will holds so much promises.
In 2011, I will try not to fall in love (in whatever sense) with anyone who thinks I'm ordinary.
Irrationally enough, I miss you and I wish we spoke the same language. This is the last thing I want to say on my blog this year because maybe (hopefully?) this time next year I will look at it and remember everything worth remembering together with everything thats not.
Labels: (:, ):, random, stargazing
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/31/2010 10:01:00 PM
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I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/31/2010 10:50:00 AM
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You saw me, when You were on the cross.
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/31/2010 02:33:00 AM
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All the energy is supposed to be worth it. But I can't quite put my sprained little finger as to why traces of melancholy emerges. When is too much of good things simply too much?
I was truly happy for most part of the day, except the two times I had to slap myself 3 times over to get out of bed. Oh and during the highly intense dance conversation (is that what being a nonsportswoman feel like at training? Maybe I shouldnt be too harsh then) that annoyed my battered jaw. But otherwise, I am a lot happier than I sound.
Oh and I had fun being complete sluts with the pack leader of the 155 club at 1 am and that completely made my day. (:
Labels: Eusoff, love you, random, rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/31/2010 02:17:00 AM
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Thursday, December 30
“Sometimes people use thought to not participate in life.”- The Perks of Being a Wallflower
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/30/2010 11:32:00 PM
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最华丽的情调 / 比不上那微笑
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/30/2010 02:57:00 AM
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But a caged bird stands on the grave of dreams
his shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
his wings are clipped and his feet are tied
so he opens his throat to sing.
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I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings, Maya Angelou Mamihlapinatapei : 12/30/2010 01:37:00 AM
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Despite getting a B+ for soci of emotions, I am still none the wiser about why emotions are such unstable states of being. Like one split second ago I was on a high from having an awesome time at Wing's with the contact girls and but its all so different now.
It could be the side effects of having a womb.
But I had such a good time it was probably one of the best ways to end the year of the cyst. ((:
Labels: random, rugby, stargazing
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/30/2010 01:05:00 AM
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Wednesday, December 29
And today, I'm officially (whatever that means) missing you.
I feel like when I'm nice to people, most of the time, the person is superficially nice back when actually he/she doesn't really care if I'm nice or not, some times the person takes it as a sign that I am a mild person and steps all over me, occasionally the person replies with so much enthusiasm I get overwhelmed and once in a while the person thinks I'm being creepy and/or overwhelming.
Am I just hard to please or is it no longer fashionable that niceness begets niceness in the purest form? Don't get me wrong, I am nice to people (mostly) because I want to be but recently I've been wondering if people don't actually welcome that sense of niceness then what is really the point? What happened to the days of being nice to people and finding a nice friend in return? Is it about the age and the people I meet or is there something fundamentally wrong in me per se? Is the days of meeting a Kaihui over (this is actually kind of creepy haha) ?
And there is no point in this musing because my boring 'nice' trait is something I can't help, something like my habit for opening doors for people.
On a much more positive note, the doctor (I refuse to say "my doctor" because I really want as little to do with NUH as possible) has given me the green light and after one day of friendly and back breaking Blacks, I am convinced I am fighting fit. I must say seeing the wound slowly close up (still a small little gap) really upped my low spirits bit by bit last week. (:
Today I also contemplated talking about you, for the very first time.
Labels: rugby, stargazing
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/29/2010 02:22:00 AM
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I begged you not to go, I begged you, I pleaded/ Claimed you as my only hope, and watched the floor as you retreated.
(in a completely non-whinny voice) Back damnnnnn pain.
Labels: :(
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/29/2010 12:20:00 AM
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Tuesday, December 28
Secretly damn worried about DP, even I cringe at the thought of myself doing that dreaded d word thing.
Labels: dance
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/28/2010 02:03:00 AM
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Saturday, December 25
Merry Christmas, darling
We're apart that's true
But I can dream and in my dreams
I'm Christmas-ing with you
Am I the only one around who still adores the Carpenters? Haha but I must say I'm pretty taken in by Glee's version as well.
But at the end/present/begining of the day, Jesus is the reason for the season.
Happy Birthday Jesus ((:
Labels: YOU (:
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/25/2010 02:19:00 AM
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Friday, December 24
Oh damn random but DBS randomly sent me a new card with "enhanced security features" just when I've been wanted a new card replacement for the longest time seeing as I broke mine the last time I was rolling on the snowy hills of Whistler around this time last year.
Its almost Christmas, and Gracie is taking too long to get here I am half on my way to sleep. But I'm not big on countdowns. I never was and even more so because Charlie irritated me quite a fair bit when he talked about how (it was New Years Day that I was trying to get him to be excited about I believe) he doesnt believe in countdowns because how do we know the time we follow is the correct one and like how one part of the world's new year is not the same as the other blah blah and hence there really is no precise "12.00am Happy New Year moment". And I got irrtated (silently of course) because although it make sense and further proves the point of how different he is from the rest of the world (to contesting effects), its also annoying to rationalize everything.
Alright shes here, just in time to save you from a discussion on what I think should be the true meaning of Christmas. (: Happy Christmas eve darlings.
Labels: holiday, random
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/24/2010 11:08:00 PM
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My senses are hardly ever wrong when it comes to things like this, but I can't alway reveal what I know or what I think I know.
Tis the season for forgiveness and love and for me to stop moping and start sleeping (:
Goodnight starlights (I think of Keith every time I say this)
Labels: (:, random
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/24/2010 02:49:00 AM
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Nothing like Christmas cookies to bring out some christmas cheer (:
Labels: (:
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/24/2010 01:32:00 AM
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Thursday, December 23
I've been sitting in the darkness of my room for the past 3 hours doing absolutely nothing and living my life in my head.
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/23/2010 04:45:00 AM
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Wednesday, December 22
Don't forget i'll hold your head, watch the night sky fading red
Would really like to leave and explore, then share my observations of the world with you. But thats three things too much to ask for.
Yesterday, or was it some other day I don't really know, I dreamt I went back on my exchange. And if ever I do go back to Yosemite, I promise to scale every single one of those waterfalls.
A little bit of secular discourse here. Firstly, sometimes relationship hit a plateau and there really is no reason to persist. But the reason why we hold on is because of the journey it took to get there. Secondly, I exist to give in to some whim and fancies of some people. But the somes are really important because I still expect some sense of proper demeanor and more importantly, some time ago you ceased to fall into the category of "some people". Thirdly, some people are so nice it makes me feel like I'm a bad person but if you ask me, I maintain that I'm just being brutally honest. But there are so many obligations that are at odds with what you really feel/want and where do you draw the line between being responsible and being real?
Don't go and assume I am being angsty here just because I don't accept crap as much as you think I do.
Labels: everyday nonsense, exchange, random
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/22/2010 02:12:00 AM
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Tuesday, December 21
Don't like means don't like.
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/21/2010 03:08:00 AM
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Monday, December 20
Okay dont faint Qiu. HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAH
Labels: BFTP
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/20/2010 02:58:00 AM
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Being on this road is anything but sure.
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/20/2010 01:22:00 AM
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I love Yap Qiuhong (please say thank you so I can say valcome).
Aside from Crazy Christmas with her and a very happy phone call I also had a great day food hunting across more than 5 mrt stops.
But 15 min on the sidelines seem, well more like 45mins. And every time my wrist winces, this snowball of irritation within me grows.
Some people would but they couldn't and some could but they wouldn't.
Labels: ):, love you, rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/20/2010 12:44:00 AM
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Saturday, December 18
是不是我想的太多 还是你也在闪躲?
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/18/2010 11:15:00 AM
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For one very long moment in the very crowded train today I felt like I was fighting the urge to cry. Then when I finally decided I should, I didn't feel like it anymore. It's just the way I work and how I stop wanting to do something the moment I get permission to.
But the a3 gathering was fantastic. I love talking to Aileen and bullying Kai and laughing at Jess and listening to Ching's quotes and snickering at line's eyes and admiring Jiaxi and being envious at Freda and basking in Grace's very unconditional love for me (and the rest of the girls I love too). Now I'm in an incredibly sleepy and satisfied mood and cannot wait till later this evening when I have made plans for a glorious (at least) 12 hours sleep.
Goodnight wrist, wound, ears and rash, I hope we all feel a little better tomorrow.
Note to self: exercise some discipline.
Labels: love you
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/18/2010 03:41:00 AM
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Friday, December 17
Should I say that things could be worst or that things would get better. No difference really, both doesn't make me felt an iota better.
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/17/2010 07:42:00 PM
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Okay the previous post was very controlled. Actually I'm just
really irritated and want to stay at home and away from all these trainings that I want to and I feel like I have to go and train for and really just bundle myself up in blankets and stay as a cocoon for the next 2 weeks. Hopefully when I emerge, I'll be pretty (these lack of sleep is killing me), healthy with fully functional wrist and no more mud in my ears.
Labels: URGH
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/17/2010 01:06:00 AM
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I had fun at Scooby vs KR soccer friendly then sparring session against 'SRC' during training yesterday but I must say the wound that burst open staining great portion of my shirt is freaking annoying because firstly it hurts (more that I care to share already) and secondly I don't think I should be training very much now for awhile (I guess maybe NUH werent kidding when they said 1 mth for full recovery) and most importantly, now I cannot lie on my tummy and watch dramas on my mac.
Sorry, I tried but I guess theres no way I can whine about this in an effective manner that wont make me sound like a baby/ act poor thing/ ays.
Oh but got to play against and with Phin and she still is too funny one of my favourite people I don't know (:
Labels: (:, ):, rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/17/2010 12:56:00 AM
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Thursday, December 16
If love doesnt, the lack of
it will.
Labels: random
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/16/2010 01:20:00 AM
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Wednesday, December 15
I am not very forgiving when it comes to social transgressions.
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/15/2010 08:54:00 PM
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Dancing is quickly scaling up my list of "Activities that make me feel like crap". Practice today was intensely draggy in an I'm-so-lousy-can-this-just-be-over way. Didn't help that I came back to news of someone being a complete stuck up (well, I hope you're happy that way).
And I was completely going to insist going out for a good lunch to perk myself up with a coffebean fix and an ice lolly, but I think someone out there knew what I really wanted was company today :)) (or a Harry Potter book that I forgot to bring to hall :/)
Labels: dance, Eusoff
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/15/2010 02:16:00 PM
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I could get used to this but I know I really shouldn't because getting used to something is the perfect setting for disappointment.
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/15/2010 02:36:00 AM
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原来心酸比心痛难受
Having a slight headache from dehydration/the never ending chemicals in my hair. I must say that perming my hair really helps to be able to tie my hair not too tightly and my bun stays in a bun and so its not purely for aesthetic purposes. On the downside, I look aunty MAXIMUM every time my hair gets wet. Oh well at least I'm interesting now.
The to-be-scar on my wound suddenly turned a scary shade of black, I'm kind of scared now actually. :/ Also when i press around the area there seems to be a solid bumpish thing and the doctor did say there is a chance that the cyst may come back and this time I really will cry.
Qiu and I tried to hide our blotting paper from the ktv guy as we were crossing the overhead bridge and the though of that will never stop making me crack up. ((:
Labels: everyday nonsense, love you, random, rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/15/2010 12:44:00 AM
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Tuesday, December 14
Some nights, like tonight, you realize that you're really on your own and that you need to stop expecting or even hoping that someone would do something small for you even though you would do so much more for that person. Maybe they would, but the keyword is maybe, because you never know for sure.
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/14/2010 02:32:00 AM
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My world could be your oyster.
Cannot seem to want to read anything except for Harry Potter :/
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/14/2010 12:20:00 AM
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Monday, December 13
I abhor the way you make me feel when you are no where near.
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/13/2010 03:45:00 AM
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When you're not feeling well and try to appear alright, people think you're putting up a front. If you're sulky and upset, most people either don't know how to comfort you or think that you're being a whinny person. If you ask me, I would like a hug and we could leave it at that (unless I know its worth my while to spil my guts out to you). Today someone asked if I'm okay, and I said "yes... no." And I can't remember what happened after but that was really enough. I'm not a fan of babying over injuries and I don't see the point sharing the dolor but to have someone care in a very subtle way was kind of nice.
There is nothing scary about choice. Its only scary when you have no choice. Or when you have so many choices you feel like you don't have a choice.
If you were ever to ask me, I would tell you honestly "You hold all the cards".
Labels: stargazing
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/13/2010 12:13:00 AM
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Sunday, December 12
As much as I love my parents and know that they love me very much, they don't know shit about me and I think based on that, it would be best for them to stop trying to tell me how to best live my life. Not that everything I do is right of course, but if after 3 years they're still asking me what
subject I'm studying and why am I not studying during the holidays, I don't think they have speaking rights on how I should overload on modules and graduate early (and btw, I am overloading on modules just to graduate on time, which of course they have no clue and it might take me 3 mths to explain that to them. After which it will just arrive at the conclusion that its all my fault for not having been brighter about module planning)
Oh and after all that, excuse me while I go on the "I feel like a shit daughter" guilt trip.
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/12/2010 01:29:00 AM
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"The people who told you that the early bird catches the worm are also the same people who'll tell you later, after you've eaten a worm, that only fools rush in where angels fear to tread."
Labels: random
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/12/2010 01:21:00 AM
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I can't help being harsh, then hating myself for it.
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/12/2010 01:17:00 AM
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Saturday, December 11
I love it when people reply with just ":)" Its such a nice way of saying "I know we have nothing to talk about but I enjoyed talking to you and would continue to text you more if we had more to say. But we dont and its okay. Bye! (:". Am I reading too much into it?
Labels: (;, random
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/11/2010 11:09:00 PM
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Okay this is completely not post worthy but I have been kind of irritated because firstly theres so many things on my to-do list such that I threw it away altogether and secondly I cannot quite figure out if the film in my sproket rocket is properly wound up of am I taking pictures on nothing at all.
Going to perm my hair tomorrow and I'm excited. I'm just bored of this plainness. My hair is really very much like me, nice and completely uninteresting. I would actually cut it all off but I need to save a ponytail just in case I ever need a scrum cap. Okay I am discussing MY HAIR here, this is how very much I am turning into such a bore in my candycane pjs. (:
What if I don't have anything I want to tell you except that I miss you very much?
"There are a million ways to bleed. But you are by far my favourite."Labels: everyday nonsense, stargazing
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/11/2010 10:53:00 PM
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I don't quite know how to articulate this, but I haven't been properly happy even though I've been happy. Hopefully its due to the lack of proper sleep and diet and tomorrow the sky will be a little bluer (although the silent sun can afford to take a break).
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/11/2010 01:40:00 AM
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Oh and during a very recent handball training, someone I didnt use to like (If you know me you should know that I consider don't like and dislike to be very different attitudes) surprised me not only as a player but as a person and that was really nice (:
Labels: Eusoff, handball
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/11/2010 01:30:00 AM
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Rover died last week.
People need to know that despite being very hardy, I still feel physical pain and cannot always be expected to maintain a good demeanor, get back on my feet to bear more of that senseless shin kicking/slashing/elbowing in the cyst wound. I'm not weak but I don't appreciate being manhandled.
Cinderellah with Qiu was so good because shes such a darling. I would have been so annoyed if I was on the verge of missing the show but no, she was so nice and such a love. (: Her tempers really been improving so and I think its quite the opposite for me.
Labels: did you know?, love you
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/11/2010 01:01:00 AM
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Friday, December 10
So here I am sitting in bus 10 on my way to watch cinderellah eating a crunchie which is the only thing I've had all day beside a donut factory donut which I didn't particularly like and wondering if I should have just ate that pork floss bun from breadtalk which I bought 5 days ago. Was thinking if I should tweet about my situation and was wondering if people actually care. But then again, 自己tweet 自己爽what right? But then my complex but very careless little brain decided to think about too many things and there we have it- a cacophony of thoughts strung together in words that will never be adequate for true expression. So I'm been thinking of something I told a friend yesterday that was completely harsh in an unnecessary way. Maybe I should feel bad for bearing such thoughts, but really, despite thinking it through a few times today, I feel completely righteous and you are welcomed to disagree with me.
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/10/2010 07:28:00 PM
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I want a nice warm hug and some christmas in a cup now.
Awesome hall night with xy at D block bench but we'll pay sorely tomorrow I'm sure.
Labels: holiday, random
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/10/2010 05:04:00 AM
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Thursday, December 9
I felt so bad about the handball team I decided to train yesterday even though handball is basically wrist suicide so I sort of deserve this semi ache. And seeing as we have a flat 7 for friendly tomorrow, I am all prepared to 'suck it up'. Even though I do acknowledge that its quite stupid because 'sucking it up' would bring me back to square one so I'll see how it goes anyway.
I was telling Qianfu about my 'injuries' and suddenly I feel so unaccomplished like there he is with his job woes and on to his new job and new life challenges with a new set of experiences and basically I've been at this stage in life for a seemingly prolonged period with no insights and no contribution whatsoever. But maybe I'm just feeling strange because recently I seem so have so many friends in the workforce and I must wait for them to "get out of the office" or "come and pick me up" and I'm not used to that.
And Ps back and she texts exactly the way I remember her to just that I don't remember forming up such awkward replies haha.
Labels: Eusoff, handball, random
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/09/2010 02:17:00 AM
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Wednesday, December 8
你的眼中藏着什么我从来都不懂
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/08/2010 05:23:00 PM
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And even though all has come to pass, you still warm me up by the sheer power of being you and I really think I'm lucky (:
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/08/2010 01:30:00 PM
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I find it weird how sometimes we reply frivolous and random conversations with such ease but somehow when the receiver is someone a little bit more special, the words stop in formation. Shouldn't the special person be the one you want to talk to without holding back most?
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/08/2010 01:27:00 PM
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I've been wondering if a soft spot ever fades. Because soft spot, unlike affection, needs no reciprocation or action and can very well survive on it's own.
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/08/2010 01:16:00 PM
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How do you know when too much is too much?
Even if it seems like I'm a bit to free to be true, I am really looking forward to tomorrow- ktv with the hilarious girls who are missing our boys who need to come home soon and stop having so much fun in Europe.
Labels: love you, stargazing
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/08/2010 02:56:00 AM
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"I'm a stitch away from making it, and a scar away from falling apart." -Fall Out Boy
THE ITCHYNESS CAN KILL. Really shouldnt have geh kiang and put the brown tape now I am curling up in pure agony. (Okay there really wasnt a need for the pictorial grossness but these are my first stitches after all)
Labels: rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/08/2010 02:28:00 AM
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Tuesday, December 7
At some very precise point today, I felt the phase "stomach in knots".
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/07/2010 03:35:00 AM
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Monday, December 6
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/06/2010 02:36:00 PM
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"Of all the priceless objects left behind, this is what we rescue. These artifacts. Memory cues. Useless souvenirs. Nothing you could auction. The scars left from happiness."
- Chuck Palahniuk
Couldnt sleep thanks to the itch that I would give 2 fingernails up to scratch and I'm so happy Minli gained new grounds in terms of our friendship (:
And sudden urge to go on a film camera frenzy, I need some black and white film and I'm all set! haha I can't seem to remember what I used to do during the past dec hols, but I don't remember it to be this free and this awkward. Not in a bad way either
Now this is weird I guess responsibility is out of style today. Its damn annoying this whole hall thing. Now what is the point of having 4 out of 6 dance practices without the choreo and people who cancel/suddenly decide to have training in less than 1 days notice. Yes I'm this prude who believes in following a schedule and must find a way to deal with the temperaments of flexible people nowadays.
Oh and the modules that I MUST do next semester clashes so now its either I have to write a thesis (I could die) , delay graduation or graduate without an honours prematurely. Somehow I don't seem to be as distressed as I should be but not that fretting will solve the problem. (I'm sorry even I'm bored writing this para)
And those were really supposed to be yesterday's feelings.
Labels: :(, Eusoff, everyday nonsense, NUS
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/06/2010 01:59:00 AM
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Sunday, December 5
My wound IS FREAKING ITCHY I think I'm currently resisting the biggest temptation all year.
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/05/2010 11:35:00 PM
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You're all coffee and no omeletteI have enjoyed spending time with my friend Lim Mee recently. I know she'll think I'm weird and/or creepy but thats only because she can't seem to deal with affection and thats really her problem not mine.
And oh well, sometimes I say too much.
DAMNNNN gian to start running around. Soon soon, I feel like I'm recovering well, even my wrist is damn 听话 now. (:
Labels: (:, love you, random
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/05/2010 10:03:00 PM
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Gracie is one person I only have nice and good things to speak of. (: Love her very much, the waddle walk and all ((:
Labels: love you, random
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/05/2010 01:02:00 AM
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Saturday, December 4
爱你怎么能了?
In a 新不了情 mood now so I've been playing the three versions of it for the past 2 hours or so. I need to get some pasta and Max Brenner in my blood tomorrow.
Labels: random
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/04/2010 02:07:00 AM
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I love the word reprise.
Labels: did you know?
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/04/2010 01:45:00 AM
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I think I wish you were here.
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/04/2010 01:14:00 AM
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Friday, December 3
You could be my plus one
(I think plus one is such a cute term)
Really had a simple but great day today and I'm craving for more of that samsui chicken thinggy.
Cyst op tomorrow after 6 months and 7 doctor visits (I kid you not) and taking into account that its my first real surgery and everything I guess I'm being kind of brave. But I'm actually more afraid I don't have the discipline to stay out of any physical activity for two weeks.
And I was packing my cupboard just yesterday and am actually surprised to find so many jerseys as if I'm some really multi-talented athlete. I still wonder sometimes how I try to play sports when I am really not gifted in this department.
You really should not have said that and I really could have done with a more honest reply.
I need to get down to make my bedroom look as comfy as this (: Not that I need more reason to stay in bed, but this would totally put me in a snazzy mood all day.
Labels: everyday nonsense, home, rugby
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/03/2010 05:25:00 AM
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Thursday, December 2
I think about you like you put the stars in the sky. I don't know for sure if
thats a good or not thing.
I guess this is just another disagreement I have to pretend did not happen. I hate the way they give in to me and I pretend its okay because I dont want to, and it would be wrong to stay upset. But that doenst mean we've reached any compromise, or undid any hurt, it just means we're being politically very correct.
I know I'm very loved, I just don't like the way I am loved and I don't like this thought because its max ungrateful but, as usual, I can control my actions but emotions escapes me.
Labels: home, love you
Mamihlapinatapei : 12/02/2010 01:05:00 AM
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This time last year I was alone (ironically I was in the cheapest mixed room for room of 8) in Green tortoise hostel, Seattle. This time this year I am still alone (still on a bed) and still feeling like the year that just passed left so much unanswered and the year that is to come will holds so much promises. 
